trading punches with the heart of darkness


"Well then.."

7/21/26

Dealing with quite a lot of inward battles regarding kin. Exhausted at the end of every single day but sleep finds her easily. A specific conversation with Kali many weeks ago has not given her even a day of reprieve from thoughts. Terrified in the way she resonated so heavily with words from her loved one, and in a way does not trust herself (Shahla). Distractions during the day do well to forget temporarily, but they are a boulder at her door every night it is quiet and she awaits the inevitable fall of sleep that has not let her down in its grasp.

5/7/26

Had her children. Much too early and before they themselves were ready for the world. Since their arrival they have spent their very short existence attached to machines to assist in their continued survival. They are yet to thrive. Shahla has not introduced them to anyone, and is yet to even attach names to them in anxiety they will not make it long enough to hear it themselves anyway. Selfishly detached from them innumerable of ways. Visits them often, and doesnt allow anyone else to feed them. Hints of her care and love, but otherwise does not allow any formal showing of it in front of any of the medical staff.

Informed of something from Kali that has inwardly shattered her being. Has found a few bits of reassurance in certain aspects but is still holding onto the heaviness that has found its way to shoulders and heart. Something that is surely to remain a permanent addition to her life.



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