February 10, 2021
Lali's just one of the kids
January 30, 2021
Yesterday, finally gave birth to three beautiful children. Was initially planning on having the young ones in Forest, but a few complications lead her to rather have the children in a more controlled environment. One of them, one of the girls, was clearly more fragile and underdeveloped than the other two, to which Lalitha agreed to keep the daughter home with Johnny for when Lali the next day would take the other two to Forest - Savitha and Vikram.
Kept them close to the den, extremely happy when Kesari and her children visited to meet each other. Felt her heart become full at the sight, both by her sister and their now collective children finally together.
After the family parted, decided to do some-semi-exploring by taking the children to a nearby flower patch. Let them get more acquainted with the Forest without completely overwhelming them. A happy memory that was quickly cut short when a predator (Kynsiä) decided to interrupt the fun. Was quick to take defense to the behavior of the being, trying to bluff the creature away with her stomping to no avail. But after first attack, was quick to push the children against a tree to keep them as 'safe' as they could be while she gave chase. Probably earned a few gashes of her own, though it seemed the predator was most intent on making a meal of her children. Infuriated by this. Not only be targeting her ANGELS, but also not taking her seriously. Attempted to spit venom whenever she had the chance, even chasing the creature across the Forest until giving up and returning to her young. Tried her best to reassure them quickly, then ushering them towards the den where she knew they'd be much more safe. Stood over them, staying alert in case the predator returned.
Took note of Ingolfr who stopped by, who no doubt could guess what happened, and soon parted ways. Could put two and two together what he was up to, which helped put the doe at ease. BUT grew even more relaxed when Farren joined them, knowing to have not only one but two safe-keepers in the Forest now. Normally would've felt uncomfortable introducing the male to her new children, but at this point was just thankfully to finally catch a break. Feeling the exhaustion of the past few days hitting her, and able to curl around her children without keeping an eye on her back. Thanked Farren, but didn't get a chance to thank Ingolfr. She would make a note to do that later.
Soon after took herself and her children home - where she knew she'd have to explain everything to Johnny who was surely to be waiting for her.
January 26, 2021
Got a visit from Farren, to which she tried to hide in her den to avoid him
December 20, 2020
Getting more and more uncomfortable with each passing day, her third trimester proving to be the most irritating for her as she cannot get comfortable. Has almost exclusively been sticking around family members as she's currently the least sociable she's ever been.
Has been attempting to nest, although often her body making her too uncomfortable to do it for long periods of time. Trying to clean out the family den and make it more roomy, also - with the help of Jagrav - has been looking for a new family home in a different realm. Feeling exhausted and irritable by all this sudden change.
Despite all the hormones effecting her emotions, is still undeniably excited and hopeful for her children to come.
November 29, 2020
Smitten with Kesari's children - absolutely in love. Helping in anyway she can, especially as her morning sickness herself has finally seemed to loosen it's grip on her. Excited more and more everyday for her own children now, though feels very blessed to have such beautiful and adorable nieces.
October 29, 2020
Approached Johnny once again after watching him chase someone across the Forest. Dagger eyes at initially for being nearby, but when realizing he was hanging around her vicinity decided to close the distance between the two. Genuinely surprised by his apology and his want to be there for their child(ren). Took it in stride, letting her anger dissolve. Still, planning on keeping the Wolf at an arms length as she doesn't trust he
won't bolt. But also, has made it very clear she's all right with being a single mother. As that's how
she was raised.
Also, after observing some events with the BZD, sat down with Lachundra to share the news with her. Warmed by her daughter's seemingly easy acceptance and excited to see how the Nova is as a big sister. Absolutely adoring the idea of their little family expanding. Left the option out there to Lachundra to decide if she would like to meet the father of her younger siblings, to which she gave a 'yes'. Keeping this in mind, however is definitely planning on that being an organic meeting and not something arranged.
Been spending a majority of her time in Forest with familiar faces - including Kesari, Vigolfr, and Llyr. Feeling a bond growing towards those she finds as peaceful company, more so than she normally would. Still craving chaos in a way, but very aware of keeping her future child(ren) safe.
Received a text message from Farren a few days prior, asking to meet up for dinner. Felt a rock sink in her stomach, knowing full well where she felt the Kingpin was leading that interaction to. Had her suspicions confirmed when he clarified that this would in fact be a date. As much complex feelings as she holds for Farren, also has no intention of harming him emotionally - so, through text message, blurted she was pregnant and that it wasn't his. Left it at that, even when he replied an hour later with a 'congratulations'. Felt sick from it, Farren always stirring contradictory feelings in Rosella.
Mental state is wavering between reaching out to others for distractions and isolating herself.
But when is Lali NOT close to a breaking point ever in her life.
October 15, 2020
Is positive about her pregnancy now and absolutely elated with the possibility of welcoming her child(ren) into the world. A very earnest happiness but underlined with a sharp anxiety of losing the pregnancy just like her first child. Trying not to think about that possibility, but is aware of it weighing on her mind.
Has shared the inkling of the news to Kesari but yet to confirm it. Also spilled the news to Sadiki to blurt it out to
someone and was pretty content with his - expected - mild response.
Still has yet to share the news with the rest of her family, including Lachundra. Wants to wait a little bit longer for the latter, at least when the pregnancy is in a more stable phase to introduce the idea to her daughter.
Is - or was - almost certain she would be tackling this pregnancy and child rearing as a single parent, and with this assumption didn’t quite worry Johnny’s response since he could easily have an out on raising them. However, the other day when Lalitha approached the wolf with the information she wasn’t expecting his threatening response. Certainly didn’t think he’d take it softly, but snapping at her put her guard in immediate defense mode. Has already been weary of any dangerous circumstances, just for fear of the pregnancy, but now was fighting her temper at Johnny’s response to terminate the pregnancy. #Triggered for sure. Also further annoyed with him saying to either abort or he’d be involved as a father - not wanting to be a ‘dead beat’. Quietly - but obviously - set off by this, taking clear offense to killing off the child(ren) (as Lalitha saw it) but then quickly saying he’d step into the father role if being forced to. Bit her tongue. Ended up taking her leave quickly after that, not trusting the wolf’s temper or her own.
Heavily unsettled by the response and feeling more protective of herself than ever. Definitely more moody than normal, but it’s hard to tell from the circumstances or hormonal changes. Not quite open to seeking out new company, but welcomes distractions. Mostly sticking close to Kesari or their childhood den.
September 28, 2020
Most of her recent time has been spent outside of the Forest in her human realm, where she took in Lachundra and moved into Jagrav's city home. Been bonding and focusing on Lachundra, as well as mending her 'business' as she had completely disregarded it during her marriage. After both suffering tremendously from the miscarriage and divorce, has clung more and more to her step daughter. Definitely sees her as a gift from the Gods, something that kept her motivated during her darkest points, and is forever grateful for.
Has maintained a sort of fluctuating relationship with Farren. Of course held a bitter hatred for the wolf in her heart, which seemed to come to ahead the first moment she came across him in Forest again. But after that explosion, there was a brief moment of calmness and found herself seeking the male out once again. Somehow trying to trick herself into old times, though with the reappearance of Rhea it was just a sharp reminder of Farren's disloyalty. Severed whatever friendship they - Farren and Lalitha - had, again.
Is still unsure how she truly feels towards Rhea. Has always felt a comfort and kinship with the hyena, and still does to a point. But whenever Farren is mentioned, there's no denying the suffocating jealousy that bubbles up in the Daydream's chest. Tries to mask it for the most part, but is very aware when Rhea can pick up on it. Still, allows the hyena to keep her company and even still seeks her out herself. A certain numbness follows, but still has a loyalty towards as she by no means blames the Hyena for the past.
Wasn't very thrilled with the rut this year. Only had one or two competitors truly stick out to her, but even they didn't quite hold her attention (Lali is way too high maintenance for rut flings, sobs). So of course jumped at the opportunity to keep Johnny company when he entered the Forest recently, as it had been too long since Rosella had harassed him. Picked up on the fact he seemed unaware of what time it was during the Forest, but was still satisfied with finally feeling like someone's sole attention - at least for the man's short attention span.. And feeling mildly successful at trying to pull down the stubborn man's wall. Slowly but surely.
Also has an inkling she may be pregnant for her not being very responsible lately, and also the fact her hormones during the rut were - as per usual - driving her insane. Realizes this may not have been the best thing to be reckless about, especially considering Johnny's lack of control and violent tendencies. Still, that's never stopped Lalitha before!!
August 24, 2020
February 27, 2019
Lalitha continues to make bad life decisions and upset everyone around her...besides maybe Farren...this time.
Hiding from Kacie and Noah bc she doesn't wanna deal with consequences!! Also had her entire soul taken by Farren at one point in hopes of preserving her life as she was
definitely dancing on the edge for a while. Namely, after she found out her direct actions got Morrow killed by Taras. IDK WHAT SHE was expecting to happen when Taras literally point blank told her but she didn't believe him!! Until she saw a video of him breaking Morrow's neck. And then she kind of.. almost went off the deep end.
Until Farren stepped in to chill her out.
Since then, feeling much more collected and composed after isolating herself from everyone but Farren to do so. KNOWS both Kacie and Noah are pissed so... (or well.. mb not Noah pissed but def disappointed in her!!) continuing to hide in human realm for a bit. Hoping.. things cool off...... before she goes back.......
February 27, 2019
Player cries bc I CAN SPELLING THINGS WRONG AND HAVING TO CORRECT IT
Approached by an ex-coworker today in Forest, quickly being able to place the voice when approached. Greeted Minh though admittedly didn't have his name come to mind, so just associated him with Taras' household. Interested though not trusted after Taras using Angarika to trick Lalitha before, so held him at an arms length despite being clearly drawn in by what he had to say; namely, sharing information she could use to screw Taras over with. Or rather just a way to continue to mess with him. Decided to trust his intentions, figuring she didn't really have anything to lose with what he proposed.
Pointed in the direction of a doe named "Morrow" to which Lalitha immediately noted and started thinking of possible ways to manipulate her
away from Taras. As Minh put it, she could easily be used as a pawn. Parted from Minh soon after that to see the girl for herself, promptly taking her away to the human realm where she felt she'd get a better grip on her and
also make sure no one else got involved.
February 26, 2019
IM SO SORRY FOR LAZY UPDATES and i hope i didnt miss anything but:
- Been left REALLy on edge after a few key events happening...one being Ingolfr informing her of a monster who took advantage of Phyrra. Wasn't told details then, but later found out from Phy and is now keeping her eyes out. Warned her family but other than that has kept it on the down-low, feeling more protective of the doe now more than ever.
- Was excited by Taras' return to her life at first - another place to add excitement - but quickly turned sour as she remembered how toxic their relationship was and still is. Loved the attention at first but got irritated when he wouldn't drop her coming 'home' to him. Still trying to view it as a game, but the game turned pretty real when he threatened Farren's life and really just!! Made Lali!! Want to scream!! Trying to go more under the radar with him around now for that, though still quietly looking for opportunities to screw over Taras.
- Despite all the rockiness going on in her life, at least feels more stable with Vivek and Jagrav beginning to visit the Forest more often. Sought them out about the Phyrra situation, asking if they could be a 'safe place' for the doe to turn to if Lalitha or anyone else wasn't around. Grateful for their responses, even if it wasn't
as protective as she wanted them to be...could definitely understand why they'd be reserved towards it. Promptly introduced them to Phyrra afterwards.
- The day after Taras threatened Farren's life, had Jagrav come over and cried to him about it. Definitely knew how her brother would react to this, and was happy to see it had worked when he sought out Taras to have a 'discussion' that ended in a fight. Called Taras to revel in it, couldn't help but feel delight when he simply hung up on her.
The petty wars continue. Knows she's poking the bear at this point, so still trying to get the upper hand!! Sighs..
- Left feeling on cloud nine after a conversation with Farren last night. Their relationship definitely hitting a few low points over the passed few months, but slowly working into a
healthy relationship. Even more so clingy to him as well with the drama going on with Taras, and being UPSET he's gone on a business trip :unamused: Quit ur job to give me attention-- jk, sigh. But talked about the potential of having kids - Farren bringing it up - and Lalitha almost
melted. Also having their souls reattached and.. Lali just did a lot of happy crying last night.
- TODAY found Xantho in the morning and was :heart_eyes: when she snugged her, wow.. bff material. Parted only to track down Kesari to work up the nerve to tell her about the conversation Farren brought up last night. Lost that nerve! Went to Kiss instead when her sister parted bc she's in a guud nostalgic mood now.. And was tempted to play with Kiss' hair since she's never gotten to before!! But she just sat down near him instead and he didn't make any mean faces at her so.. I guess we're bffs again......
Everyone my bff today.
February 19, 2019
PLAYER CRIES AT UPDATES so-- Lali disappeared to go on vacation to recollect herself from the situation
she was blowing up. And had a resolution to keep Farren away from her at those days but definitely caved at one point! And resolved that her and Farren weren't over...not that...anyone really thought that since apparently everyone knows how dramatic Lali 'n Farren are!!
Specifically Acacia, sigh. BUT- still not quite sure where their relationship stands. Going out of her way to fully explain herself to Farren now that she's able to have time to reflect - and since she's definitely self aware of her issues - and hoping to find understanding. Which seems to be working...player is just too lazy to fully write out those conversations, sigh!!
February 8, 2019
On a downward spiral after having various ups and downs with Farren's relationship ever since they fought over Veton/Noah. Feels like she's forcing herself into a role she's not able - or not
yet able - to fill. Confused and guilt ridden, feels like she's bearing an insufferable weight she cannot carry. Also doesn't know
how to communicate this to anyone; especially not Farren...can't even stand to see him in the state she's left him in. Blaming herself completely and yet can't bring herself to fix it, her feelings growing contradictory every time she thinks of their situation. Feels frozen in place and like she may explode at any moment.
Today, sought out comfort from Jethro by means of curling up to her childhood friend. Quietly wishing for the simpler times but stayed unusually quiet despite feeling like it'd been awhile since last she'd seen the Dusk. But upon scenting Kesari in forest, parted from the male's side with a kiss to his head before tracking down the Eclipse herself. Couldn't keep up her facade any longer at seeing her sister; her safe place. Immediately broke down and clung to Kesari's side, hiding her face against her fur. At least finding someone to take comfort in, since she was scared to turn to Noah at this time and
God knows she wouldn't seek out Farren.
Ended up leaving the Forest earlier than she normally would in an attempt to collect herself. Went back to her apartment which felt incredibly lonely now that she had grown so used to the Kingpin's place. But during her moments alone, received a call from Farren himself. Reluctantly answered, not sure what she was expecting and
indeed it was the worst as he ended it. Didn't give her time to reply before he released her soul back to her and hung up the phone, leaving Rosella in yet another havoc mood. Tore apart her apartment in a fit and covered up all her mirrors - weLL breaking the one in her room but.. the rest she just covered up.. - until the violent emotions subsided and she was left with the overwhelmingly empty feeling clouded by a stark pressure on her head. Quickly headed to Kacie and Lucio's place so she wouldn't be alone in this state.
At Acacia's, fell into her friend's arms to AGAIN sob out her emotions.. Lead to sit down at the couch where she practically sat in her friend's lap and soaked in the comfort. After most of the sobbing was subsided, explained the situation to Acacia - Lucio overhearing from the other room - and felt incredibly defeated. Surprised at Acacia's sudden - SEEMINGLY - prodding at the topic and Lucio's 'interest' in the topic, feeling aggravated since she!! just wanted!! to vent!! And eventually snapped at Kacie and jumped out of her space, followed with another outburst since she was just!! frustrated!! But ended up being what Acacia had wanted all along, which..
did work since it relieved a good amount of tension in the Wildfire. Which.. lead to Lalitha acting more normal but still on edge. Invited to stay the night but turned it down, instead saying she had to disappear to Miami instead to clear her head. Because over drinking is always the answer.. Did however consider the offer Lucio gave about taking one of his friends; apparently another girl who liked to start bar brawls. Which was exactly Lali's kind of gal.. But soon went back to her apartment after that conversation.
Paced at her apartment for awhile, now using her pent up energy to clean up the mess she made but still didn't uncover her mirrors or clean up the one that was smashed. Wondered quietly what Farren could possibly be doing and worried he would jump off the edge, but quickly pushed the thought away. If she couldn't even handle herself at this moment, she couldn't bear to think of Farren's issues. And with that, took a deep breath and headed to Noah's for the night to check in on him. Ever since she found him practically dead can't help but worry something will always happen to him, so definitely attached more so to him than normal. But mostly kept her situation under-wraps and instead just informed him she would probably be disappearing for a bit.. but agreed to keep in touch. As long as he did the same!! Don't die on me again 8}} "again" sigh.. but! Stayed the night, leaving the next day.
February 5, 2019
ohhmygod lord help me with my timelines i'm so sorry--
Was supposed to go out for drinks with Noah at some point (UM YESTERDAY? two days ago?), felt something was off when he was a no show. Went straight to his apartment and found him laying in a pool of blood nearly dead. As rattled as she was, kept herself collected as she followed the instructions to take him to another realm; or rather, to Veton's home where Noah would get the help he needed. As against her instincts as it was to let strangers near someone so close to her when they were in a state like that, she swallowed that reaction so she
didn't screw up any of the process for Noah.. and wanted to stay with her friend until he woke up. But as soon as she had gotten time alone and called Farren to inform him what was happening, was torn when he told her to leave Veton's place immediately. Could understand the change of tone, that he was serious, but it was going even
further against her need to protect her loved ones and made her skin crawl at the idea of leaving Noah behind. Begrudgingly hung up without a response, accepting Veton's son's (Maverick) help when he offered to take her between the two realms in order for her to see Noah if she had wanted.
When she was sent back to Noah's apartment, only found that Farren had closed the home portal off to her. Further exasperated her, feeling like her emotions were beginning to shut down but
having Noah's cat and dog around helped a lot. Also hung around Mav when he stayed to clean up the mess Noah's blood had caused, only parting shortly to try to give the puppy a bath (which didn't go well) and she went to stay in Noah's bed with his animals for the night. GUESS SHE could've gone back to her old apartment but.. didn't want to be alone, and Noah's pets are so sweet :pensive:
Didn't sleep at all, so responded quickly when Mav texted her that Noah had woken up. Shot back quickly, clinging herself to her friend for a FEW REASONS.. mainly because he was ALIVE and she was ecstatic to find him in that state, and second because
she was shattered from everything going on. Didn't feel like she really needed to fake being together for him, considering how close they've grown since they first met. Stayed awake throughout the night despite Noah falling asleep pretty quickly again, doting on her friend.
Didn't part from Noah's side until the next day, returning to Forest promptly after that. Wasn't happy to find the dark/cool weather but.. wasn't ready to face Farren yet, either. Spent most of her day collected until Kacie joined her and immediately took her friend over to 'collect' Phy... which soon turned into a HYPE fest when she saw Akil.
She can't help herself, whenever she sees Akil she gotta try to beat him up... She always wins-- jK SHE DON'T. Brightened her spirits for awhile, the three females dog piling on Akil until Lalitha had to begrudgingly leave and return home... since the portal by now was open!! sigh!! forgot to mention that and too lazy to edit all of this.. someone help me i'm so tired--
Returning home spent the first hour there ignoring the situation, completely forgetting she had
borrowed Noah's clothes so!! that didn't help the situation.. quickly showered and changed, then finally facing Farren himself. Which.. quickly blew up at each other. Both pretty much just being upset at the other for not seeing the other's perspective, also didn't help that Lalitha was #triggered she was forced to leave her bb boi in a vampire lair. Argument ended when the Daydream threw her engagement ring at Farren and stormed out of the house. THEN WENT TO GO break stuff at her old apartment.. esp when she felt Farren 'cut off' their connection.
m'so sorry this is such a lazy update, but it's getting late and i haven't written a proper update in ages.... I COULDNT HAVE CHOSEN A NICER ONE, SIGH. mb edit this tomorrow, i swear
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