I awake on the forest floor, from my bed of moss and leaves, and with the warmth of young sunlight, I instantly feel more confident, and with this confidence, I decide to take my first proper exploration into the forest, which is interesting to say the least. My little namesake symbol has now appeared and I show it off proudly to a couple of midnight blue stags who quickly cast a spell on me, I do not mind walking around in a peacock mask, but it is a funny sort of hello.

I meander thoughtfully through the trees, and watch proud stags with heads full of fork lightening antlers race by, it is true, I cannot wait to be like them. My ramble takes me to a small drinking pool, a couple of fawns greet me and I notice that, as they drink, they are turning into other woodland creatures, curiosity overwhelms confusion and I follow suit. I must say, that being a squirrel running between the hooves of fawns was nowhere near as intoxicating as my first flight as a dove.

Throughout my first trip, my appearance has changed many times, I welcome these changes as they inspire me greatly, it is nice to try various pelts and masks, as they provide a window into the stag I may become, they are also a great way to bond with other deer. The most haunting experience was from a white stag. He came through the trees, slowly walked up to me, reared, cast a spell and ran off. My pelt was completely white and given my connection to wings, I enjoyed this, and was deeply disappointed when the spell wore off. I have not since seen this stag, and he did not have a symbol on his crown. My pelt has also resembled a badger and the deepest red of a poppy.

My morning ends dozing at the pond with the two fawns I had played with earlier on. We were gradually surrounded by stags who also came to sleep near us. I now feel soothed and safe within the forest and have slotted into this new life perfectly. I wonder what else awaits me.

Wingless x

Chapter 1: Vacancy

“Boy, come here.” The old doe called to her fawn. The little calf had been staring at the grass for quite some time now. He watched the blades solemnly rock back and forth with open mouthed curiosity. At his mother’s call he slowly moved his head up and walked towards her, occasionally missing a step. His face wore a dull smile, his eyes vacant.

The old doe had known since his birth that he would be different. His mind was not necessarily blank, but it carried a certain amount of emptiness that any one deer could note. She had been warned not to carry anymore children at her age. However, despite her divine properties, she was still an animal. An animal that, like any other, had to carry on the genetic code, no matter what the cost.

The calf was now lying next to her, nuzzling against her shaggy pelt for warmth. Unlike many fawns, he was born with whitish pelt tinted with pale brown. The cream coloured deer looked at his mother with longing, trusting eyes.

“Who will care for him when I’m gone?” his mother thought with a sudden jolt of fear. She was getting to be quite elderly now. Casting spells had become more than tiring; it had become life-threatening. She knew her time was coming to a close. The fawn had already started to sprout little nubs for antlers, yet he continued to act as a newborn would. He was now staring up at the sky, watching two bluebirds circle overhead.

“Perhaps I’ll live long enough. I hope I do.” And with that fleeting thought the old doe went to sleep.

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Yes, I know, I've only just started yesterday. Oh well. I felt like writing. I'm not very good at it, but I felt like it. I hope doing this will help me to improve.

"When you close your eyes, Ice, what do you see? Tell me your feelings and wishes and dreams..."


"Touraga, my Daddy.. he's gone. For good..."

"I wish I had known him better in a way, I had only seen him once..."
"Mummy says that she had made the wrong choice between Touraga and Lorque. So now Lorque is my Daddy. I haven't seen him yet, but Mummy says he is gentle and kind. I hope she is right.."

"I heard of Rhapsody, another fawn, when I first entered the forest. I feel almost drawn towards him in a way, and I really want to meet him in-forest. I haven't got a friend at the moment, I think I move on too quickly before other fawns get to know me. I hear that when I'm older, and I have turned into a big deer, I might have a mate, a stag.. But I don't want to grow up.. I want to stay with Mummy and Daddy and be their little daughter, and Wish's sister.. But I know it will happen one day.. Even though I dont want it too.."

"What do you think, Voice of my dream?"

"Ice, just follow your heart and the path of your dreams. But I must go now.. I am tired..

"No, please Voice of my dream! Please stay.. Will I see you again?"

"Of course you will Ice.. Of course you will..."

Wanderers Silent Dream

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Name: Fehaine (pronounced feuh-HEHN) nickname: Feha (pronounced Feh-ha)
Age: Young adult (about 19 or 20 if she were a human)
Gender: Doe
Appearance: Feha has a lithe, delicate frame, like most does. Her neck is long and slender, as are her legs, making her look like she's walking on stilts. She towers over most smaller does, but she isn't quite as tall as the average stag. She has a thin, sharp-featured face with a long snout, big eyes, and long, constantly twitching ears.
Current Set: Dark Real Deer Pelt/Real Deer Mask/Noh Antlers [the whole real deer set]
Other Sets: Magpie pelt, monarch pelt, Great Argus pelt, or the real deer pelt without spots (not default). She always wears the real deer mask and either Peacock or Noh antlers. These days she tends to wear Noh antlers more often.
Personality: Though quiet and introverted, Feha likes to meet and interact with other deer -- she gets terribly lonely sometimes. She always tries to avoid conflict and is often the first to back down from a fight (not including spars -- she doesn't mind any of that, as long as no one gets hurt). She isn't exactly weak, but she just hates violence in general. Even though she's intelligent, but naive, being young - she'll do almost anything you ask her to, especially if she thinks she's doing someone a favor, because she takes pride in doing the "right thing" and caring for others. Of course, she isn't so dumb that she'll just believe everything, and she'll usually find out that she's been tricked once it happens. She's more of the intuitive type, and listens to her innermost thoughts, feelings, and instincts before she acts.
But she's not some boring little goodie-two-shoes. She actually does have a sense of humor and can be really sarcastic and mischievous if she's in the right mood.

[This is an interaction, or roleplay, blog. Have fun with the images!]

For personal reasons. New one's here, if you care to watch. :U

Saosin sat next to me and shivered. I couldn't tell exactly what he was shivering about, but I could sense the nearby wolves. that was probably the reason why he was sooo afraid. The wolves were raging throughout the forest. thier red eyes gleaming through the darkness. the next second I closed my eyes, saosin was gone. At first I thought I was just dreaming, but then it really happened. I saw myrfor standing right in front of me, his red eyes gleaming in hunger. my bones felt cold under the sweat of fear. Instead of running, I had someone to thank. that would be hakilu. He saved my life from joaro once, but now I had to return the favor. myrfor had been chasing hakilu for a long time. I had to kill myrfor. so I got up on my hind legs and snapped him in the face. He took two seconds to recover and I lashed at him again, but he dodged me and grouled. His eyes froze me and I couldn't move. before I knew it he lashed at me, but the only thing I saw was blood dribbling down my side. changed my ways and stood next to myrfor. He looked at me like I was crazy, and scrached me cold. I lie on my side and wait for my death but then I was healed and looked throught the shadows. I felt so weak a moment before when myrfor was here but now I was strong again as I waited for saosin to come back I saw kaori. She told me saosin had been with hakilu the whole time I was here. I stood and still could tell she was lying because she always twitched her nose when she lied. I didn't tell her that she was lying and stood and waited for saosin. He then came around the corner of the great ruins and said," you have saved us all from myrfor, you shall be praised." of course I wasn't looking for thanks but he still bowed to me anyway as a piont of graditude. I have much to be thankful for after that day, but I will always remember that battle with myrfor and the heart of the ruins.