Current feeling (Theme of leaving)

It is true then. There's no such a thing in the World. There's no such a thing in whole Galaxy *sigh* No...no...no... Each animal need a special food, I suppose. Indeed it is my true name then. As I predicted, they finally gave it to me. Indeed I haven't got such experience. Indeed nobody hears me. Well... now I have one reason less to coming back...

But now I'm the one who have a question. Is it all vain? All that you're writing there? When you're dying from loneliness, but nobody cares. I was waiting long enough... ... ... Can you truly have a link with them? Can you truly finish them off? Or is it another foolish trick to make a threat to someone who cares? What do you feel then, if I say that if he die, I may stop too... Suppose I know the answer... Why you saved him at first time then, if you saw he haven't got anything yet? Tell me what I feeling... Selfishness? Truly this is not fear of... extinction. No, you can't see these tears...

I am tired of fighting. I have no wish to fight a person who feels something positive towards someone. Must fight only to protect. And I do not want to bring harm into someone's open heart. Besides I know that I cannot play much now. I thought, if I'm kept away, the correct choice will be made. So this is it. Please be... I can only hope you can't receive the same mask as myself. Nothing lives forever, you say? So, I never ask of friendship. I've been around this life a while.

And I never thought such a thing. So they means nothing now. This is the point: the true opinion. But really. This is only me, who have no choices.
I never do nothing to fill this hole the mask protects from. I can't care about both my bodies at same time. Only another creature can cast... bla...bla...bla... Each engine have some glitches... is it? What can I say: I will always care.