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"xitlachia
ocachine in ompa tezcatlipoca"



My ancestors tell me
that only women can ride deer.
As a symbol of migration and displacement,
but a greater symbol of the mythic journey.
That once I was ready,
marigolds would light up on the ground
agave plants sprout from my footprints
and snakes slither on their soft bellies through the grass
as I walk the Path of the Sun.

They speak of the crossroads,
dreams and visions I have yet to see
from their eyes.
From the corners of the world,
the thick roots of l'arbol de la vida
will sink arms into the earth
and grip me to Her.
The wrath of blood and fire,
swiftness of water and death,
arriving on a chariot of winds.
Yes, only then will They join me --
naked and soul-bared--
with the deer I rode in on.

As my ancestors tell me so.






























Disclaimer
[center]Warning: possible mature content here, view at your discretion. Music: Icnocuicatl by Lila Downs. CSS codes from from CSS Quick Reference by Unplugged.
I'm superrrrr lazy when it comes to daily diaries and the like so I might not update all the time. Even though this character is heavily based off of my perception of myself, I consider them IC. but I am OK if others perceive her as OOC. I take full responsibility for them.
Feel free to contact me for interaction, clarification, or just hanging out on discord (bayleen#1090).


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FishBiscuit's picture

*yells very quietly in

*yells very quietly in delight
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FishBiscuit's picture

yes, hello there nice to

yes, hello there

nice to meet you
Bayleen's picture

*chokes* omg gimme a second,

*chokes* omg gimme a second, I'm dying from the cuteness of that gif
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FishBiscuit's picture

Isn't it great? Those deer in

Isn't it great? Those deer in Nara sure are cute *o*

This is interesting to come across because I was talking to my boyfriend about OOC deer the other day because there are different ways to play them. You can play them with that disconnect of in-game avatar and the player, where you know you're playing a game, but you can also play them as yourself, completely as if you were in the game.
How do you use this character? She seems to be more of an interpretation of yourself, if I understand correctly, but I'm just curious. I've been wondering on how to play my own OOC.
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OK DUDE YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW

OK DUDE YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I'VE THOUGHT ABOUT THIS ALKSDJFSLKDFJ IT BLOWS MY MIND FOR SOME REASON ??!

But, I think I'd be more of the second option-- this character is myself in the game/as a deer.
OOC/IC stuff kind of confuses me, especially because for me, personally, my deer are partially extensions of myself but don't represent me (sorry if I'm being repetitive about that-- I know that's on my Char Updates page). Obviously, they're their own character of course but I can't deny they are connected to me a little bit. I'm still kind of figuring out how to describe her but I would agree with your description- she's an interpretation of me. sorry if any of that is confusing alkdfj
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FishBiscuit's picture

That's so cool! I'm glad I'm

That's so cool! I'm glad I'm not the only person who had been thinking about it, hah

Makes sense to me perfectly. All of my characters have one thing I struggle with (which is why I'm sometimes scared to death about people knowing about my characters and therefore my struggles lol ;; ) but I have to make them abstract enough that I can't identify with them too much and get all teary eyed the moment they so much as stub their toes.

It seems like a challenge to have a character like this! I want to try..
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Yeah it's actually something

Yeah it's actually something I think about a lot with all my characters ^^;

And oo, I can understand where you're coming from. Interesting you should mention the struggle part... because that's actually kind of what this doe is about. The other two characters - Mariposa and Tog- are, for the most part, pretty positive characters. Both have their negatives and faults like any other, but most of the time they're focused on their uplifting aspects and how they overcome these obstacles.
But this ooc/ic character of mine is.. a bit more raw? More focused on being 'stuck' in those struggles, and how it really feels like for me. It's hard to explain (I could write, and probably will write, an essay on these three characters holy shit) but in so many words... Mariposa is who I was, Tog is who I want to be, and "bayleen" is who I think I am/how I see myself (and it so happens that my self-view happens to be more negative, hence she is therapy deer). I could go on to clarify.. talk to me on skype about it lmao.

It kind of is a challenge, as you can see ;D please try with me ;;
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FishBiscuit's picture

I'm always up for chats on

I'm always up for chats on Skype, even when my schedule doesn't allow it ;P

It's interesting to think about. I wonder what causes the difficulty, because there are so many unpublished authors out there who write exclusively about the adventures of their self-inserts inside of their chosen fandom worlds, and they enjoy it a lot. Perhaps it might have to do with the amount of wish-fulfillment that is then included with the -insert..? I don't know.

Let's have deer adventures together! Yaaas 8U
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Aha yaas, hmu on there

Aha yaas, hmu on there whenever, I just usually don't hit people up because it may say "online" but they're actually busy (because there's that glitch with someone else I know on there so there can be miscommunication sometimes).

And yeah, I used to do that a lot-- mostly through roleplay, though (one time I created a version of myself in a harry potter roleplay, so that was oodles of fun actually lol).

YAAAASSSSSSSSSSS like no srsly i think this is a need of mine lmao. And of course I'm always here to chat, we could help each other out !
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track this)

track this)
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Ah, hello! She was wondering

Ah, hello! She was wondering who she was with in-forest, hah.

[e] WOO NEW CSS.
how do i invisible scrollbar
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UGH I WAS LOOKING FOR U ON

UGH I WAS LOOKING FOR U ON THE MAP BUT MY MAP SUCKS WITH LOADING PICTOS.
Anyways, have a track ♥
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ah are you the one i met by

ah are you the one i met by the pond? we danced a bit, Collector really enjoyed it.
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Ahh, yas, she was! She very

Ahh, yas, she was! She very much enjoyed the Collector's company, she was very relaxed.
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tigerart27's picture

such wonderful company!

such wonderful company!
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Sorry Nix got grumpy towards

Sorry Nix got grumpy towards the end...He was being a big ol' baby ;< But he enjoyed meeting Bayleen!
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Ah, it's no prob! I blame the

Ah, it's no prob! I blame the random spell-spammers earlier aha ;D She enjoyed his company indeed!
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Laur.'s picture

Ugh sorry Allison is kind of

Ugh sorry Allison is kind of acting weird! My lag is terrible with this rain :c
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Aha, it's no prob! I'm laggin

Aha, it's no prob! I'm laggin too ;;
Listening to this as they're in forest, sets the mood perfectly to me :>
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FishBiscuit's picture

*psst!! liking the new layout

*psst!! liking the new layout yes and the colors are always good yes yes
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AUGH fish, thank ya so muchh,

AUGH fish, thank ya so muchh, took a while to make this blarrg look less cluttered. also I am in the forest dozing with Allison if you'd like to join us to generate some warmth ;D
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I'd love to join once I'm at

I'd love to join once I'm at home :')
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Ackkk that song fits perfect

Ackkk that song fits perfect ;u; ♥
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&hearts;&hearts; ! Also, if I

♥♥ ! Also, if I disappear, it's because I've been gone for too long and my computer will go into sleep mode- so the game automatically stops running.. but I shall reappear if that happens!
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That's fine ;u; Also: ^

That's fine ;u; Also:

^ Alli's being eaten by the chest fluff LOL
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Aha, awe they're so cute xD

Aha, awe they're so cute xD Bayleen suffocates others, but with love ;D
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I like your CSS, it's really

I like your CSS, it's really cute Sticking out tongue
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omgg thank youuu

omgg thank youuu
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Eloa and bay need to meet

Eloa and bay need to meet again sometime Laughing out loud I loved our rp ^^
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Happy 7th year!

Happy 7th year!
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Aw, much thank my dear. I

Aw, much thank my dear. I feel so old ;>
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TreeDancer's picture

-rolls around on again just

-rolls around on again just to keep this place fresh on my page -
Flyleaf's picture

Oh , happy 7 tef years ,

Oh , happy 7 tef years , Bayleen Smiling
Avatar @ Sluggs Siggy @ Amazegenalo
Bouncing Fly by Mary13
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@Tree- flings self onto floor

@Tree- flings self onto floor EEEP HELLO AND SORRY i'VE BEEN GONE. Eloa and Bay indeed must meet in-forest sometime, but I cannot find her most times in forest ;;

@Fly- d'aww thank you!
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Track! &hearts;

Track! ♥
Discord: Tzvii#9954 // Signature by Wake.
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Thank you for getting my

Thank you for getting my Aki's pelt back. Tracking this Smiling
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EEEEEE FEESH &hearts; I

EEEEEE FEESH ♥
I frekkin love what so much xD
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FishBiscuit's picture

Heyyyy BayBay! We need more

Heyyyy BayBay!

We need more Bo content. Apparently there's a show of his on Netflix that I haven't seen yet :0
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&hearts; *snuggle-hug*

♥ *snuggle-hug* !

Ooo! Is it his new one- Happy? I heard he would be filming that one and posting that on YouTube like What.

#Tog&Wuuti cuz gah I miss them ;;
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-Exerus tilts ears and looks

-Exerus tilts ears and looks at the feathered doe.- "Hello...?"

(first track Shocked <3 ?)
IvyChain's picture

Sweet girl

Sweet girl <3
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Kileah: An iridescent gaze

Kileah: An iridescent gaze turns to him. Soft, full lips smile at him from her humanoid face. "Dear pup, hello to you."

Ivy: I'm glad you think so ;u;
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suspiciously same-looking

suspiciously same-looking feather lady ',:^l she's so sweet tho ♥ Penn approves

By Lathyrus ♥

Flyleaf's picture

i found you I didn't

i found you Smiling
I didn't notice it was one of your deer .
We had fun a few times already Smiling
Avatar @ Sluggs Siggy @ Amazegenalo
Bouncing Fly by Mary13
Comen's picture

I loveee your character, I

I loveee your character, I feel like i need to put more thought into Comen now Sad
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Awweee thank youuu, that

Awweee thank youuu, that compliment means a lot wow ^^;

And psh, I love Comen!
Really, the only reason Bayleen has a lot of depth to her is because she is some form/representation of me, so I put a lot of thought into how I want her portrayed, etc.. But that doesn't mean everyone has to do that with their chars. Some of the simplest characters make for the best ones! It's all a matter of preference ^^
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