Evania's Journal.

NightmarishWaltz was born as a deer avatar in the Endless Forest on 28 March 2011. As any child she is looking forward to growing into a strong and a beautiful deer.

Old, old art. Softwing my original character that was inspired by The Endless Forest.
2007



A newer piece, 2009.

...to prove I'll try again, try to die again, try to live through this night, try to die again...



Day in, day out - the sounds of lives living, lives lost. He knew them already, knew them well. He had seen the years go by, dissolve like sugar in water - sweet for only so long.

It was a terrible way to live, that - to watch everything he'd known, possibly cared about, get old and wither. Not even the flowers mattered much. Soon, they too would fade into insignificance.

It's not that he was without fight. There were days when it was all he did - fight with others, fight with himself. Those were the worst fights - you can't win against your own worst enemy, the one that mocks you in your mind.

He was terribly tired. Atlas had nothing on him - fuck the world, when you had problems like his.

And now? Now he couldn't even watch the world pass him by, sight stolen so suddenly. Now everything was dark, if not silent. He could still hear the sounds of life around him, the screams of children in delight and horror. Both things were so easily found here.

Not everything was peaceful in this world - he knew that well enough.

But he never quit - it wouldn't've been too hard to, to be fair. It would not have been impossible to end it with the suddenness of a mausoleum's door slamming shut, a candle snuffed out. Not his style, though - not that he really had any style.

No, dying wasn't the answer he'd spent all his life looking for.

The answer he was still looking for. So he closed his useless eyes and listened to the world.

The world that kept passing him by, living and loving, lost and alone.

Life as lost and alone as he was, never knowing where it was going, but so, so ready for the trip to be over.

If you save an animal/mini spell over your set, and open/close the game, then, if you sneeze the shapeshifter spell off... Will you be naked/loose your set?
Or will you loose a part of your set?

I've never managed to get this combination before though, I am trying.

I've managed to get the Monarch Butterfly pelt on my deer.

The skull face apparently is only around Halloween during Abiogenesis. A giant zombie deer will give you the skull face if you set a spell on it.

The flowered antlers are alluding me as well. Years ago, I remember getting that one on my deer all the time. So I don't know why I can't manage it now.

I really haven’t played the game much in 4 years. The game has changed but surprisingly, not that much.

1. Your favorite animal is deer (duh)
2. You believe your deer is real.
3. You think every forest you step into is endless.
4. You go on TEF on a daily basis.
5. You flip out if you cannot play TEF for one hour.
6. You know you're obsessed with it.
7. You have way to many deer characters.
8. You've wore every mask, antler, and pelt in the game.
9. You can only draw deer.
10. You bug your friends about deer and TEF.
11. You don't believe in God. You believe in the Twin Gods.
12. You think you will become pure white every time you pray.
13. You use TEF emotions and actions everyday.
14. People say you moo in your sleep.
15. Your favorite food is mushrooms.
16. Your fingers bleed from typing on your blog.
17. Your not in good shape because you've spent half of your life on the computer.
18. You have a dream involving the Endless Forest every night.
19. You believe your inner animal is a deer.
20. You've been playing the game from the very start.
21. You've encountered every glitch and bug in the game.
22. You throw up at the thought of eating venison.
23. You have shape-shifted into every animal in the game.
24. You get excited over a stack of deer in the game.
25. You never want to be a hunter.
26. You've created an organization to stop hunters from hunting deer.
27. You take every deer you see home and keep it as a pet.
28. You are never too far from your computer.
29. You check the map every day to see who's online.
30. You pretend you're a deer every day.