A peek into Envy's mind,
A story of his fawnhood 400 years ago
Warning, contains gore and foul language
-this is more like a 'diary' of envy's so it may not sound like him from time to time xD /fails
When I was young, I was mortal. Such as are most of the deer in this forest. I had a golden pelt that made everyone envious of me, and I loved it.
And yet, I was lonely. A forgotten toy. A nobody
Soon enough, like many deer back then, I fell prey to sickness and died.
But not all life ends after death.
I awoke to the sounds of rain, my body as cold as ice. Alone like usuall. Could it all have just been a bad dream? Easy to say, when I tryed to stand I wasn't surprised that I felt light headed. But...
I could not feel the coldness of the rain as it touched my fur, nor the wind's caressing breeze.
As I walked twords the pond, I looked down at myself. Only to find a stranger looking back at me.
Soft golden eyes had turned to a deep violet. The white of my eyes were pitch black, as dark as the night sky without a moon. Gold fur had been replaced by a midnight black pelt that shone a hazy grey when the light hit it just right.
I was startled to say the least. Yet then again anybody would be I suppose. I could feel the cold hard glares of rejection my herd gave me from afar as I returned to them. I was a stranger. No, I was worse than that in there eyes.
I was a monster
---------------------------x
As they grew old and died, I still stayed the same. Never aging.
Even though I did find a few cool tricks along the way. I could change my shape to whatever I wished. A crow, A fish, anything my heart desired. But whenever I became a deer...I was stuck in this body.
Eventually I began to shun my old self. Leaving it in the past where it belonged.
This body was much better than any of those this old forest had ever seen.
Untill...
Gods arrived in the forgotten forest, at the edge of our world. Claiming the forest as theres, many strange deer fled to this forest, including myself. Funny thing is. Once your here, you can never leave.
I met many a strange looking deer. Some looked like they were part bird, with there wings and beaks, but still ran around with deer legs. Some even had the faces of humans, or that of a dead deer.
Even though I was old, this forest was strange and new to me. I could run about, snatching up fish or birds for a quick snack without anyone giving me a second look.
And yet...
The souls of the past still flooded my dreams, turning them into nightmares. I never killed anyone, and yet forgotten souls chased me through the night. There blood red eyes seeking revenge on me, for being the monster everyone seemed to think that I was.
The dreams always got worse after loosing a fight.
Monster
Failure
Pathetic
They yelled at me, but I had listened to this from other deer who were already alive. I didn't need to hear it from spirits as well.
I got fed up with the fake smiles and lies that all the otehr deer gave me. I had had enough.
Picking off the old was easy enough, and there flesh was a rare feast. There blood raged through me, giving me a slight feeling of warmth. Yet, when all the old frail deer are gone, my body felt weak without there fresh blood.
Fawns.
Young blood, fresh meat.
But I could only kill off the sick ones without getting in trouble with cautious deer. The fawns never put up a fight. A chase here and there, A quick snap of jaws and twish of the spine and you had your meal.
Hah, they dare make fun of me.
---------------------------x
All good things must come to an end I suppose.
The god's power faded for a while, and swarms of humans invaded the forest, killing off the deer for there meat.
Thankfully, I could turn into one of them...
Funny thing humans are. They may not notice it, but they act a lot like the deer that once lived here.
They built bridges and temples. Fountains and statues.
But behind there happy masks, they were ugly. Easily fooled, and easily killed.
As I was walking through the streets, A scream perced my ears.
Through snow covered allyways I looked for the source, untill I came upon her.
By now I had never really felt an attacment to anyone or anything since coming here. But I could feel a twang of sorrow fill my heart as a dark haired lady was killed. Her life ripped away from her by the lowlife humans that lived here.
As the killers ran off, I aproached the girl. The smell of fresh blood filled my sences.
Small flakes of snow fell upon the earth, as if they sky itself was crying for her.
Placing my hand upon her chest, I wispered secrets into her unhearing ears as small flicks of lightning came from my fingertips. A blood red marking of a dragon eating his tail, a sign of never ending life, was all that was left from where my hand was.
I had given part of my life to her so she could live her life anew, but would she ever know who helped her?
Laughing under my breath I took to the shadows again. It would be interesting to see what she will do.
---------------------------x
Blood hit the window pane as I watched the slaugher from outside the human's house. Serves them right for killing her. A laugh escaped me as I went to stand in the doorway to get a better look.
My laughter seemed to have caught the girls attention as she spun twords him, blood covering her cloths. 'Who are you?' She asked, her sweet voice filled the room.
A smirk graced my lips, 'Does it matter who I am?'
My reply obviously got on her nerves. And I loved it. 'Your obviously not one of them...so...what are you?", she whispered. Confusion easily shown in her bright violet eyes.
I looked her up and down, her body seemed to be missing all of the cuts and wounds from her earlier death. And her healing seemed to be up to par. "So if really worked huh?'
Poor thing, she must be so confused. 'What worked?' She demanded plainly. I laughed again,'Don't act so stupid, i'm sure you know what I mean. I'm actually surprised that you havn't died yet like last time I tryed to bring somebody back.' Walking up to her, I touched her chest where the tattoo was and smiled. 'Looks like I finnaly have a sister.'
Looking down at where my hand was, she seemed to notice the blood red tattoo that went so well against her pale skin. Her eyes followed my arm to my face. 'Then name me'
I frowned 'Name you? I suppose you don't remember you old name huh?' A smirk tugged at the edge of my lips as violet eyes locked on hers. 'How about Lust'
She watched my face intensely. I could sence that she felt some sort of connection to me, at least a little thread that bound us together. She tested the name '...Lust....' Violet eyes locked with mine as a slow smile spread across her lips. 'I like it. So...what does that make you?' Her eyes searched for an answer.
At this I laughed, a true smile on my face. 'As I am your brother of sorts now, you can call me Envy.'
Walking around her slowly, I played with her long hair, watching as it shone so nicely in the dim light. 'How are you likeing your new life? You should be gratefull.'
A soft smile spread upon Lust's lips at my laugh. 'Envy...' She repeated my name, testing it and savoring it.
I lightly dragged my fingers along the nape of her neck as she whispered my name again. Lust instinctively pushed against my hand. 'My new life is much better than my old.....I...I am gratefull. So...what am I to do now? Where...am I to go? What to do?'
Laughing under my breath at her reaction to my touch, nodding his head silently as she asked her questions. Stopping infront of her I looked up to her face, 'I'm glad. Heh, you ask many questions. But since you have nowhere to go, your free to live with me. I will explain everything to you soon enough.' I quickly took her hand, winding our fingers together like I had seen so many humans do. And tugged lightly. 'What do you say sis?' I asked, another smile gracing my features.
Lust smiled softly to me, 'Well I have a new life to know....I'd like that Envy' Lifting her other hand, she cupped my cheek softly. The warm blood on her fingers sent a tingle down my spine. 'Lead the way'
---------------------------x
Sorry Lust, forgive me on my horrible job xD /shot
b'aww sibling love c:
This story goes along with M.Halloween's
Her secrets make you weep: Lust's past Please go read it c:
Love it! MOAR!
I second mrshalloween 8D
i third
Fourth ;]
Bawwww....poor Envy. We have
I was actually hoping you
'Tis why I havn't continued my story.
Maybe we could chat over msn about it? As to not give away any spoilers? xD
"Small flakes of snow fell
mmm. I've had an image like that in my mind for a long time. it's very lovely <3
;^; It's perfect you silly
--edit: It is done. >83