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April 27, 2012 - 4:15pm — Rutilus

Babbling under the cut.

This is just sort of a heads-up to say that I have no idea what the hell I'm doing with myself right now. I'm not an unhappy person, I have a tendency to remain happy and optimistic, but lately it seems that I've lost interest in all of the things that usually keep me cheerful and entertained. I haven't written anything properly in months, the awful incident in sixxx's life has me worried and on edge, I can't keep new characters, I can't bring myself to stay inforest for long, and I just feel as if my voice doesn't really matter here. I know there are people that read the things I post and I'm aware that some people do give a damn, but it's as if I have no-one to talk to anymore.

Character-wise, I feel as if no-one is interested at all in my characters, and I myself am having issues just keeping some of them. Rutilus is staying forever, of course - but characters like Saxophone and Nirvana are proving more difficult. I think I'll be getting rid of Nirvana, and frankly I've lost the muse to keep writing and playing him, therefore I don't think there'll be any 'goodbyes' or anything like that, cruel as that is. Saxophone is being kept because I just love her as a character and she's the perfect contrast to Rutilus, but the problem there is that she doesn't really matter to anyone. It's difficult for her to make friends, so that doesn't help, but she did have a few sort-of friends and one good friend and now it feels as if she's not really important anymore.

I know that my issue with characters and such is my own fault, because I'm simply not inforest enough, but I mean--it would be nice to have more people take an interest, you know? Join my roleplay blogs, things like that. I don't know - I feel selfish posting things like this, especially since lately all I've done is complain about TEF, but I don't really know what else to do.

The CSS revolution is doing my head in as well because I just do not have the patience to use it, and no-one pays attention to anything I post if I don't. It makes me so goddamn reluctant to write, to update biographies, anything.

I want to introduce a certain new character because of a plot twist in the Phoebus family's lives - not the character I previously had in mind - but in order to do that I have to explain it, and that would involve writing it, and I just...can't.

I'm down.

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April 27, 2012 - 4:46pm — Sessy

I'm giving eternal love

I'm giving eternal love through messenger whenever you need it ♥

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April 28, 2012 - 12:37am — RikkaChan

Oh! Would you add me on MSN?

Oh! Would you add me on MSN? I love talking about TEF and RPing; and I find it much easier to learn about someone if you're not posting in public blogs.
If you're interested, I will gladly give you my e-mail.
You could say I'm the type of person who cares about everyone's feelings.

April 28, 2012 - 1:52am — Terabetha

I know we don't really talk

I know we don't really talk but I'm sorry to read that you're not feeling your usual happy self. I always remember you as that person who cheers others up, drags them back up out of their gloomy mindset and points out the good things that are still there. I hope you still have some good things, that you can remember them and rediscover them.

You might be down now, but you'll get back up.

April 28, 2012 - 1:52am — Kaoori

You're in my thoughts, too.

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April 28, 2012 - 2:08am — Embyr

I'm very sorry to hear that.

I'm very sorry to hear that. I don't know you terribly well, but I have lurked on your posts and have become fond of your characters. lD If you want, you can email me at any time. I'd love to chat about TEF or RP. I'm mortally afraid of posting on the forum, so that's why I've never interacted with your characters here.

fff*dies*

April 28, 2012 - 3:37am — OrinocoFlow

I am brand new to the forest

I am brand new to the forest (Orinoco is only a day old) so I don't know many of the deer here. If you want though you can look me up on AIM my username there is Jen Allen. I would love to chat about the site or even RP. I love to rp!!!

(this goes for anyone else reading this post too!)

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You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis

April 28, 2012 - 3:41am — Lung

I can relate so well. You

I can relate so well. You have no idea.

If you ever need anything, don't be afraid to talk. I'll always listen. (:

April 28, 2012 - 2:26pm — Rutilus

Sessy; oh, darling &hearts;

Sessy; oh, darling ♥
Rikka; sfsdf I agree ;; Thankyou so much sdf ♥ My MSN is if you'd like to add me c: <3
Terabby; Tera <3 Thankyou for that, it helps ♥
Kaoori; sweetpeaches ♥ ;; thankyou, love
Embyr; asdf >u> I've seen you around, wanted to say hello for a while but chickened out 8C Add my MSN, man ;; <3 -point up-
orinoco; sdf I hope you're enjoying the forest so far c: Hello~ I can't add you on AIM, but I'll look out for you regardless~
Lung; The same goes for you, bb ;; ♥ You're sweet.

April 29, 2012 - 12:50am — Embyr

I feel special. 8D Mmmm I

I feel special. 8D
Mmmm I added you on my MSN, 'cause it's easier that way.

April 29, 2012 - 12:52am — Sluggs

tackles

*tackles*

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April 29, 2012 - 8:38am — RikkaChan

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