Previously; Witnessed the death of her son, unpredictable and needy. Seeking comfort and company.
Miyako (Mee-yah-koo) | Identity | 21.12.2013 | In her prime | Female | Wild white-tailed deer | Northern Brazil | Home
» Innocent being at birth. Grew as a naive and easily lead on adolescent leading her into countless of troubles and heartache. Traumatized as she was a victim of an assault. Her former lover took abused her both mentally and physically until the point of no return. In addition the breaking of her second family, her foster family caused her more mental trauma by disowning her at a very delicate time of her life. Being unlucky with partners she has intimacy issues and a great fear towards the male gender.
» Loves unconditionally, cares passionately. Hates brutally. She still shows submission towards many, but has shaken off the naive nature she once held. Suspicious when first meeting someone, unlikely to trust or forgive easily.
» Has taken collecting and crafting to heart as if she was to continue the legacy of her former guardian and partner. Has yet to practice crafting hoping one day she could create something magnificent.
Kenai First born biological son. Could not be there for him when he was born as she was taken from the world as we know it, was given the gift of returning when her son was already a teenager. They had hard time building their relationship and never truly managed to get close. With all the highs and lows with the boy she was incredibly proud of him and loved him to no end. Deceassed on 4th of December 2016.
Mortis Auctor Viewed as a Father and a Mentor. Deep rooted mutual connection she still feels after years of being separated. Longs for his calm presence more than anything, often seeks guidance from him even though he isn't around. Loading...
Djinn Adoptive Mother. When she was a newborn she received the greatest of care and protection from the hind, growing deeply attached to her, growing to respect and admire her. Relationship fell apart when she was disowned by the hind and her mate at the time. Miyako left burning bridges hoping to never see her face again. As time went by found herself longing for her mother's guidance and care, started mending things with her. Their bond is still in repair, mending. Loading..
Morikiah Former adoptive Father, a relationship she never managed to mend after breaking ties with him. When she was disowned by the orange male she felt great hatred and disgust towards the male, only recently understanding the male's reasoning behind his actions. Hoping to mend things with him, however cannot find the courage to track him down after so long.
Thane Her guardian, her former lover, her dream in a nightmare. Her very first infatuation, love and the reason for many of her mental issues to this day. She was physically, emotionally and mentally abused by the Craftsman and yet she found herself returning to his side time after time. The Craftsman is the very reason why she was disowned by her surrogate family as she would not let him go even when her family pledged her to. There are days when she regrets ever getting to know the male and days when she would give anything to return to him. Stockholm syndrome. Ptsd.
Nikodim Her beast, her guardian, hers. He was her first friend and first to look after her after her arrival. Cherished the beast highly, loved even. Would have done anything to gain his full attention and affections. A forbidden fruit. Greatly missed.
Neiro Father of Kenai. What started off as a friendship between a beast and a fawn turned into something deeper, on her behalf at least. Grew fond of him, loved him and believed he felt the same for her. Got pregnant with his child and not long after received the news of him and another female being an item. Bitter towards, yet misses.
Beren Best friend. A relationship she has always valued highly. At one time harbored feelings for the wolf, keeping them to herself mostly as she did not wish to disturb the dynamics of the wolf's family.
Umay Considered a friend after being rejected by the lion mother, grateful for everything she has done for. The Blue eyes would no longer breathe and walk the earth if it wasn't for her. There are no words to describe the gratitude she feels for her.
Leviathann Another strong female she looks up to, admires and is forever grateful to. Distantly respects her as she doesn't dare to approach her after all this time.
Khard Lost friendship. Once rather close with the beast, but never dared to let him as close as he would have wanted to be. Breaking the beast's heart she parted ways with him, hoping to mend things with her beast. Missed.
Maelstrom Feared. Disgusted by. Heavily disliked. His target and victim. Was nearly killed by him.
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"She won't. I guess those were just big words.. I hope." She flashed a nervous smile knowing she should be in there trying to get Nikodim away, but something stopped her. "Thank you, Ravly, for being there for me. I appreciate it a lot." She smiled and shyly placed a kiss to his cheek.
"Ahaaa..too much of these words." He knew that she'd like to help Niko, but those two was stronger then even from him. He saw whole different energies around them, mostly black of anger. "No problem. You werent guilty. She shouldnt.. I dont like it."
Did you feel as a wall next to the playground too? I mean you and Nik behind her, and me and Levi Lol
"It was nicely done." She nodded slowly and sighed before she turned around to find a calm place so that she'd be finally able to clean her wounds. Blood all over her face didn't feel nice.
// It was more like: 'I built an invisible wall here. You can't pass it, mkay? .___.' Itwasawesome.
He would settle near the small doe, for a while letting silence fall between them. Gaze would be cast her, eyes rolling over her wounds. "Brave, for being short", he spoke under his breath, gaze shifted to the ground then. "Kind of... stupid. Should be more...", he paused. No not stupid, that was rude. Ears would fall back with a gentle shake of the head. "I mean they are so big... and you are... well, be more careful, hmm?".
Startled, not scared. The young doe was dozing off right before she heard someone talking to her. "Mh.." A gentle shake of her head as she opened her eyes and saw the male somewhat near her. "It's okay. Stupid is quite a good word." She chuckled quietly and laid her head back to the ground. Fever made her tired. "I had to do something. They didn't-.. stop, you saw it yourself. Maybe I'll try to be more careful from now on." A pause. "You never introduced yourself, sir?"
A good word? Another shake of the head was given, though refrained from saying more on it. She was right though, and he was alleviated that he hadn't offended her. The stag could tell she wasn't feeling too well, would have offered to do more for her had he known anything about addressing wounds and the like. Useless... so very useless. He would silently huff. "Hmm... yea", he muttered before resting his own head, though ears perked up at that point, swiveling and swaying. "Thane, doe... and you?".
A naive doe such as herself tried to find good in everyone and so was rarely offended. She hadn't been able to clean the wounds up after receiving them and infection was inevitable. Cleaning them wasn't as effective later than it could have been. Her body was fighting against the infection, though. "Miyako, that's what they call me." She flashed a brief smile and curled up tighter.
Suddenly felt overwhelmed, for whatever reason, he didn't want to be there. His head would rise, eyes darting in every direction. Not safe, not safe. He felt suffocated and unwanted. "I... I should go", his breathing would increase, pushing through the tip of his skull, a faint whistle accompanying every breath of air. "Bye...", and with that would jump to his hooves and bolt off. The honorable thing to do would have been stay behind and watch over her, but that didn't even cross his mind. Perhaps, but only perhaps, he would return later.
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Sorry Miyako he's a weirdo, lol. Also tracking and all of that, she's really neat. Not sure if you're aware, but one of your boxes overlaps two of your other boxes, making it kind of hard to read.
Her ears perked up as she lifted her head up, his sudden moves made her wonder if there really was something to be afraid of, or at least cautious. "Oh..?" She wasn't able to say anything else. Confusion had filled her mind as she tried to draw the full picture of what was going on. She scanned the environment carefully before she was calm enough to lay her head back to the ground. "Bye, sir. It was nice meeting you." She whispered after he had left wondering if he was able to hear her.
// He's not that weird, just cute in his own way. Hah. Thank you for the track. ♥
Gah, I know. I've tried to fix that but I have no idea how to make it work. It looks fine on my screen and some other's I've been on. Noticed that, though, when I was on with my friend's laptop.
Aanyway, I've been coding lately quite a lot to redesign the whole blog. :'>
"She is pregnant...", he stated the obvious. It hadn't been so long ago that he was taught about the birds and the bees. Encase she was unaware, now she knew. The stag would settle in next to her, eyes scanning over her form. Wounds looked worse than he remembered... but this day he was more collected. "Hmm, does Miyako need anything?", he questioned nervously, ears falling back then rising simultaneously, repeated a couple of times with much swiveling in between.
"Who are you talking about? Umay?" The doe was awaken from her own dreamworld by the male's voice. She had gotten used to his silent company. The wounds may look worse than earlier but at least now they didn't ache. They had been cleaned properly and most likely the infection will ease up in no time. "No, thank you. All is fine." She replied with a nod and closed her eyes. Cautiously she leaned against the male, lying only a little bit weight on him.
He seemed good at that, depriving her of sleep. "Ah... mmhm... yeah". When she said all was fine his head lowered. There was nothing he could do? He lost his chance to help? 'Failure'. The stag would say nothing seeing as how he was caught off guard when the doe leaned against him. He didn't move but tensed up, perhaps the cause for his lack of movement to begin with, being frozen in place. This was helping though, right? Maybe not so much of a failure, at least not this day. Thane would sigh and with that became less tense, soon enough resting his own head. Eyes would peer off towards the group in the distance, a thought coming to him that would be shoved into a dusty corner soon after. Nothing more would be said, simply let the doe lean into him and rest, seeing as how that was most ideal.
A brief frown visited doe's face when she heard his response. "Something wrong, hm?" She turned her head a bit to be able to look at the male while talking. When she noticed how tense Thane became after her daring move, she closed her eyes and her ears pressed against her head. Maybe it was too much? Miyako had noticed he was no ordinary male. As his tension eased, she decided to push her luck and lean on some more. In her previous position her muscles were tense and it was starting to hurt mildly. "Would you like to tell me something about yourself, anything." She whispered as she tried to keep herself from fading into her dreamworld again. She liked this stag's presence, she felt safe.
The stag was brave and would lift his head, forcing his eyes to shift to the corner of his sockets and look to her, but only briefly, not enough time to capture the redness of her own eyes. It seemed as though he wasn't going to answer her. Every inch of his body was screaming to rise and bolt off, one of those split second decisions. He would shift, so ready to take off, but something stopped him, plastered where he was, would stay. "Ha...", he verbally spoke before a nervous chuckle was given. "We-well... pregnancy is beautiful". Ears would fall back then. 'No, no! You creep', he said to himself, mentally beating himself up over that. His comment was harmless, and not even creepy, but he simply didn't know how to properly socialize anymore. What was right and wrong? "I meeaaan, not saying she is beautiful... b-but the pregnancy is. NO... well she is beautiful... not like... gah". The stag gave up then, he was making it worse.
When the doe leaned into him some more he would fight back any physical shaking that wanted to take over. Instead he would lower his head to the ground once more and find a focus point, locking himself up. At her question he didn't even know what to say. Something about himself... "I collect things". She would probably think he was useless then. Collecting things... pfft. "I can make things", was tacked on, to perhaps detour her from touching on the subject of collecting. "Like... anything. I make a lot of things...". He would recall the pinecone music box he had made for Bei, the amber necklace for a friend, among a few other things. Thane huffed but not out of frustration, a way of releasing himself of the anxiety and nervousness felt. Talking was helping, at least for now. The topic wasn't a sensitive one, yet. "How about you...?".
With no clue about what she made him go through by her actions, she was content there. Sometimes one must push her away, tell her to give one space because she, herself, was a sucker for physical contact and would snuggle if she was comfortable around someone. She turned her head again to be able to look at the male as he spoke, her ears were pressed against her forehead this time making her precious pink flower drop. The flower touched her nose on its way down. It tickled. Leaning forward she picked up the flower and placed it on her leg since it was impossible for her to put it back were it belonged. "Thane," She said his name with a smile upon her soft features, like she was telling him to relax and not try so hard. It was somewhat adorable the way he tried to re-word his sentences without succeeding. "It is a beautiful thing, pregnancy. That feline over there was the first pregnant female I've seen and she's glowing. Maybe someday I'll be in her position." The last part was meant to be something silly, joking around. The doe was still too young to take care of a fawn since she needed to be taken care of.
Ever since she saw this stag in the distance while Nikodim and Leviathann fought she had been fascinated by him. There just was something that caught her interest and was able to receive her full concentration. Collecting things. Making things. She had a habit of collecting things as well. Only thing she thought was worth keeping is the flower she got at her first day in the forest. But making things? How did he make those things? Of what he made them? Dozens of questions floated in her mind at the moment but thought it would be better to leave them for later. "I.. Hm." At first she thought it was easy to tell random facts about herself but seemed like it wasn't. She was silent for a moment as she pondered. "Well, I don't have a family. Biological nor adopted. Although I wish to have one someday. My curiosity often gets me into troubles and I think I trust others too easily."
He would catch movement out of the corner of his sockets. Head would shift to see what was going on... awh, her flower had fallen. The stag wanted to retrieve it and put it back behind her ear... but that would have been intrusive, and he didn't want to be scolded for touching her pretty flower, had it been something of importance. When she said his name eyes further looked to her, this time to perhaps capture her own, his shifting color frequently. "Oh...", he muttered. Seemed she understood what he was trying to get at, which was a relief. "This would be my third...", he counted silently making sure he was correct. His mom, this doe, and then there was... Syahi. At her mention of hoping to someday be in her position he'd look away, had he caught her eyes before would have by then taken note of how red they were. Anything silly about it he had not grasped. "I mean third time knowing a pregnant doe...". The stag was fascinated by pregnancy, there was just something about it so... alluring.
"Family isn't always... the best to have", he laid out... although would hang onto one thing that slipped passed her lips. "No biological family?", he questioned then hummed, raising so many more questions. He had been told that in order to exist a stag and a doe must love each other, but what she said conflicted with what he had been told. "Do you mean they are dead?". It slipped passed with ease, with little regards to how sensitive the subject may have been for her. Curiosity had been sparked, and he didn't even think of it as a bad question. At this point he was under the belief that deer could be born from thin air now. If that was so he wanted to learn of this secret so that he may craft many, many children for himself. Thane had once been family oriented, and perhaps still was, but feared what would come of such relations in the end. So far he had lost almost everyone brought in as family, acquired mostly during the beginning, now were all gone, or in hiding. At least he never saw them anymore... With that he would rest his weight into the tree at his side, silently wondering and reminiscing until deciding to touch on her comment about trust. "Trust fades with experience".
The stags nervousness seemed to be fading, replaced with a growing seriousness as their conversation progressed.
Gently she touched the pink flower petal with her hoof thinking how vulnerable that living thing actually was. She hadn't thought of it earlier and was no concerned if it would break someday. Or just die. Then his eyes met hers, she swore last time she had seen his eyes they were colored differently. A light frown visited her face yet again and soon turned into a warm smile.
Your third? The frown was back upon her elegant features again. She tilted her head lightly as if she was asking him to tell more. "Ah. Do you have kids of your own?" The question she let out in the open would bring fantastic memories of good times together or something that she could not imagine, something horrible. A child taken away from him, maybe? Nevertheless, to her the question was innocent, held no memories in it. "What you mean it isn't? Can't really say if I'm happier with or without since I've only experiences from the last one. Can't compare." A pause. "I mean.. I don't know. I might have biological parents somewhere out there in a place far away from here. Alive or dead, don't know that either." For now she was clueless, she didn't know the fact that her slightly older sister had brought her here, to safety, when something horrible had happened back at home. Her parents were indeed alive, lived in the Northern Brazil, but to her they were very much unknown and would stay that way for now.
Even though her 'real' family wasn't here, some of the deer had become close to her, family-like, but she didn't dare to consider them as a family, not just yet. And like every little girl dreams, so does she. Someday she wishes to have a beautiful offspring of her own, someone to treasure and teach how life works. Her thoughts about life and world were naive, she thought everything had a good side to it. Bad stuff happened for a reason and no one was evil to the heart. "Maybe it does. Everyone keeps telling me not to trust so easy." She shrugged like it was nothing. Although she was able to tell right from wrong but she wasn't able to tell a good person from bad.
The corners of her mouth lifted up as she felt her companion relaxing, now she was able to snuggle into his fur.
Watched the doe mess with the flower, hadn't caught any facial expressions though, as he had avoided further eye contact for the time being. The stags ears would flicker now and again, occasionally rolling over to observe the three nearest them... silly deer, especially that young buck that he'd spent the past couple of days with. At his companies question took a deep breath. "Afraid not". Not necessarily a lie, to him when Syahi had left, it wasn't his child. He figured he'd never see it, and so his response harbored some truth behind it. Anyways, he didn't want to get caught up on a sad subject such as that. Just as well, Thane had some doubts it was his child to begin with, that Syahi was merely feeding him lies so she'd have a male in her life to bring up some other stags offspring. His shoulders when rise then drop, legs further tucked into himself with neck craned, still steadily observing the three to their side, although gaze was forcefully pulled from there back onto her.
"I mean...", he began but then paused, contemplating a way to go about it. "There is a lot that comes with having a family. There are ups and down, complications, feuds. A lot to consider. At least, if you do intend to have a family, eventually, whenever it may be, choose very.... very... carefully". His tone had started off rather gentle, but grew into something dark and bold. Quills had even begun to rise, but with a shake of the head and a dry snort refocused his gaze elsewhere, getting any rising temper under control before an explosion happened. A sweet doe such as Miyako shouldn't of been subjected to any of his lingering hatred, anyways. "I see...", his tone much softer then, in response to her parents.
"I can't tell you to be more careful, that would be like me trying to force feed you a personal view simply because that's what I believe. But, I can tell you're a bright young doe who can make her own decisions... hopefully based upon her own experiences, and not others". The stag thought for a moment, how contradictory he had been being. He said that to her now, yet had just prior been feeding her his views on family and choosing carefully. Perhaps she wouldn't notice... When the doe snuggled into his fur a gentle sigh was given, eyes peering to the flower then. "Little Miyako... would you like me to fasten that flower back behind your ear?".
The young doe's tail swished from side to side slowly, contently, as she was feeling a bit better. Her fever had almost fully disappeared but her eyes were still tired, not as red anymore. She gave a simple nod as a response to him when he stated that he had no offspring and so did not place any further questions to the subject. Cunningly hidden within a sigh she inhaled the male's scent, making herself to believe it was just to make it easier for her to track him down if needed. From the corner of her eye she was able to see him observing the massive tree beside them. She smiled and focused her gaze back to the flower again.
She glanced at the male when he started speaking again but this time she did not focus on his eyes but his lips, to the way they moved. His words made her think. Was building a family much more work than she had thought? Ironic enough, behind their backs beside a tree the feline had gone into labor. A new family was about to be built. Most importantly, how would she know when she is ready to take a full responsibility of another creature, to nurture it and keep it safe with all costs, to love it unconditionally. "I understand that family is something that is not to be taken lightly, but how on earth can I be absolutely sure about everything? What kind of downs there might be?" She thought she'd let a few of the thousands of questions escape her mind to be answered, hoping she wasn't bothering the male too much with her inexperienced babbling. "Mh, I should base my decisions upon my own experience? Easier said than done. Sometimes it seems like mistakes are done for me so that I don't need to repeat them. Others have done them already. Hah. " She let out a chuckle. It was cute when others protected her from everything, she had no worry in the world, which was already made for her.
The doe shifted a bit away from the male and looked straight to her eyes, she had been to shy to ask for a favor and was more than glad now that he had offered his help. "It would be very much appreciated. It's... difficult by myself." A faint blush followed by a smile.
[e:] Just a heads up, I'm going to change Miyako's set to another account that I'm going to be using from now on. (: She'll be right back.
Thane couldn't seem able to pull his eyes away from the event which had unfolded before them, the birth of a new life. Eyes had long ago pulled from Miayko and the group of three to observe. Always a joyous day... yet felt insecure about it at the same time. He could only hope Umay and Lume would trust him near their child eventually. He had not done any wrong by the family, but still, a creeping sickness found its way to the pit of his stomach, worrying over being shunned or outcast, forbidden from joining them.
"You can never be for certain...", he addressed her question, while family related better than dwelling on the past, placing past events on the present... forwards, backwards. "You just... learn, and from there learn what is and isn't acceptable, learn what works and what doesn't... you experience these things and then apply it to future situations to determine the outcome... more favorable or not, that is a personal decision, I think". Eyes fell onto her smaller form then, shifting to the colors of her fur. "Too young to worry about it... you shouldn't worry about it. You just learn as you go, no point in worrying about it". Perhaps it was too late though, he had said so much.
"What do you mean, mistakes have been made for you so you don't have to repeat them, and others have done them already?", his head would tilt to the left, extremely curious as to what she meant, despite it being very clear. More likely than not he was curious as to who had done that for her and why, not so much clueless as to what she said in general. He wanted to say that wasn't right, he wanted to confront those who had stepped into her life and put those mistakes into play before their time... but he hardly knew this doe... that wouldn't be right. Still he hated how it seemed as though experiences had been forced to create a favorable outcome, in a sense. - Thane would catch her chuckle, and it was hard to fight back a grin of his own despite being unsettled by what she said, had he even been capable of doing so. On the inside one shined, however.
When Miyako confirmed the stag would lean down to very gently clasp the flower between his jaws, and then carefully lift it towards her head, tucking it behind an ear, firmly placed, snug where it rested. "There you are...", he said softly before pulling away, head tilting to the left then right, observing, trying to determine if it needed tweaking or not. No, it was just right. "That is a very pretty flower, it suits you well". Thane would force a cough... "Hmm, maybe you should rest", he suggested, recalling those tired, red eyes from before. Hadn't been able to catch a look since to see how they appeared now. "Or maybe... you would fancy something to eat... something to drink?".
Miyako's eyes met the event and she was thrilled. Everyone around the parents and the newborn seemed to be so happy, smile wasn't an uncommon sight there. Miyako thought it would be better to keep her distance even though one of her closest ones was there enjoying the life's greatest miracle. She wasn't sure what the mother of the newborn thought about her and so was happy with the place she had gotten. "That might be true." She agreed in the impossibility of being positive about such complicated matters. "Sometimes you get lucky and things work out for you nicely and other times you get hit, am I right?" She tried to put all the puzzle pieces together in the simplest way possible and wanted a confirmation for her conclusion.
"Don't you worry about me worrying. I won't trouble my head with it too much until the time is more suitable for it. That might take a few years." A playful chuckle and nudge followed her words as she stuck her tongue out at him, dark grey spot on her tongue visible.
Soon enough her cheerful smile turned more serious. What mistakes were actually made for her? She had always been told to stay away from trouble, explanations had been 'if you do that, this will happen to you' and so on. "I've watched others do their mistakes and I never had to do them myself. I just avoided doing the same things others have." She probably made no sense, but watching her friend get into troubles over and over again had spared her from doing a few mistakes. Her gaze wandered all the way from the Old Oak to the Crying Idol statue at the beginning of the river. Somewhere in the middle her gaze met his.
The young doe closed her eyes and tried to keep her ears still to make it as easy as possible for the other one to put the flower back to its proper place. "Thank you, Thane." She flashed a brief smile before she gently nudged his cheek with her muzzle. A random sign of affection, oh how she loved to show them.
Miyako kept her silence for a flying moment, she was tired. Exhausted. Even though her shape was turning better. Within a few days she'd be her old self again and instead of achy wounds she'd probably have a few new scars. "Silly, I'm alright. You don't have to get me anything. But maybe I could rest a little bit, if you don't mind? Would you like to be my pillow for my nap?" The playful tone was back again, but her yawning gave it up. She needed some rest.
// What a perfect timing. It's over 1am here and I should go to bed right about now. :'> Feel free to respond if you want and I might throw you a reply myself when I wake up. If you feel like leaving it here, that's fine, too. (: Thank you for the RP, nonetheless. ♥
Purrr. Me loves her new picto. So pretteh. ♥
The doe rubbed her head slightly against Miyako's head and sighed. "I am sorry I couldn't be there when you were sick." she said and smiled faintly. "I see it as my task to look after you, though I failed." slowly she laid something in front of the doe. A little dandelion necklace. "I once found it outside of the forest. It never withered when I entered the forest again. I want to give it to you. It means much to me, just like you do." she watched the doe's face curiously. "You don't have to wear it of course, it's just a little present."
// Awwyou. ♥ You must stop making me melt, miss, or I have to bite you.
The younger one responded to the other's pleasant sign of affection by licking her cheek briefly. "It's okay, I understand. I know you've gone through a lot and so had your own things to work out." A nudge to her cheek. Even though Miyako was young she knew that sometimes one must take care of oneself before is able to look after someone else.
Her ears perked up when she saw the little necklace that was placed in front of her. Suddenly her jaws dropped and her eyes opened wide open, that was the most precious thing she had seen. It was so beautiful. When the other doe was finished speaking, she was finally able to get her eyes off of it and turn her gaze to her eyes. "It's so.. So.. Beautiful, Djinn." Obviously she was overwhelmed and all out of a sudden she tackled the doe to shower affection on her. "Thankyouthankyouthankyou!" Her voice was bright as she spoke, eyes watery. "W-would you help me w-with it?" She asked after she had pulled away and nudged the necklace gently.
The dark was relieved when she heard Miyako's words. A nod followed and finally Djinn could smile again. Suddenly Djinn fell on the ground when Miyako tackled the doe. "Oh gooood!" she yelled playfully. The doe watched the younger one's face. How she loved her expression! She wanted to remember her face forever. "Of course I will!" Gently she picked the necklace up and threw it over her head. The necklace slid down to her chest. Proudly Djinn watched the doe's appearance. ]"Miyako you are a real beauty. It means much to me to see you with it." she said while smiling. "Now tell me little Mimi, how is your life?" Djinn had seen the doe with several deer, even with Beren from time to time. So she wondered if she already found good friends. Curious as Djinn was she wanted to know whether Miyako got to know other deer who would adopted her as her daughter. She didn't want to ask something and get "No" as an answer. So she laid her head on the doe#s back and waited patiently for her answer.
Seeing her smile, made hers wider. She waited patiently until the doe was done. At first it felt cold against her chest but soon enough it got warmer. The young doe puffed her chest fur proudly and held her head high with her ears perked up. "Thank you, really. How come I've never seen you wear it, it's stunning?" She was curious but the smile remained on her face. It wouldn't be easy to wipe it off. "It's good, other than the fight everything seems to be good." A shrug. "I mean, I can't complain. I have got wonderful friends and so forth. That's about it." She wasn't sure what the other one wanted to know and so she gave her the basics as an answer. Her friends was all she had, still no family.
"It's so beautiful that I wanted to give it to someone special." she looked proudly at little Miyako. When Miyako mentioned the fight Djinn frowned but a few seconds later she had to chuckle. "So young and already gets into trouble." Djinn laughed. "You know you can always come to me. But it's nice that you found some friends. Friends are important..but family is too." Her voice got serious. "Have you found a family? A father? A mother?" Djinn's strategy wasn't really clever but she wasn't used to this situation.
"Awh, it's good that things like this are given by someone you hold dear." Her deep blue eyes shone as she looked at the doe. The doe's head tilted lightly to the left when she saw the brief frown visiting Djinn's features. Was there something wrong, she thought. As the frown faded she let that thought pass as well. "I admit, that is my vice." She rolled her eyes playfully and chuckled afterwards. "I'll keep that in mind. I'm glad to have someone like you supporting me." A nod as an agreement to the rest of her statement. The young doe was silent for a moment. She was thinking. Obviously she had parents somewhere but they were out of her reach and even if they came to her, she wouldn't be able to recognize them. It was highly unlike that she would even see them as her parents. After all she has had to learn to survive without them and with her friend's help, including Djinn's. "No, I haven't." She paused for a moment and turned her head away. Even though she had got along with her friends help quite well, she still needed a family. She just hadn't shown it very well. "No father, no mother. I guess they are out there, but it's not the same. Why you ask?" She glanced at the doe.
Djinn listened to her words and was happy and sad at the same time. Happy that she didn't found anyone else,yet. But then again she had to think of her own parents. How badly it hurt to loose them. "I would love to take care of you, Miyako. As long as you wish. I already see you as my daughter." She patiently studied her facial expression. "I can't protect you from everything. Nor will I be a perfect mother. I do mistakes but I will try my best to teach you everything I know. Loyalty is important to me, I want you to know that." she smiled. Djinn already adopted Brazen as her son but felt confident enough to handle two children. She had such a deep connection to Miyako. They were so alike yet different. Of course one day she wanted a biological child but she wasn't sure whether she could ever trust a male again, to even have a child with him. Slowly she wondered whether she ever will be a real mother. Djinn shook her head to get rid of those thoughts.
The young doe had witnessed a couple abandoning their child over things she wasn't aware of. The mentioned child was the doe beside her and she remembered her state of mind when Miyako went to her to see if she was alright. It was terrible. Only a flying moment she thought about how she would feel if that happened to her but the thought passed fast. The young doe waited patiently until the other one was finished. Her expression gave her out her innermost feelings, her eyes were watery and she could hear her heart racing in her chest. "A-are you saying t-that you would.. ?" She shook her head. "I m-mean, w-would I be.. ?" She wasn't able to finish either of the questions but she was positive that the other one knew what she meant. Djinn was already closest to mother she could ever have and if she was willing to adopt the young doe as her daughter, it would be a dream come true. She didn't want to get too excited before she'd get confirmation.
Djinn was surprised by her reaction. She laughed and nudged the doe's cheek. "Yes little Miyako, I would love to adopt you as my daughter." she paused. "I am sorry I can't offer you a father as well." Djinn wanted to be empathic, she wanted to be a good mother. "So what's you answer, little Miyako?"
//sorry for that short post.. there was a little chaos in my room .__.
Miyako's lips moved as if she was speaking but no words came out of there. Her ears twitched, eyes were even more watery and a tear ran down her cheek. She was too overwhelmed to give her an answer now so she took a deep breath and closed her eyes, trying to calm down. A dream come true. "I d-don't know what to s-say." She stuttered as she pressed herself against the doe, hid her face to her fur. "Thank you, Mother." She whispered leaving no room for misunderstandings of what her answer was.
// It's okay. Chaos is never good in a room. Mine exploded yesterday, so yeah. ,__,
"I hope you're feeling better after yesterday," Neiro said, his golden-yellow eyes gazing into her deep blue ones before turning his head to lick down a patch of fur near her throat. The black and white stag brought his head back to look her over, making sure he hadn't missed any spots that needed grooming.
"I am. A bit concerned about Thane, though. He wasn't too happy yesterday." She sighed and glanced at him the corners of her lips slightly pulled up. A smile. "How about you? You seem tense at times." She lifted her head bit making it easier for him to lick the spot. Afterwards she stretched her neck and forelegs.
Neiro listened to her as she mentioned Thane, but he didn't make any comments about the other stag. However, when she asked about himself, his gaze flickered first to her smile and then back to her eyes. A brief silence ensued as he thought about what to say in response. "I met a friend of one of my brothers yesterday, a while after you left. We talked a bit, and I suppose I've just been thinking about it still," he answered with a shrug, offering her a smile of his own.
The young doe gently leaned against the male. Last night she was not able to sleep well and so was now tired. Her ears twitched lightly when she heard him speaking again. "If you want to talk about it, I'm here." She stated quietly. Miyako wasn't able to read from him if it was a good or a bad thing that he was thinking about.
The black and white stag debated inwardly whether or not to say anything more while his gaze wandered away from hers. If he told her why the fact that Jorogumo knew their past made him feel uncertain, then that would lead to the young doe's realization that he wasn't exactly being truthful around her. He wasn't prepared for her to know that or his life before this forest yet. "Thank you, Miyako," he finally said, golden eyes meeting her deep blues. "It's something I don't want to dwell upon, though. It wasn't necessarily a bad thing... I'm just not sure what to think of it." He paused, and grinned slightly. "I apologize for being so vague. Is there anything you'd like to talk about instead?"
He wasn't sorry at all.
Miyako observed his facial expressions but was not able to get anything out of it. The matter he had been pondering on was still a secret for her but his words convinced her that it was nothing too terrible. "It's fine." She shrugged smiling and leaned on him again and rubbed her forehead against his black and white fur. "I'm glad it is not anything serious. Otherwise I would have been worried." She nudged him gently with her muzzle to his chest. "Apology accepted." A nod followed. "Nothing special."
// Feel free to ditch her if you get bored. I might be afk for half an hour, maybe an hour. Workout time. ♥
Neiro absorbed her affection like a sponge. He leaned in to her touch a little bit, his grin remaining on his muzzle while she rubbed her forehead against his fur. He curved his neck around and nibbled on her ear, before his own black-rimmed ears rotated forward to listen to what she was saying. The stag brought his head back and nodded as well. "Mm, in that case you can just sleep. I can tell you're tired," he responded, shifting his position on the ground into a more comfortable one in case she wanted to use him as a pillow.
She inhaled his scent, it was intoxicating. It always was. She buried her face into his fur as her tail flickered contently. She was already drifting between awareness and sleep and her tail about to stop flickering. His words made no sense to her, she barely heard them. Suddenly her eyes flashed wide open. She was fully awake again. "No, no. I'm not tired." Obviously a lie. Her bright voice gave it away. "I mean.. I don't know what I mean. " She let out a giggle and nipped his fur.
// I gotta close TEF for a brief moment. It froze. She'll be back in no time. ♥
Neiro raised a brow at her words, not believing that she wasn't tired. He thought he'd seen her fading from reality into sleep just now. What had given her a burst of energy? "If you say so," he replied with a shrug. He chuckled at her last sentence. What a weirdo. "...Uh, okay." A nip to her ear was delivered as a result of her nip to his fur. "You're strange," he teased. "What kind of game involves nuzzling and then running away as fast as you possibly can?" Clearly the stag had never played nuzzle tag before.
"She won't. I guess those
"Ahaaa..too much of these
Did you feel as a wall next to the playground too? I mean you and Nik behind her, and me and Levi Lol
"It was nicely done." She
// It was more like: 'I built an invisible wall here. You can't pass it, mkay? .___.' Itwasawesome.
He would settle near the
Startled, not scared. The
A good word? Another shake of
A naive doe such as herself
Suddenly felt overwhelmed,
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Sorry Miyako he's a weirdo, lol. Also tracking and all of that, she's really neat.
Not sure if you're aware, but one of your boxes overlaps two of your other boxes, making it kind of hard to read.
Her ears perked up as she
// He's not that weird, just cute in his own way. Hah. Thank you for the track. ♥
Gah, I know. I've tried to fix that but I have no idea how to make it work. It looks fine on my screen and some other's I've been on. Noticed that, though, when I was on with my friend's laptop.
Aanyway, I've been coding lately quite a lot to redesign the whole blog. :'>
"She is pregnant...", he
"Who are you talking about?
He seemed good at that,
A brief frown visited doe's
The stag was brave and would
When the doe leaned into him some more he would fight back any physical shaking that wanted to take over. Instead he would lower his head to the ground once more and find a focus point, locking himself up. At her question he didn't even know what to say. Something about himself... "I collect things". She would probably think he was useless then. Collecting things... pfft. "I can make things", was tacked on, to perhaps detour her from touching on the subject of collecting. "Like... anything. I make a lot of things...". He would recall the pinecone music box he had made for Bei, the amber necklace for a friend, among a few other things. Thane huffed but not out of frustration, a way of releasing himself of the anxiety and nervousness felt. Talking was helping, at least for now. The topic wasn't a sensitive one, yet. "How about you...?".
With no clue about what she
Ever since she saw this stag in the distance while Nikodim and Leviathann fought she had been fascinated by him. There just was something that caught her interest and was able to receive her full concentration. Collecting things. Making things. She had a habit of collecting things as well. Only thing she thought was worth keeping is the flower she got at her first day in the forest. But making things? How did he make those things? Of what he made them? Dozens of questions floated in her mind at the moment but thought it would be better to leave them for later. "I.. Hm." At first she thought it was easy to tell random facts about herself but seemed like it wasn't. She was silent for a moment as she pondered. "Well, I don't have a family. Biological nor adopted. Although I wish to have one someday. My curiosity often gets me into troubles and I think I trust others too easily."
He would catch movement out
"Family isn't always... the best to have", he laid out... although would hang onto one thing that slipped passed her lips. "No biological family?", he questioned then hummed, raising so many more questions. He had been told that in order to exist a stag and a doe must love each other, but what she said conflicted with what he had been told. "Do you mean they are dead?". It slipped passed with ease, with little regards to how sensitive the subject may have been for her. Curiosity had been sparked, and he didn't even think of it as a bad question. At this point he was under the belief that deer could be born from thin air now. If that was so he wanted to learn of this secret so that he may craft many, many children for himself. Thane had once been family oriented, and perhaps still was, but feared what would come of such relations in the end. So far he had lost almost everyone brought in as family, acquired mostly during the beginning, now were all gone, or in hiding. At least he never saw them anymore... With that he would rest his weight into the tree at his side, silently wondering and reminiscing until deciding to touch on her comment about trust. "Trust fades with experience".
The stags nervousness seemed to be fading, replaced with a growing seriousness as their conversation progressed.
Gently she touched the pink
Your third? The frown was back upon her elegant features again. She tilted her head lightly as if she was asking him to tell more. "Ah. Do you have kids of your own?" The question she let out in the open would bring fantastic memories of good times together or something that she could not imagine, something horrible. A child taken away from him, maybe? Nevertheless, to her the question was innocent, held no memories in it. "What you mean it isn't? Can't really say if I'm happier with or without since I've only experiences from the last one. Can't compare." A pause. "I mean.. I don't know. I might have biological parents somewhere out there in a place far away from here. Alive or dead, don't know that either." For now she was clueless, she didn't know the fact that her slightly older sister had brought her here, to safety, when something horrible had happened back at home. Her parents were indeed alive, lived in the Northern Brazil, but to her they were very much unknown and would stay that way for now.
Even though her 'real' family wasn't here, some of the deer had become close to her, family-like, but she didn't dare to consider them as a family, not just yet. And like every little girl dreams, so does she. Someday she wishes to have a beautiful offspring of her own, someone to treasure and teach how life works. Her thoughts about life and world were naive, she thought everything had a good side to it. Bad stuff happened for a reason and no one was evil to the heart. "Maybe it does. Everyone keeps telling me not to trust so easy." She shrugged like it was nothing. Although she was able to tell right from wrong but she wasn't able to tell a good person from bad.
The corners of her mouth lifted up as she felt her companion relaxing, now she was able to snuggle into his fur.
Watched the doe mess with the
"I mean...", he began but then paused, contemplating a way to go about it. "There is a lot that comes with having a family. There are ups and down, complications, feuds. A lot to consider. At least, if you do intend to have a family, eventually, whenever it may be, choose very.... very... carefully". His tone had started off rather gentle, but grew into something dark and bold. Quills had even begun to rise, but with a shake of the head and a dry snort refocused his gaze elsewhere, getting any rising temper under control before an explosion happened. A sweet doe such as Miyako shouldn't of been subjected to any of his lingering hatred, anyways. "I see...", his tone much softer then, in response to her parents.
"I can't tell you to be more careful, that would be like me trying to force feed you a personal view simply because that's what I believe. But, I can tell you're a bright young doe who can make her own decisions... hopefully based upon her own experiences, and not others". The stag thought for a moment, how contradictory he had been being. He said that to her now, yet had just prior been feeding her his views on family and choosing carefully. Perhaps she wouldn't notice... When the doe snuggled into his fur a gentle sigh was given, eyes peering to the flower then. "Little Miyako... would you like me to fasten that flower back behind your ear?".
The young doe's tail swished
She glanced at the male when he started speaking again but this time she did not focus on his eyes but his lips, to the way they moved. His words made her think. Was building a family much more work than she had thought? Ironic enough, behind their backs beside a tree the feline had gone into labor. A new family was about to be built. Most importantly, how would she know when she is ready to take a full responsibility of another creature, to nurture it and keep it safe with all costs, to love it unconditionally. "I understand that family is something that is not to be taken lightly, but how on earth can I be absolutely sure about everything? What kind of downs there might be?" She thought she'd let a few of the thousands of questions escape her mind to be answered, hoping she wasn't bothering the male too much with her inexperienced babbling. "Mh, I should base my decisions upon my own experience? Easier said than done. Sometimes it seems like mistakes are done for me so that I don't need to repeat them. Others have done them already. Hah. " She let out a chuckle. It was cute when others protected her from everything, she had no worry in the world, which was already made for her.
The doe shifted a bit away from the male and looked straight to her eyes, she had been to shy to ask for a favor and was more than glad now that he had offered his help. "It would be very much appreciated. It's... difficult by myself." A faint blush followed by a smile.
[e:] Just a heads up, I'm going to change Miyako's set to another account that I'm going to be using from now on. (: She'll be right back.
Thane couldn't seem able to
"You can never be for certain...", he addressed her question, while family related better than dwelling on the past, placing past events on the present... forwards, backwards. "You just... learn, and from there learn what is and isn't acceptable, learn what works and what doesn't... you experience these things and then apply it to future situations to determine the outcome... more favorable or not, that is a personal decision, I think". Eyes fell onto her smaller form then, shifting to the colors of her fur. "Too young to worry about it... you shouldn't worry about it. You just learn as you go, no point in worrying about it". Perhaps it was too late though, he had said so much.
"What do you mean, mistakes have been made for you so you don't have to repeat them, and others have done them already?", his head would tilt to the left, extremely curious as to what she meant, despite it being very clear. More likely than not he was curious as to who had done that for her and why, not so much clueless as to what she said in general. He wanted to say that wasn't right, he wanted to confront those who had stepped into her life and put those mistakes into play before their time... but he hardly knew this doe... that wouldn't be right. Still he hated how it seemed as though experiences had been forced to create a favorable outcome, in a sense. - Thane would catch her chuckle, and it was hard to fight back a grin of his own despite being unsettled by what she said, had he even been capable of doing so. On the inside one shined, however.
When Miyako confirmed the stag would lean down to very gently clasp the flower between his jaws, and then carefully lift it towards her head, tucking it behind an ear, firmly placed, snug where it rested. "There you are...", he said softly before pulling away, head tilting to the left then right, observing, trying to determine if it needed tweaking or not. No, it was just right. "That is a very pretty flower, it suits you well". Thane would force a cough... "Hmm, maybe you should rest", he suggested, recalling those tired, red eyes from before. Hadn't been able to catch a look since to see how they appeared now. "Or maybe... you would fancy something to eat... something to drink?".
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No problem. Pretty new picto. ♥
♥ C:
Miyako's eyes met the event
"Don't you worry about me worrying. I won't trouble my head with it too much until the time is more suitable for it. That might take a few years." A playful chuckle and nudge followed her words as she stuck her tongue out at him, dark grey spot on her tongue visible.
Soon enough her cheerful smile turned more serious. What mistakes were actually made for her? She had always been told to stay away from trouble, explanations had been 'if you do that, this will happen to you' and so on. "I've watched others do their mistakes and I never had to do them myself. I just avoided doing the same things others have." She probably made no sense, but watching her friend get into troubles over and over again had spared her from doing a few mistakes. Her gaze wandered all the way from the Old Oak to the Crying Idol statue at the beginning of the river. Somewhere in the middle her gaze met his.
The young doe closed her eyes and tried to keep her ears still to make it as easy as possible for the other one to put the flower back to its proper place. "Thank you, Thane." She flashed a brief smile before she gently nudged his cheek with her muzzle. A random sign of affection, oh how she loved to show them.
Miyako kept her silence for a flying moment, she was tired. Exhausted. Even though her shape was turning better. Within a few days she'd be her old self again and instead of achy wounds she'd probably have a few new scars. "Silly, I'm alright. You don't have to get me anything. But maybe I could rest a little bit, if you don't mind? Would you like to be my pillow for my nap?" The playful tone was back again, but her yawning gave it up. She needed some rest.
// What a perfect timing. It's over 1am here and I should go to bed right about now. :'> Feel free to respond if you want and I might throw you a reply myself when I wake up. If you feel like leaving it here, that's fine, too. (: Thank you for the RP, nonetheless. ♥
Purrr. Me loves her new picto. So pretteh. ♥
Schutz: Ohyou. ♥
The doe rubbed her head
// Awwyou. ♥ You must
The younger one responded to the other's pleasant sign of affection by licking her cheek briefly. "It's okay, I understand. I know you've gone through a lot and so had your own things to work out." A nudge to her cheek. Even though Miyako was young she knew that sometimes one must take care of oneself before is able to look after someone else.
Her ears perked up when she saw the little necklace that was placed in front of her. Suddenly her jaws dropped and her eyes opened wide open, that was the most precious thing she had seen. It was so beautiful. When the other doe was finished speaking, she was finally able to get her eyes off of it and turn her gaze to her eyes. "It's so.. So.. Beautiful, Djinn." Obviously she was overwhelmed and all out of a sudden she tackled the doe to shower affection on her. "Thankyouthankyouthankyou!" Her voice was bright as she spoke, eyes watery. "W-would you help me w-with it?" She asked after she had pulled away and nudged the necklace gently.
//I will never >8D The dark
The dark was relieved when she heard Miyako's words. A nod followed and finally Djinn could smile again. Suddenly Djinn fell on the ground when Miyako tackled the doe. "Oh gooood!" she yelled playfully. The doe watched the younger one's face. How she loved her expression! She wanted to remember her face forever. "Of course I will!" Gently she picked the necklace up and threw it over her head. The necklace slid down to her chest. Proudly Djinn watched the doe's appearance. ]"Miyako you are a real beauty. It means much to me to see you with it." she said while smiling. "Now tell me little Mimi, how is your life?" Djinn had seen the doe with several deer, even with Beren from time to time. So she wondered if she already found good friends. Curious as Djinn was she wanted to know whether Miyako got to know other deer who would adopted her as her daughter. She didn't want to ask something and get "No" as an answer. So she laid her head on the doe#s back and waited patiently for her answer.
// Get ready to be bitten
Seeing her smile, made hers wider. She waited patiently until the doe was done. At first it felt cold against her chest but soon enough it got warmer. The young doe puffed her chest fur proudly and held her head high with her ears perked up. "Thank you, really. How come I've never seen you wear it, it's stunning?" She was curious but the smile remained on her face. It wouldn't be easy to wipe it off. "It's good, other than the fight everything seems to be good." A shrug. "I mean, I can't complain. I have got wonderful friends and so forth. That's about it." She wasn't sure what the other one wanted to know and so she gave her the basics as an answer. Her friends was all she had, still no family.
Miyako has bodyguards >D
Badass bodyguards. No
Hah surely ;D
;>> ♥ Ravly is such a
Ravly is such a sweetheart. He shows up always when I'm doing stuff with browser. Feels like he's looking out for her at times. :'D
"It's so beautiful that I
"Awh, it's good that things
Djinn listened to her words
The young doe had witnessed a
Djinn was surprised by her
//sorry for that short post.. there was a little chaos in my room .__.
Miyako's lips moved as if she
// It's okay. Chaos is never good in a room. Mine exploded yesterday, so yeah. ,__,
♥
Thanks for spending some time
It was a pleasure. ♥
Sorry for inactivity in the end, though.
I have to go for breakfast
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Okei. ♥ I will be
I will be coding for a moment so she might be a bit inactive anyway. (:
"I hope you're feeling better
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"I am. A bit concerned about
Neiro listened to her as she
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The young doe gently leaned
The black and white stag
He wasn't sorry at all.
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Miyako observed his facial
// Feel free to ditch her if you get bored. I might be afk for half an hour, maybe an hour. Workout time. ♥
{All righty~ C:} -x- Neiro
-x-
Neiro absorbed her affection like a sponge. He leaned in to her touch a little bit, his grin remaining on his muzzle while she rubbed her forehead against his fur. He curved his neck around and nibbled on her ear, before his own black-rimmed ears rotated forward to listen to what she was saying. The stag brought his head back and nodded as well. "Mm, in that case you can just sleep. I can tell you're tired," he responded, shifting his position on the ground into a more comfortable one in case she wanted to use him as a pillow.
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// Aarrh. I think I'm going
She inhaled his scent, it was intoxicating. It always was. She buried her face into his fur as her tail flickered contently. She was already drifting between awareness and sleep and her tail about to stop flickering. His words made no sense to her, she barely heard them. Suddenly her eyes flashed wide open. She was fully awake again. "No, no. I'm not tired." Obviously a lie. Her bright voice gave it away. "I mean.. I don't know what I mean. " She let out a giggle and nipped his fur.
// I gotta close TEF for a brief moment. It froze. She'll be back in no time. ♥
{D8! /waves air at you
-x-
Neiro raised a brow at her words, not believing that she wasn't tired. He thought he'd seen her fading from reality into sleep just now. What had given her a burst of energy? "If you say so," he replied with a shrug. He chuckled at her last sentence. What a weirdo. "...Uh, okay." A nip to her ear was delivered as a result of her nip to his fur. "You're strange," he teased. "What kind of game involves nuzzling and then running away as fast as you possibly can?" Clearly the stag had never played nuzzle tag before.
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