There have been times
I've wished for the impossible
But standing here in the snow
You don't seem so far away at all.
Me and my most beloved
Lady Bones, who has taught me so much, and will continue to for the rest of my life.
Figured while I'm at it, might as well invite everyone! This is a blog for all of us, why not draw you and your character(s)? Or write something? Doesn't have to be fancy! Have fun with it and use this blog however you wish, as long as what you create is for you and your characters. (:
This is adorable. I think
Gotta track this... maybe
Song - Ashokan
Song - Ashokan Farewell
You're everything I want to be.
You are kind, loving, generous, honest, genuine, noble, compassionate, and humble.
You make my friends smile when they see your silly antics.
You make me dream of forests and fields I wish to be.
The smile on your face always brightens my day.
Your silly antlers show that you're one to love.
And when needed, you give yourself wholly to help others,
Even when that means you go through pain, suffering, or even death for them.
You have saved my life numerous times, Quad.
You have inspired me, cheered me on, been a shoulder to cry on, been a hug when needed...
You've died for me, and come back without any regrets or sorrow.
What could I ever do to repay you for being one of my most precious treasures?
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I'd like to do something for
I will hopefully use this.
track!
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Song: Nocturne by Secret
Song: Nocturne by Secret Garden
And then there is you, the creature who offers eternal slumber
The representation of my deepest fears and endless temptation
The one who hurts my Quad the most, the one who makes him suffer
The one who has killed him...but...out of love...
I have told myself many lies because of you
I have feared the night and the darkness because of your presence
I have awoken in terror due to your chilling grasp
I have shuddered even contemplating your power
But then I remember many truths about you
You make empty promises, you offer an escape from reality
You tempt Quad and myself with eternal slumber
While you destroy what makes us who we are
There are times I fear you
But tonight
I pity you
Because you strengthen my blackbuck, you give him power and hope
You tear him down only to watch him rise and stand strong
You test him just like you test me
And we always pass our tests
Iugulare, you do have a purpose in my life.
You are the yang to Quad's yin.
You are everything he is not.
And yet...
I need you just as much as I need him.
You came to me during a lower
You came to me during a lower point of my life. I didn't have anyone to relate to, and then I found you.
You were a drawing at first, just a scribble on my homework paper. But you became much more than that.
You and I are not the same person, but we are alike. Like me, you went through turmoil and self-discovery.
To this day you remain lost, as do I. But we are both better now. You and I both wore masks, but we shed them.
You have grown with me throughout the years, and I have not once forgotten you. I never will, no matter what.
Of all of my creations you are the most significant, the most special. You hold a part of my soul, and I yours.
You will always be close to me. You will always be there,
my dearest Kagekaze.
[Thank you so much for doing this... ;; ♥]
Stepping into the kitchen, I
"What is this for...?" he questioned me as he tilted the bottle in his hand, examining its emerald color in the dim light of the kitchen. His blue eyes - that I had grown to love - confused in bewilderment in the shade of his fedora.
I continued to smile as I lifted my bottle up in the air; proposing a toast, "It's my way of saying thanks."
He seemed to shrug as he lifted it to his mouth. Looking down at me as he towered above my head while he drank. I heard a soft sigh of satisfaction from him while he licked the droplets of the laget from his pale lips. Nodding with pleasure at the taste, "Thank you, my dear. That was refreshing, but what are you thanking me for?"
Setting my bottle down, I crossed my arms and leaned back against the counter behind me, gazing up at me. Admiring his alluring features and the intriguing aurora that surrounded him. He had turned out much differently than I had intended - became much more than I could have imagined. At first, he was suppose to be a bitter, brooding man. A lost, shattered soul roaming the streets in such of meaning and purpose behind his ruined life. Hateful and longing for isolation. Broken and spiteful, but as I watched him continue to enjoy the drink...I could see that that was not him. He had taken control of his life away from my hands and made it his own.
The man who stood before me was not a criminal. Not a murder. Not a hateful recluse. No, what I saw before me was a gentleman with sweet intentions. A victim of his past longing for closure, who wanted nothing more than a family - his family - to welcome him with open arms just as he longed to do for them. He was gentle, only choosing violence when necessary and putting the needs of those dearest to him first. Even to the point of his own destruction. Before me stood a lonely man, longing for true companionship and while lost in the world, did not hold an ounce of bitterness towards it. He just lived. Regardless of the pain he suffered or the torment that ate away at his mind.
I closed my eyes as I smiled tenderly at him, stepping closer to wrap my arms around his thin waist. He seemed startled at first, but gentle returned the embrace. I buried my face into the fabric of his vest and shirt; comforted by the clean scent of his cologne that I inhaled. He and I shared quite a lot in common, even if he did not know it. We both lived with memories of the past that continued to haunt us; both slightly insane to an extent and both detached from our families. His fearlessness and struggles to find himself had helped me cope with my personal struggles, and I knew no other way to thank him.
"Thank you, Cypher..." I finally said. My voice muffled by his clothing. "Thank you for teaching me how to move on and live."
I wish you'd get better, I
I wish you'd get better, I really do. I know your sickness will spread within you and devour you one day.
I, as your creator, cannot control that.
I thought you were too weak before, but you're so strong, so brave.
You don't speak much, you never have. I think you're the one dearest, closest to me.
I wish you had time to get to know me.
When I say 'character', you're the first thing to pop up in my mind.
I am so happy this has been
interesting thought... maybe
I'll add something a little
You bring out the worst in
You bring out the worst in me. Go away and leave nothing.
Bumping this. It must be kept
Where to start, KaoKao? You
Where to start, KaoKao?
You brought me to a place where I found others with similar interests, and spurred my creativity again when it was at its lowest. You have family, friends.. so much love, too. And you've paved the way for others to be created , and you share their time as fairly as you can. Because of you, I met amazing people, have amazing friends. I met my best friend because of you.
Love you, little floof.
Your a sappy little thing
Your a sappy little thing Aeis you know that. When I first introduced you to this place. my relationship was spiraling down hill, and the only person that had any sort of confidence in me was six feet under the ground. I had lost who I was. The friendly, happy little thing that you first started as. I admit in the time that we've been here that the choices that i made in the friends that i had. ended up effecting you greatly. and I'm not going to apologize for it. I'm not going to say that i wish it never happened. because in a way i am glad that it did. it almost tore the both of us apart. I about was done with you. but still you and me pulled through all of the bullshit that we had to go through. and look at us now.
You have three kids and someone that loves you. and i have great friends that I'd not trade for the world. You know.. when your all alone your true friends end up appearing in the end. and i'd not have it any other way.
And Kes. you are one that I am sorry for. I'm sorry that your wing is broken. and that your cursed by the previous character to your picto. I'm even more sorry that I ended up making you the way that i did. But you know . you and aeis are the closest to me then all my characters. because in both of you are little pieces of me.
I love you both. and all of my characters so much. Each one of you are a piece of me. and together you all make me whole.
Thank you for helping me become stronger.
♥
I gotta post something once i
I must do something for
♥
Song: Stella Errans from
Song: Stella Errans from Cirque du Soleil's Dralion
Anirapio...the hunter herself...
I've tried to make you out to be some evil creature
But when it comes down to it
You hunt to survive
Some hunters enjoy torturing their prey before the killing blow
You torture them while they are within your belly
Is it too much of an effort to give them a quick death
Before you take all that makes up their being?
Anirapio...there can be much said about you
But one truth still remains
You are a vision of beautiful death in my eyes
Out of all my characters, it
However, I am confused as to why. You are both cruel; to me and your fellow characters. You both have deep running aggression, and the tempers you two own are off the charts and into the heavens. You explode at the smallest things, causing chaos whenever you don't like something. You always get your way, or throw a fit until you do. You're leaders, not followers. You'd rather fight than roll over, and you're absolutely fearless. You two are quite honestly a duo of demons, and the most 'aggressive/evil/offensive' characters I've ever had. Everything you do sparks a reaction, whether it be small or large. You two are very intelligent... but don't think. Ever. Why is it always emotions over thinking with you guys? You're smart enough until you snap. I've had more people tell me they like/love/adore/enjoy you than with any other character, and I wonder why. You weren't really meant to be adored. You're sad, angry creatures who need proper restraint. You have learned so much, but not the right kinds of things. You should be hated, and I know a few people do hate you, but you still have more lovers than haters...
Ugh. You both make my head and my heart hurt and you cause nothing but trouble.
...But you have taught me so much. Not just once or twice, but regularly. Often.
Leviathann; you are materialistic, closed off, easily aggravated, snide, rude and dominant. You don't feel love, or really any emotion, as deeply as others seem to. It's not as... profound. You love, but its at a price. Doing things that benefit you, your friends, and your family... which once again ultimately benefits you. Your heart is always kept at a distance. Thus it makes you cold, able to do things to those you love at great risk of losing them. And you have lost, my love, you have lost. You have lost many to your cold snaps, your attacks, and your rashness.
But you are loyal and strong, even for those that 'hate' you. You will fight for others, no matter the cost. You are a protector, a mother, a fighter. Everything you do is wrong in so many ways, but for all the right reasons. I don't wish to change you anymore, or wish to make you do things out of your character. You're not like the others, and never will be. So why should you conform to fit their needs? That's not like you... That's like me. So, I thank you, Lev. ♥ You've taught me so much; love, loss, and everything in between. You have taught me to forgive all transgressions, as we are all human and everyone makes mistakes. Just because someone claims to hate you doesn't mean they don't deserve to be protected and loved. Everyone deserves that, even if you and I are the cause of utmost unhappiness.
Poudre; you were my very first character, and over time, you have gradually stepped down to let others have their time to shine. You are much like Leviathann, and you have a temper that throws everyone for loops. Repeatedly. All the time, 24/7. Someone could drop a twig in the wrong place and trigger that temper... But you keep it quiet, unlike Lev who bursts at the seams. You keep it closed in, bottled up, in a place nobody can see or reach. You suffer for the grudges you hold onto, and your violent nature causes small lapses in sanity.. and control. But otherwise you are lazy, honest, a joker and a little jaded. You do not feel emotions as profoundly, and most often seem disinterested and aloof. You act cold, but you're only protecting the most valuable thing you have; your heart.
But you have taught me that suffering is a part of life - that it's normal. I have, because of you, learned not to dwell on things that aren't worth the time and effort. You have taught me that laziness does not get anything done, and bottling up what I feel is bad for my health. But you have also taught me some degree of restraint is needed for everything, and letting go is disastrous. For that I thank you. You're my favorite boy, and will likely always be in my heart. Thank you for putting up with this inconsistent child, and coming to me in my time of need. And for teaching me things others couldn't seem to drill into that thick head of mine. ♥
P.S. I promise to work with you more, Po, because neglecting you is like neglecting a part of me; impossible.
Bumping to see if anyone else
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'Course, take your time! Love
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You three have... Thrown me
Kasmir- You are... A big piece of trouble, you know that? I have a huge plot for you, but you grew on me and made friends and grew on everyone else. I don't think I could ever go through with it. But I suppose I will. One day. But for now, I'll let you drag your butt around this place, annoying deer.
Lykai- You... Brought me to someone I became good friends with. I don't know how, but I think you came to both of us and I ended up stealing you xD You almost are like a little brother, slash the fact that you're from a different dimension and like.. IDEFK older than me. I love you to death, but you need to grow some social skills. ;u;
Requeem- I don't know what to say to you. I just couldn't even imagine what I would do without you. I feel like you're part of me. You are, really. I don't think I could EVER get rid of you. Honestly, you're way to amazing to ever let go. Thank you♥ ;~;
Words cannot begin to sum
Words cannot begin to sum what I would say if I could to Pandora.
But... This will suffice, in the least.
Where to even begin, dearest little Pan.
You started as nothing more than an escape, a disguise- a creature who captivated, who ensnared. You were like an attraction, nothing more. Until you began to grow into a true beauty. You defined yourself- I only guided you as you came to realize that you existed, that you were something. Someone.
Your heart beats along with mine, because you have taken into you, those things that make the worst of me. And yet, through those emotions you were able to make friends, family, memories for yourself.
Although you seem to have faded from here- as all do, in time. Forgotten by all, lost to the winds... Know that you were born from a heart who needed a companion, and that you truly fulfilled that desire. You continue to. Though I do not play with you much anymore, Pandora, you are my one and only. I adore you, Panda Pandora. I will never forget you, no matter where life takes me. For we are together, one, for always.
Fawn; Who would have known a
Fawn; Who would have known a character I created on a whim would change my life as you did? I wanted a young, rebellious girl to play on this fantasy rp site, and I decided to give
you the ability to transform into a deer, which also gave you your name, Fawn. You hated being a deer, and not something awesome and dangerous, like a wolf. Your life was still all just fun and
games, until you had to go through some rough times, at the same time I had to deal with my depression. I couldn't play you for a long time after that, because you reminded me of the times
when I was down. But you came back, now more of a grown up from all that had happened to you, as I had managed to get rid of my depression. We both had rough times, and we both pulled through,
perhaps it even made us stronger? And you had learned to appreciate your deer form, just as my interest for them grew. And thanks to you, I found TEF. I'm glad that you have found a place here as
well, after being deleted a couple of times. You have always loved nature, and deserves to be in a place like this.
Illrose; Poor you, still carrying a name I created when I was, what...12-13 years old? xD You were created when rp sites and roleplaying were still new to me. It was a dragon site, and it still bugs me
that I can't remember what that site was called. It was your first home, after all. But I do remember one of your rp's at that site, and I think I even have the person we rp'ed with in my msn list still,
even though we never speak to each other anymore. I didn't play you for several years after that site got shut down, but I never forgot you. Then, on the same fantasy site Fawn was created to, I
decided to give you a try as well, now as an evil destructive dragon, not the gentle beast you used to be. Your development has been an interesting journey, and after a while the holes from when you
were not played were slowly filled, as I created the stories of your origin. You have been close to many breakdowns but I still admire your mental strength, and sometimes I wish I had that strength,
because I'm always afraid I'm going to fall back into depression. Of course I hope and believe I don't, but I'm certain I wouldn't if I had had your strength. Sometimes I love what you have turned into
and sometimes I hate it, but I can't seem to get rid of you, you big, silly brute of a dragon.
Maeve; I didn't add you to this drawing, because you don't have a unique look right now. But I will probably update this drawing when I have your appearance settled - because I don't know what you will
look like yet. xD But right now it seem you are going to be my little 'Nightwish- deer'. Nightwish have been my favorite band for so many years, and I hope and believe it will be for many years to come.
The flower in your development blog and bio is the Amaranth flower from the single Nightwish released in 2007. That was just a coincidence, I figured the flower would look pretty in your blog. But
a more interesting coincidence, is that the same night you were born, did I discover their new single - Storytime - and got to listen to samples from their upcoming album. Not only that, but I even
discovered your name in the lyrics of Storytime. Well, at least the meaning of your name; 'lips that intoxicate', while Maeve means intoxicating. It's like it was meant to be, and not a coincidence after
all. I have a feeling your appearance and traits will be heavily influenced by the music of Nightwish, and I look forward to it.
This is so touching ;;
I love what everyone has done so far <3333
I love how we connect with our characters.
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Me & Pain.
I did this a while ago. I have short hair now.
But I still like this picture.
I hope to do more of these with my other characters soon ♥
It was unknown to her, that
It was unknown to her, that it would help her.
It was unkown to him that it was friendly.
It was unkown to it, what they were.
But it trusted them.
They were it's salvation.
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Song: Gregorian - The Moment
Song: Gregorian - The Moment of Peace
Nekumbra, Nekumbra, you represent my feelings toward myself. You were once beautiful, and then you were turned into a monster, a mutant, a killer...
Oh how much I can relate to you...for I've called myself a monster before.
But remember, Nekumbra...we can fight these petty labels, we can transcend them. We don't have to be monsters, we can become better than them. We can be angels.
Listen, no matter what anyone says, you're beautiful in my eyes. Misguided, but beautiful.
If you ever want to talk...if you ever need a friend...come to me, Nekumbra. I see much more in you than most.
bumping this to keep it alive
I love this. And I am so
And I am so adding my part here later.
This is a wonderful thing.
I would write to Walter, but I fear that I couldn't really put my feelings towards him into words. Nor would I deem it entirely appropriate all things considered. All I will say is that I'm grateful he exists, no matter how much I hate what he's said or done.
Bumping and tracking this for