July 16, 2012 - 3:08am — Rutilus
Because I love him, even if he does have mental problems that result in him acting like a child and frustrating everyone around him. |8 oh Jim.
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Uh, I'm not--I mean, this isn't where I usually am. I mean, not that I know of. Keith told me about it. Told me how to get in. Did you know there's a password? For us, at least, but you've gotta--you can't be in your right mind. There's gotta be a weakness. Keith says he drinks some whiskey, waits 'til he's tipsy then tries.
But I don't have to intoxicate myself. Does that mean there's already a weakness?
I like it here. Being a deer, I mean. It's nice, even if they all look funny, but I guess they're harmless. Deer don't hurt people, and Keith gave me a mask just incase I need some confidence, which was nice of him. I mean--kind of disturbing, because it's a skull, but I thought it was sweet anyway. I'm not really that interested in skulls, and bones, and stuff, but Keith loves it.
He's kind of weird like that, uh. But Craig likes him. Craig's my partner. Back home. You know. Uh. He kind of takes care of me--well no, not kind of. He does. But I'm trying to get better and quit bothering him. Keith helps, but Keith's got problems of his own and that makes me feel worse.
It's not my fault, though. I didn't do anything wrong anyway.
I met, uh, two deer first, I guess. Although, they looked weird, creeped me out for a bit but...I got used to it, you know? The first one, his mask looked like a rotting face. The second, he...well, he was red, I guess. I liked Rotface, he didn't make me as nervous as the other one - but they did kind of crush me, at one point. I'm...I don't like confined...spaces, all the time.
Rotface left me with Redsoul and we just...sat for a while, I guess, but then he grabbed me by the scruff and lifted me, and put me in a tree and I was panicking and I fell and--yeah. He laughed, but he said sorry and...I didn't really have the heart to stay mad. We went to the pond, and he was trying to make me feel better but something happened, everything went white and he was burning, I didn't know what to do and Craig wasn't there to tell me so I ran to get poppies to help make him feel better like he did for me but he just...
I don't know. He left soon after, and I kinda fell asleep. I went to the river later, and there was someone there but I wanted to sit there too, so I just--I just went on ahead and sat with 'em and they didn't seem to notice me. But then someone else came, I nicknamed him Poppy, and he...he scared me. Just the way he looked at me. And later, they got up, I didn't want to make anyone angry so I stayed behind and watched someone else come along, a Redskull, and he seemed angry. I thought they were fighting, but I couldn't...tell.
It seemed okay for a while. Redskull took me over to a tree and we sat, and a lady - I called her Beltloop - came along and we all sat together. Me, Redskull, Poppy, Beltloop and the first stag, the one I just called 'First' because I couldn't think of anything else. But a fight broke out, somehow, I don't know how, and all I wanted to do was stop them from hurting Beltloop, because I liked her, she was nice to look at and she's not just a typical lady, I think, but...but I didn't move.
First came over to me and he seemed angry still, getting closer, so I moved back. He kept moving forwards and I just backed away. I didn't wanna piss him off even more, and then the next thing I knew I was ages away from Beltloop and Poppy, next to Redskull and First was just...irritated?
I was nervous; they kept getting close to me and I tried to just laugh it off. I guess they were just cuddly? I dunno. But we--we laid down, later, and Redskull left but First stayed with me, which surprised me, because usually people get bored and move away.
It was kind of perfect timing when First left, because I saw these two deer running around - huge deer, like so many times my size - and they were having so much fun, it was just...nice to watch and it made me laugh just as much as they did. I didn't really want them to see me, but the big one, the Titan, she came over and she was...nice. The other one - I called him Cardflip - was nice to me too, and I ended up running around with them. Another deer-thing joined us, a female this time, and I called her Twist because...because I liked the sound of it.
I got tired, so I sat down, but then I saw someone pass by and they looked lonely, so I called her Creed and I got her to dance with the others. I didn't want to dance, because I'd look silly, but it was fun to watch. We all settled, I guess, and eventually it was just me and Titan, and she let me cuddle her a little, which was nice.
It's cold and I'm alone again, but I think I had a nice day.
He sounds..
ugh i love how this is
so much
PFFFFT let him love you |:
<3 baw swamp, thankyou ;u; I don't like the...the rambling aspect of it all butdsfdf thankyou <333
naw the rambling, stream of