How much I love, respect, and appreciate ALL OF YOU. I could never express it well enough.

In all the years that I have been an RPer and Writer, and in all the communities I have been part of in the several years that I've been online... TEF has been the most welcoming, open minded, comfortable place I've ever been to. It's a better place than home.

It's suprising but lately I've been thinking about the communities and sites that I used to frequently visit, and even assistant manage/manage. I spent five years running a Sonic the Hedgehog based RP site which had a community that never really passed 31 or so people, and said site was hacked about once or twice a year, usually by one of three people from a rival site that most people decended from including myself. In the first few years it was a paradise, the community and site I managed, but eventually the less approachable people from places I left joined and in time made the place a living hell that I now question my own reasoning for in keeping alive. In the last two years and after multiple remodelings, I had become a very untrusting person; very cynical and easilly provolked. I had a long run of depressions that would occasionally break and switch into a frenzy of updates and such that once completed, looked great. Then in those last two years, claims started up that the place was 'dieing'. Even though it was still remotely active. These claims eventually fell threw, wearing everyone down until most stopped comming. But at the same time that these claims began, I personally came under a lot of fire as the manager. A group of about 7 or 8 people (a substantial number in a small community which had dwindled to maybe 12 or 13), had begun to take every chance they could to pick at my work and heavilly critique it, and me personally. In the final year of my own activity there, before I joined TEF, I was almost constantly under verbal/typed attack, rather than critique. Every time I looked at anything addressed to me, it became a punch in the stomache. When college and such started up, it was a grand release for me even though I didn't recognise it as such. I broke out of habits of going over there and dealing with people who enjoyed kicking 'dead horses' and those who are down. I eventually found TEF threw DA, first learning about it threw Verdalas.

You guys have been nothing but kind to me, as long as I've been here. I love you all, to the point of tears. There are so many awesome people, and I've found myself absoulutely never put on the spot or targeted for someone elses venting. Thank you all for being so awesome. This site, TEF, is home for me. I hope to never leave this great place.

~Zergarikiaka