everyone on TEf, im leaving... YES I ADMIT IT! im hakilu is kanjri,hakilu,arapaho,moonriser,mirrors,rihanna,hige, and birdey.... i thoguht i could start fresh because none really liked me...im leaving now, with all my deer behind me... goodbye, everyone. thanks for the picture shimmyshimmy. bye bye guys, sorry for all the trouble i caused. im truly sorry for every hardship ive caused everyone. see you.

Do you really care?
You say you do, but your never there
My mind has all these questions
I am so confused...

Do you really love me?
You say it only grows an grows,
But that is something that never shows..
My mind has all these questions
i am so confused..

Do you really want me?
You say you do, but your touch less nights
Taunt me.....
My mind has all these questions
I am so confused..

Do you really listen to my heart?
You said you have, but it holds nothing for you
Your not trying, listen again...
My heart beats for you...
My blood pumps for you..
My eyes open for you..
My life goes on, just for you

Do you really care?
My mind has all these questions
I am so confused.....



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Deep in my mind, the thoughts have passed..
Feeling unloved so many times in the past
Wondering if this pain will ever go away..
Wishing so often for a clearer, brighter day

My heart has ached for such a long time..
Everything in my head sayin' it will be just fine
What I need is no longer what matters..
Deeply inside its all been so shattered

I find myself thinking, wondering what would be..
If ever I had released the true feelings to see
But now its too late to ponder on the past..
All those old memories that weren't meant to last

In my mind I keep saying no
but my heart says "just let go"
The hurt and pain that was so real
now seems like not such a big deal

Want to trust so much again
to be able to say "yes, he is my friend"
How hard it is letting go from the past
trying to open up anew and make things last

I love him more and more each day
how can I tell him in some special way
I'd drain the blood from my wrists
to let him know how much he was missed

He must not have known how I really feel
or he would realize how slowly it does kill
A simple kiss I can not give
rejected, I cannot continue to live

My eyes looking one last time
leaving my soul with nothing else to find
When my body falls limp in his arms
will he then know how well were his charms

Okay so I showed this to Ashdrau on msn and well she told me to put them up here








It's done in Charcoal of my own character Wicked Laugher {Who will never enter the Forest for real}
I did it when I had my drawing class these past weeks and for once in my life ti was fun working with charcoal.
And Fear my lazyness when it comes to backgrounds...freaking mountains....*mumble*

and willing to do a comishon for me!?
I am not really a good drawer, and when I try to draw people weeellll by the end they dont look like people anymore. I really would like a nice little drawing of my little deer Wish as a young human boy. PLEASE!? If anyone is willing I can give a descript to see if you would like to!?
I dont really care about weather you just make a head shot, full body, of half body I would prefere whole body senes he's a verey...colorfull {for a lack of better words}...chacter. Color would be neded verey much!

Well, I know where MY little fawn is....where is everybody else? I don't see ANYONE in the forest and I am connected. Oh well...Friday night...holiday weekend for us yanks....oy!

To the little mini sitting with Gnitset, who are you?

Unwanted

Your sweet words and charm
I never thought they would do any harm..
That warm smile that made me blush
Is now something that's seldom seen much..

We didn't even have the time to get that close
Not like I longed too and wanted too the most..
but the feelings were still the same
my heart only yours to gain..

Unwanted and Not needed, again how I feel
those feelings somehow always becoming so real..
What I have to offer never seems enough
almost as if it was all nothing more than a bluff...

In the end I always start back with the same..
With nothing other than myself to blame..
No more tears, No more sleepless nights
Another of life's lessons and I'll somehow be alright..

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This is a Small little...well I'm not sure what to all it.

Beauty in the beholder, saw a Dove in hand, pulled out all the Feathers.
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