Updates:

Quad has fallen into a deep slumber, and has become a tree.
Feel free to sit with him while he is in this state.
He will awake from his sleep over time.

10/07/11 -

"The only thing I've ever wanted in life is to be normal. I want to be able to live without having to worry about protecting everyone and having to go through death and pain...

Selfish, I know...but the Twin Gods keep me on this world while there are threats out there. I've died before, in many different ways, and each time...the pain is horrible.

There are days I wish...I could just sleep for an eternity...And I know who could give me that, but...

To surrender this Forest to Iugulare, to make everyone else suffer because I do not wish to continue...it's unthinkable..."

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"Perhaps it's for the best that it has to be this way.
I never realized how old I really am.
Almost four years...
No wonder...

I am afraid to even approach my friends during this time.
I must stand at a distance so they do not take me the wrong way.
And why wouldn't they threaten me if I approached?
They know I trained for this time of the year.
They can see how weak my antlers are.
They know I can be killed...
I'm sure I would just be an easy target for them.

There is very little left in this Forest for me.
Time marches on, things come and go.
Creatures much more fit for violence and war belong here.
There is no room in this Forest for one like me.

No room for a broken heart..."

10/06/11 -



"Hide my shame in a field of blue...
Maybe the smells of berries will mask the scent...
So they will not track me, hunt me down...
And end my life over something so petty as a doe...

Weak...pathetic...
What a fool I was to even think of this...
I was never meant to be normal...
My dreams of living like anyone else...

I cannot hide forever...
But maybe I can hide long enough...
So that the Forest forgets I even exist...
Maybe in exile I can find normality..."




"I could still participate if I thought my antlers were ready...

But who would want someone like me...when they could have a muscular scarred up stag like all the others?

...Why should I even bother trying to prove my worth...when I am worthless...

...I should just accept that I will never find love again..."


09/26/11 -



"I was too late. My antlers were not fully grown. All the work...all the training...wasted...

I will remain as a hummingbird to hide my shame. I do not want the others to see my weak, pathetic antlers.

I'll never find love again...no doe would ever love a lesser stag."

Name: Quad

Meaning: Came from the human word for "Four". He heard this word early in his fawnhood and chose it for his name.

Title: Grand Talux

D.O.B: October 2007

Gender: Male

Age: 25

Pictogram: Click

Sets:

Main -

Subs -

Mate: Mazey separated

Children: Axie, Zephyr

Status: Video Mate essentially never got finished, so he's still single.

Orientation: Straight

A note about Quad's orientation:

Quad is a representation of me, and therefore is considered straight. He has no interest in having a gay relationship, so please don't ask me to change him to accommodate your deer.

He once loved a doe named Mazey, but her player does not play TEF anymore, so Quad is single. He wants to have a doe for a mate, but I have a few things I'd like for his mate...

- I'd like for it to be a player I know pretty well
- Someone Quad's met in-game a few times
- Someone who wants to have a meaningful relationship with him (No mate beggars please)
- And like I said...a straight relationship. Quad won't do a gay romance.

There may be some others thrown in but that's all I really have for that...

If you want your doe to try to ask Quad to be her mate, please feel free to let me know on here but remember the things I said in this thing. Or contact me on my MSN at

Personality:
Quad is often considered a gentle and friendly stag. He generally is very happy and will dance, laugh, and play with other deer.

Quad enjoys meeting new deer and treats everyone with respect. He has a few close friends, but usually he will hang out with any deer in the forest. He loves parties (groups of deer) and generally flocks to areas with the most deer. Quad especially loves to teach fawns new tricks, including laughing so hard that you fall halfway into the ground, yes-no combinations, and in particular his "listening while spinning around" trick.
Quad loves to look goofy. He loves to stick his head through trees and stare at other deer. He also loves to tilt his head over and over, not in confusion, but to mess with other deer.
When he gets tired, he generally sits in one of four places:
- The broken pillar at the ruins (his sleeping spot)
- The old bridge
- The dragonfly gathering at the pond
- A tree within a mushroom circle near the ruins

For a while, his path crossed with a doe's. He had fallen in love with Mazey, but soon after she left the Endless Forest. Quad waited for her to return, but soon decided to pursue another doe. One day he'll find another, but he will always remember his first mate. *Please note, I actually contacted Mazey and she gave me permission to let Quad mate another doe, so this isn't in any way an affair.*

So in short, Quad is single and looking.

IF YOU NEED A FRIEND, JUST ASK! Quad's always happy to hang out with anyone, so don't be afraid to come up and bow to him!


Powers and abilities:
Quad is a special deer called the Grand Talux. He can grow four wings on his back at will and his body and fur can glow and shine a brilliant white light that can fight against Iugulare's infection. He often comes to the aid of his friends who have been infected and heals them with this ability.

In addition, Quad has been given the gift of rebirth. When he dies, he comes back to life after a few moments, though he will still feel the pain from whatever killed him before. While many may see this as a gift such as 'immortality', Quad sees it as more of a curse, as he has been killed multiple times and suffers deep amounts of pain every time. There is ultimately one way to kill him for good, though only the Twin Gods know it.

Additional facts about Quad

Wolf Quad represents another side of Quad. Since Quad is a part of me, when needed, he may shapeshift into a wolf (or another animal) for guidance.

I generally associate Deer Quad as a counselor, where Wolf Quad is more of a teacher. Deer Quad usually helps me get through a tough time in life and is there for compassion, where Wolf Quad teaches me about things I simply don't understand and is there for encouragement and clarity. He is extremely wise, even being a part of me he can teach me things I would have never known about.

So why a wolf? Until recently, I hated wolves, especially the internet fanbase for them, but it was because I didn't understand anything about them and needed serious lessons about them. After much help from my friends and a walk with Quad as a wolf, I gained a better appreciation for wolves, though I still catch myself having resentment for people who like wolves. I just haven't gotten to a state of complete acceptance yet.

I asked for artwork of Wolf Quad and got a great response from my friends. I'm always looking for more artwork of him, and love any and all representations made of him. There is no set-in-stone way to draw him, though he usually retains his blue and white fur from being a deer. He is depicted a variety of ways, too - sometimes he seems kind, wise, and friendly, other times he appears as violent, snarling, and angry. The variety helps me understand who he really is - a serious guardian who believes in tough love.

In the Endless Forest, Wolf Quad may sometimes appear. He will have a different look than usual.

When finding him in the Forest, feel free to treat him exactly as you would when he is a deer. He may not be as silly as usual, but he's still the same Quad.

Wolf Quad will continue to stand by me when I need him to, and when I have learned what he wants to know, he will change back to being a loving deer. He does not seem to mind the transformation, despite turning into practically a polar-opposite animal to who he really is. It's all in a day's work for him.