I thought
What am I, now?...
A forgotten waif, a fragile thing, lost in the woods. I have found myself drifting away from everyone, and seeking only solitude, waiting for only one to come to my calls...
I have lost so much, and in such a quiet way... The word "friends" leaps through my mind, and I remember, but feel no urge to call for them.
I have ventured out from the shadows fewer and fewer times, until gradually, I rarely do.
Surely, they have forgotten me. I was but a nuisance, a little meager frail object, whisking through the crowds. I was weak, and am remembered as being weak, and always afraid.
This is all right. I know who I was, and I know who I have become. My little hoofs will trail pictures in the dust, drawing out little memories, those little warm things that kept me going...
As long as he stays with me, I will be all right. It will be all right to leave me behind, for this Forest has changed, and I am subtly afraid of the battles and subtly afraid to wander around, looking for my "friends"...
As long as Hania stays by my side, keeping me dear, I will be all right. I live for him, and he lives for me. He made me strong, he gave me courage. I am braver now; though I still watch from the shadows, and rarely join the churning groups of oblivious deer...
He made me strong enough to say this now.
So it is all right. Go; leave me behind. Live out your lives; you ought to. You are all brave and strong. I can believe in you all to let me go. And...
Thank you for all the times of happiness.
Clavier.
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Basically, I haven't been able to get in-forest except on weekends due to school, and this is a kind of farewell from her to all her friends.
I wish I had more time for the Forest, but sadly, I don't, and it's changing so much that I can't really keep up with it.
End of the year is more hectic than ever, yes?
