This is just a little something I need to post, because I've been pretty upset lately, and I just need something to look at when I get into another one of those situations.

As you guys probably know, this year has been pretty bad for me. I lost my Dad to cancer in July, and then in August my 22 year old cousin died of heart failure. Since then, I have literally felt like I've been going insane, little by little. I have been having bad nightmares as well as bad hallucinations before I sleep, I've been losing interest in things I used to love, and small things have been making me angry.

I've been losing sight of my dreams and goals, being more concerned lately with comparing myself to others and seeing myself as a complete failure. I know this is wrong to do, but it's hard for me not to. I see these beautiful artworks that you guys make on this community, and feel so ashamed with myself that I can't make anything that beautiful on my own. I write stories but I've convinced myself that they're utter crap compared to the artwork done on this community.

I need help.

I need this topic so that I can refer to it when I've become depressed again. When I lose hope, when I can't think straight.

Anything you'd want to tell me is very appreciated. Anything at all.

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To myself from Quad:



"Never forget who you are. Never lose sight of what you want to do.