Diary Entry

“The forest can be dull at times.
No wind to move the trees.
No fights for entertainment.
Relentless doldrums of monotony.
During these times I choose to make my own entertainment.
How?
Well there is a story to tell.”

Eversince I was little I've wanted to play a game where you could have a whole world to yourself to explore, sure I wouldn't have thought of haveing weird customizable deer/people things but this game is almost right on the dot. I wish that the game creators would add on some new motions like grazing for those awkward moments when no one has anything good to do. It would be nice if eating and drinking actually made a difference to your character to like influenced how they grow and stuff. or made their hair go longer or I dunno something. Its just a shame that theres nothing to do but wait around for a change to happen. Still I like this game (probably cause I like deer)

*too bad more people don't play
**never mind probably for the best so you don't get those really mean players.

Hmmm... Returning here has made me rethink an old hobby...

A few years ago I became interested in learning clay modelling, so that I could maybe commission custom little figurines for people here, and maybe even build up a business of sorts around it if I eventually became skilled enough. I'm artistic by nature, but I've never been good enough to become professional in any medium of art. I'm good at drawing, but not fantastic. It's my biggest flaw; I can do lots of things great, but nothing *amazing* that would set me apart and make me actually employable for those skills.

But I had never tried modelling before and knew I was capable of learning how, and the interest and enthusiasm was there. TEF was the inspiration for this. That Christmas, I asked for (and received) a rudimentary set of clays and paints to experiment with.

I made and finished one figure; a deer, which ironically wasn't TEF related at all. By this time I was already drifting away from the Forest and doing other things. The deer was actually something from a game I was playing at the time.

It was difficult. It didn't turn out well. And unfortunately, the combination of leaving the Forest and having such a hard time with the clays (more than I had expected due to their poor quality), I was more than unhappy with the result. I gave up then and there.

But looking at it now, sitting on my shelf as it has done for years after I abandoned the hobby... for a first try, it's actually... not that bad. In fact, considering I followed no tutorials, had no help, no training, no experience, no tips and horrible air-hardening clay that was a nightmare to work with, it's actually... pretty good!

This has only just hit me. Returning here has made me realise that perhaps I was wrong to abandon it so quickly. I could be good at this, if only I worked at it, took it seriously. Hmm...

I'm going to need encouragement and help.

"Hmph.
What were you expecting?
Some snowy grin man sitting down to morosely ramble about his love life?
Ha.
Did I fool you or what?
Oh? Surprised to see me addressing you instead of your furry avatar?
Don't think I don't know all about computers.
I use to own one in fact. No cocky encounters with football sized does nor misshapen poetry to be found here. No little lost fawns babbling about how much fun he hand in the forest.
I too have a story to tell...
That is if my reluctant audience is not bitter about my trickery.
Have a seat and maybe I'll tell you of the White Man, of the Knife thrower, or even the Ringmaster."
Rhys laid down in the grass and stared intently towards the sky.
He knew they were out there.
Watching.
Controlling.
Would they hear the story of a lonely muse, or concern themselves with the games of the forest? The forest...no. He could share no stories of such a place.
The world he came from was far more..familiar to them.
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mundus vult decipi means "The world wants to be deceived."
A short introduction piece since it's too late for me to stay awake and properly write.
Rhys will be imparting a series of 'alternate reality' short stories.
I am not sure how many will be posted to the site.
Pretty much depends on whether there is interest or not.

Just tossing all my sketches and such here..rabblerabble.
(Some large photos may follow)

A modest collection of images from the festival. But I had a great time, thanks to some very friendly deer! Not pictured is Valorstep, who I was very happy to see again, and the final dance (or the first dance of 2010, depending on how you look at it) at the Playground.

Valdryion lost his set D: I was able to get the candle antlers back due to the abio last night, but he's ratherp plain now D: don't know when he'll be on next as my computer is deciding to not like it when I run the game.

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I was never a deer of the forest.
I suppose in some alternate reality I too might have survived the night to be with the others.
Join them in frolicking, exploring, yelling and playing in the mysterious land that I could only see through their eyes.

was to be born in the late spring.
I was to be named

I was not.

What an odd day it was.

When I began to stirr from an afternoon map, I awoke to see something very odd. Is this what they call snow? It was so white and clean and odd. Very different. As I stood up, I felt a cold shiver as I saw it had piled up on me. ....Odd. It must have been falling from the sky earlier.

Casually going out into the forest, I headed towards the pond for a quick splash, only to be disturbed again. Such odd sound...I lurked through the trees and grass for a few minutes before locating it. The Gods. They were making such beautiful noise! Oh I danced around the twins for a long time, and was very happy to be accompanied by a new friend.

Haha, I had fun :3 I went in the forest as Sorrel first, and gave her antlers with candles xD Then I had to leave, and when I came back a few hours later with Totlecatl, the candles and snow were gone, but there were big plants and mushrooms, and the twin god statue was playing odd music.

I remember before I left there was fog! And wolf howls. Odd~

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[Seeing as it's New Year's day and all, I'll warn you that this is somewhat depressing! Sorry. >.<]

The Fawn

Weakness, of body and of mind. I am falling to it. I have sold my soul to the traitor, with less remorse than I should have. Darkweaver? You'll never know. You'll never know that I've let myself trust him, let myself grow closer to his mate...Even knowing what he's done to you, all the horrible things.

And you, Darkweaver, were my first friend.

If he knows a way out of here...then so be it. I want out; I'll do anything to escape this endless prison, to get back to mommy and daddy.

They must...miss me...
Unless they've forgotten.

My peacock friend, Ducky? Where are you now? Are you still so frightened? Have I betrayed you, leaving you behind like this?

My kindred soul, Anko. Where are you? Do you lurk within the shadows still? Do you still look for me, wait for me? Or have you forgotten?

Ah, Leonard, Listless...Leonard. I remember that I confided my soul in you. You and I are kindred souls as well, in mind and in body. Have you fallen to your brother's control, Leonard, and forgotten me? Have you forgotten what I told you?

Have you forgotten that I am dying?

Worse, this illness gets. Worse. I am losing ground. I have my good days, but...not lately. I cannot move much anymore. Not without fits of coughing, dry and prolonged, so long that I think they might never end, fits that bring about rolling headaches...

My body, too, is weak. I fear it cannot hold me anymore. I don't know. It's such a frail balance, a scale weighted against me. Cold winds come to steal my breath even farther away.

I am losing the fight.
I must get out of here, must escape the pull of the Twins.
If I don't...
If I don't...
I don't know what will happen.

[Again, it's early in the morning, so I have no idea how this sounds. >.< ]

The Endless Forest

Below His Belly [Dhina Observation 3]

I hope they add some new features soon ;.;

Unmolded thoughts

Mundus vult decipi

.Yakkety Yak. just a [Dump]

New Years Festival [Images from Dec 31]

lost his set!

Álmos; Opportunity

Snow through song

Fall [Depressing Warning >.<]