July 4, 2012 - 1:54am — Rutilus
Rated m for dark themes and general emo shit that I shouldn't talk about. Highly personal.
well she walks in and fills the whole room
feeds everyone lies with her silver spoon
she got green eyes and she's jealous too
she says she's always had to take care of you
and everyone tuts and they say what a sin
why don't you respect her, don't you know where she's bin?
how could you cringe when she comes too near
you'd think you had some kinda underlying fear
there's that suffocating paralysation
asphyxiating on my gin and raisin
run out singing 'til my heart is swimming
I wanna get drunk get drunk get out
there's that feeling that I'm drowning fast
there's that fear and it won't ever pass
she crushes me down with her goddamn mass
there's that suffocating asphyxiation
feels like I'm choking on the years gone by
I didn't realise all the times I'd lied
right to my face in the mirror I'd say
she didn't hurt you and it's all okay
she says she was just as young as you
I think she forgets that there's a six-year gap
she says she's emotionally traumatised too
it's not that, it's not that, so get offa my back
hell I don't hate her but she sure does scare me
she creeps into my room at 4am
she's been getting touchy-feely and it's only lately
well a year, since it's bothered me, from way back when
I didn't feel that suffocating paralysation
she didn't make me wanna crawl outta my skin
she didn't make me want death by asphyxiation
now I don't want her near me; what a sin, what a sin
This is great as usual...
♥ Thanks~ Don't be
hell I don't hate her but she
she creeps into my room at 4am
she's been getting touchy-feely and it's only lately
well a year, since it's bothered me, from way back when
My favorite part. I always seem to like the particularly twisted parts; I'm terrible, uuugh.
I really do like all of this though; I echo Jin's sentiment, I'm also sorry that it's personal. I hope things get better...:/
hope things get better.
your poems are the best.
are you all right, safe?
Awwww...This is quite nice,