...and by god, I was horrified at the story my hands weaved.
It's time to sweep the table clean, and get the facts straight.
Bear with me, however. I'm typing this at about 2:30 in the morning, and I technically shouldn't even be in the lounge at this hour. But I'm throwing away sleep time for this. Because frankly, I need to let some steam off outside of the Forest. Those of you who witnessed me beating the sap out of the trees will now see what my grievances are/were concerning.
I'll start with the obvious. I
hate seeing the community torn apart like this. It's true that I haven't been here that long (Maybe since last September), but I still feel that there's something about this community that sets it apart from the forums and such that I've been to. Save for TKK. TKK will
always have a firm bond with me, regardless as to how detached I am from it now.
But regardless, seeing everyone in disarray like this hurts a bit. Sure, chaos and drama is the very lifeblood of life itself, and without it, the world would turn cold and stale; but it has always been within human nature to hate the very things that keep them alive. Hence why I voice this confession of hating drama and chaos.
And yet, it's almost cruel that, despite hating it, I seem to get drawn right into it; in fact, I feel that sometimes I've
caused it, and not of my own will. Which is, again, hurtful to me.
Getting away from that, another confession: I
will confess to being selfish towards most things. And yet, I keep myself humble at the same time; Many times I've said, "Oh this sucks," and whatnot, and everytime I say it, I do, in fact, mean it. But at the same time, there's a nagging thought in me that tells me the reason I said so was to garner compliments.
