...I held it in, but now it seems you've set it running free.
I suppose there are times where I must simply let go; to free myself from these chains, to surrender to instinct - to remind myself that I am, in fact, alive.
I suppose I am thankful that you’ve had a bit too much sugar today; we tear up the forest, you and I – never stopping for a single spot of rest. My eyes grasp the racing form in front of me that is you, brown sprinkled in white; you are an art form in motion, and I chase and I chase. I follow because I want to be with you – I chase because I want to hunt you, if only figuratively. I would never hurt you; you are far too precious to me – instinct can’t completely smother this heart of mine, now throbbing from the adrenaline, the lust, igniting my blood.
Don’t get the wrong idea; it is not you, per say, that I lust for. This is a lust born from a primal instinct; the lust for the thrill of chasing, reaching, grasping something. My blood is torrid in my veins, and I feel as if my body is searing with heat. I wonder if you feel the same; I can see the beads of sweat desperately clinging to your coat, only to fall as the wind strikes without mercy. I can see the way your muscles are rippling just under the skin; I can hear the reverberating in your chest as your breath escapes from your maws.
I can feel my lungs swelling and attenuating as I keep chasing, keep hunting. My heart is pulsating in my chest; it feels as if it’s about to burst from its cage. My tongue has but abandoned its spot tucked away in my mouth, choosing instead to hang out, trying to taste the air.
I once dreamt of this, you know. Though the one I chased was…different.
It was exactly a year ago since my birth. A terrible unusual birth, or maybe some would call it death. Unlike you, I was not born from a womb, I was brought down and was placed in a grave, a solitary, dark, space that acted like a womb I'm at least guessing. The grave was heated like the insides of a pregnant doe, and yet, I wasn't cramped up. The grave was pitch black, a food source lines the edges. The food was to last for two months, that was my development stage. And everything changed....On that day, the day, of my birth.
Sunrise has started, beautiful reds, purples, pinks, and oranges stretched across the sky, the grass below was painted a beautiful glimmering Green lined in sliver reflecting dew drops. The morning was calm besides the birds in a small place for the graves of many deer. Going from beauty and wonder, one deer only saw pitch black, and felt nothing but the cob webs lining the walls of his sanctuary. Yet, his ears swerved around, something was outside, he gazed around the darkness he had gotten so used to, the heat only making sweat fall from his grey and white pelt. Suddenly a large screeching sound filled his ears and rays of death, or what he felt they were, cast down on him. Crying in pain at the feel of the sun beating on his pelt, and burning his eyes, something stepped forwards and shaded him. "Hush," a calming voice filled the fawn's ears and he squinted his eyes as he gazed up, his pelt wet from the grave called his womb. Reaching out the buck examined the fawn, for he was never sent to fetch a raven faced Fawn. "Your beak is quite....Different for me," he explained and turned. "If you are to survive, you must stand and climb out of your grave, rise! One of death!" The buck called out. The fawn paused, raven faced? One of death? His fur ruffling he shook the sweat and juices from his pelt before he struggled to stand.
Yes, it's my birthday today! 20 years I've been on this planet. And I got tons os presents from my boyfriend! Lots of chokolate, socks, flower candles, mushroom statue, cupcake thingy you put things in, and a Nintendo DS!! With Alice in wonderland and Pokémon platinum!!!! OMG. I freaked out! Though I only got it in autumn or something way in future, but then I got it! He bought it in March, just before I said that I wanted Pokémon white. Haha, silly. But I am so glad! And tomorrow we'll celebrate it.
When I log in, my deer like....Fades into the twin god statues, and I cant see anything else but the god statues but when I attempt to move my deer the icons move as if hes moving but my camera doesnt move.
Ill try restarting my computer and see if that works, Ill edit it if it works,but in the mean time, have any ideas? Please post x.x
Just wondering if anyone ever is on FeralHeart? Or know what it is? You can fin info at; www.feral-heart.com.
I'm Shellz on there, you can request a map, if you so wish it of me, but I only do heightmaps, m'afraid. But I can teach you how to do it without using a Yt tut. :'3. Anyway, yeah. My post~
Hi everyone ^^;;;;;; I feel like an idiot, but I got my beautiful Candle antlers yesterday, and....I didnt save my stuff, and my computer restarted on its own so....Yippy, I lost them x.x
If any one would be so kind enough to maybe....Cast some on mah deer, I would be most honoured, and I can repay you! Just name it!
I got my Candle Antlers today ! Thanks so a super amazing person! But I has problem, my friend also wanted a pair but was to shy to ask, but now I have a question, how do I pass my Candles onto her?
! With Alice in wonderland and Pokémon platinum!!!! OMG. I freaked out! Though I only got it in autumn or something way in future, but then I got it! He bought it in March, just before I said that I wanted Pokémon white. Haha, silly. But I am so glad! And tomorrow we'll celebrate it.
! Thanks so a super amazing person! But I has problem, my friend also wanted a pair but was to shy to ask, but now I have a question, how do I pass my Candles onto her? 
