For a day or two. Going back to the homeland for a job interview for a couple days. I'm really attached to The Endless Forest already after being here for only a week :[ Just running around and talking to everyone (sometimes without words!) has been surprisingly therapeutic - I'm a little stress bucket. So I'm going to try to stay on the forums on my dinky netbook while I travel.
Bus ride is about 4 hours...does anyone want their character drawn?

They will probably look something like this: http://endlessforest.org/community/paperfang-81711

Abseilen (coloring still)
Carina
Foxglove
Beren
Steve
Juniper
Brooklyn
Sorrel
Evania

I'm sorry to bring this up again, especially here. But I really wanted to ask a question from someone other than my therapist, and you guys are my best friends...so here it goes.

Shimmyshimmy wrote me an e-mail the other day pointing out characteristics I have. It's difficult for me to grasp these because, well...being recently diagnosed with several things including high anxiety and depression, you have a hard time accepting the truth. I've gotten better at this, and am really starting to feel pride, confidence, and better self-esteem.

These things I've just been diagnosed with - ADHD, learning disabilities, a personality disorder or two, anxiety, depression...I'm making a commitment now to not let these defeat me. I've told myself many things that should have never been said -- that I was a failure, that I was weak, that I was flawed...that I should have never been born.

Those thoughts, they're going to end now. I'm tired of them, I'm tired of these feelings of worthlessness.

Shimmy's e-mail used words to describe me such as "fantastic", "selfless", "caring", and a "triumph". To read these words from someone else, that they actually think this of me despite the things I have written on this site about myself...it really digs deep into my soul.

I want to ask this then. I know this is my life and I have the right to do whatever I want with it, but I wanted to ask you all - if you were in my shoes, at this very moment of being ready to move out and live your life...if you knew that you will be living your dream job and that you really don't care about how much money you make...if you already had an idea for things you want to do for yourself later on, but had money to give away or use toward helping others...what would you do to better the world?

I already know I want to donate to charity. That's a dream I will be fulfilling once I have money to spare. But I feel like that's not good enough.

Starting Tuesday August 23, I will be on this site very little to not at all, probably only in the EST evenings or late at night. I am going to college, which is five hours away from home. Move-in is Wednesday, Entrance Exam is Thursday, Monday school starts, and I have a bunch of busy to do to begin college life. >.< Rough, but fun.

This inactivity will last until I get settled, so give it a couple weeks, maybe up to a month. I am going to miss you all so so much! But I promise to check in and everything.

Freshman year, here I come!


UPDATE:
Made it to my college town. Everything seems wonderful so far! Hotel is kinda funny, the Whirlpool tub is in the middle of the living room... but I guess in a King suite they only think a couple is staying, not a family of 3? Whatever though, at least it is more comfy and cleaner than the previous hotel! ANd it is pet-friendly so I got to see a lovely Catahoula Leopard Dog, one of my favourite breeds, and he is so sweeeeet!

Update2:
IN my room, parents are gone, and I am now a college student! This is crazy.

Recently since i changed computers' i had to reinstall TEF, i saved my spelldata's into a separate folder and transferred them into my current computer. But whenever i plug them in the pelt is always default.
So, what im asking is if there's anything i can do about this, and if not, would someone be a dear and help me get my set for Muse?
Oh if this question sounds really stupid its because i haven't played TEF since May.
The set was
Skull Mask
Butterfly pelt
and Noh antlers. <3

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