26th of February, 2016

Well, They found me. Found me, punished and threw right back here. Now I’m back here blind for a couple of months. They didn’t exactly describe how long a couple of months was but whatever, they seem to skip out on the details a lot. Like why they brought me back to “life” for and what they still need from me. I mean, I get that I was the one that sought them out for help, but I don’t really understand why They are still keeping me around. They got Their payment.

I’m beginning to think I’m still “alive” just to be Their chew toy. Fuck.

...Well, I'm back in the Forest and there's something I promised someone a while ago and it's over due. Guess I should try to find their den and apologize to them.

14th of February, 2016

So, back in the Forest. Heh, I should be hidden here. There’s no way They could find me here… Right? Who am I kidding, I don’t think there is any place that anyone can be hidden from Them. Damn.

Saw Anneliese and met Exerus, and some other deer with that little wolf pup. Apparently he was honored with a name now. Amaroq. Played with them a bit before they all decided to settle down. Sat on the outskirt of the group. A short while later the group moved a bit a ways to another tree. I decided to stick behind.

Every little movement and sound was putting me on alert.

Fuck. Why haven’t They found me yet? Are They playing with me?

Hirnii suddenly popped up with nuzzles. Hey, Orange, long time no see. Played around with them for a while, happy to be distracted. Didn’t last as long as I would have liked though, Hirnii fell asleep. I watched over them until they woke from their nap and left with another nuzzle. Don’t leave me with my mind…

Right as Hirnii left a stranger skidded in front of me and began hoping around like crazy. Sure, I’m up for more distractions, let’s run around and cause havoc.

Ran around the Pond and tussled with Bailam until we came to the Old Oak. Sat with Bailam for a while, but he moved to that bat-hybrid creature. Noticed Ich as she walked over and wondered if she was up for some more fight practice. She tried but she seemed too occupied at staring at Bailam. Deciding this wasn’t going anywhere I began to settle down and preparing for my thoughts, but before this could happen Ich suddenly snapped out of whatever it was she was in and began running around, continuing the fight practice. Or I thought.

We ran around the Forest, and coming back to our start point I fell into the stream. Got out as fast as I could, I shook the water off to see no Ich in sight. But I did see Maggot. Fff-ugh. I did say I wanted distractions, didn’t specify what kind.

Was chased back to the Old Oak. Saw Bailam playing with two deer. Laid down, temporarily forgetting about Maggot. That is, until the giant mutt laid on me. Hmm, you seem very affectionate today, what’s that? Had quite the, um, interesting… chat with him. It was kind of nice. Then it wasn’t. Woah, mutt, I don’t want to get into it with you, okay. I’m not against you like that, okay? The relationship between us might be confusing- my bad- but you got to get I’m not against you. Which, I have to say, is hilarious since you had put a hit on a friend of mine. But, uhh, I guess that might have been good timing for him. Get away from some things and give him a break.

Pushed Maggot off of me and followed Bailam, along with Annaliese and the bat, to the Pond. He caught a fish for me. Oh, um thank you. Didn’t want to tell him that it wasn’t necessary for me to eat, so I just asked him if he wanted to split it, which he agree to. Wow, I guess I haven’t had food in a while. He asked if I wanted another and I agreed, missing the taste of food. He also fished one for the bat to eat. Hmm, I don’t think that one likes me all that much? Oh well, can’t please everyone and he’s probably onto something with that.

Spent some more time with them before being left alone, and therefor left with my thoughts once again. Maybe I should talk to someone about this…