Thought dumpster of the snake kid

Happenings
8.22.20
I'm well ^^
Applied for the full-time vet assistant position at the shelter at which I currently work. I love my coworkers, and though the drama can be stressful, I don't ever feel ill over it. I'm hopeful. I didn't go back to school this month, but I've considered some online classes in the future.
It'll work out. This is just a lil update to let folks know I'm still alive. Hope you all are okay <3

3.3.20
working at the vet's was a wild wake-up call.
the entire time i was there, my stomach was in knots. all i remember is anxiety. looking at my last entry in here, i'm confused by it. it doesn't seem real. I remember... fear, not being able to keep down food, stress, upset stomach. always wondering if i'm doing the wrong thing.
i don't want to go back to that anxiety.
i didn't go back to school in august.
I found a job at the county animal shelter, the commute is ten minutes long.
i didn't go back to school in january.
I got promoted at the animal shelter, from part-time to full-time. I'm respected by my peers, I help make decisions. I make $11/hour compared to $8/hour. I have a pension plan.

Truthfully, right now I feel pretty good. I bought a desk, I cleaned out the garage. Jen and I pulled a lot of our TEF characters off-site and now we're making our own world for them, a world away from the upset and sadness they were connected to through other characters on here. We're still healing.
But I think we're okay. I turn 21 this year. I think I'm looking forward to it.

6.22.19
Shiiiiiiit bruh I was not having a good day the last time I updated this, huh. You wouldn't believe the 180 degree spin everything took once school ended for the summer back at the beginning of May.
I got a job at the Avian and Exotics vet clinic I've taken my pets to for the past 4 years. The pay isn't great but I'm learning so so so much. The vet is like a 2nd mom to me and she's such an amazing mentor.
I have a problem where I get afraid of wasting her time and money. At my old job, being still was stealing. If you weren't actively working, you weren't doing what you were being paid to do. No customers? Fill the ice machines. Full of ice? Go wash all the windows. Windows clean? Restock. Etc, etc etc. At my new job, if we didn't have any clients and there was nothing for me to do as a vet assistant, I would go and scrub the dirt out of the linoleum or wash the grime off the back windows. And I'd get reprimanded for it. This absolutely blew my mind. You want me to... be still? To sit at the front desk and wait? ...Okay... weird but okay. I did it again yesterday, not being still, and after our talk, the vet hugged me and said "I'm only being hard on you because I want you to do well. You're my girl."
DOCTOR, PLEASE I'M GOING TO HAVE A HEART ATTACK

The first week of the job, I dissociated once I got home. I didn't feel real and I didn't feel like me. I went to my parents and talked to them about it. I was happy. Feeling like I belonged and was where I was supposed to be was so new and alien that I was uncomfortable with the feeling.
I feel good. I bought a shelving unit for the reptile room with my first paycheck. My parents adopted a Jardine's Parrot for me for my birthday. I have a lil girlfriend and we're going to Pride tomorrow. My relationship with my parents is good.
I don't know what I'm going to do about school. Being so distraught and upset because of UT all the time is something I'm terrified of going back to. I've considered going to a local college for their vet tech program, and work as a tech for a few years before vet school. But do I even want to be a vet anymore? Not having time for art has been pretty rough, and I'll have even less time as a vet. It doesn't help that my commute is an hour long.
It's something I'll be thinking about. How are you all?

12.30.18
I'm okay.

12.16.18
depression is back in force, i lost my scholarship, i never got to shadow at the vet school this semester, my car battery is dead, and i have to change my service dog prospect because her temperament isn't working out. all the mantis babies died in a cold snap when our dorm lost power.
i don't know if i'm on the right path and i don't know if choosing veterinary medicine over art was the best choice.
i don't know how we're going to afford my schooling now that i fucked it up.
i care but i don't have the energy to show it.

10.22.18
i really don't care that much i just thought the title would be funny.
tl;dr: i'm alive, i'm tired, i'm getting along with my roommates, and now we have 200 praying mantis babies to take care of. YEET

9.15.18
I've been here for a month now. Taking 19/19 credit hours. But doing well in all the classes so far: Stats, Economics, Wildlife Topics, Forest Entomology, Independent Research in Entomology, Organismal Biology, and Biology Lab. Finishing up my Entomology minor, too, which is p damn awesome. Almost got a job at an emergency vet clinic, but the doc wanted me to have more experience, okay cool :c .
One of my roommates has marijuana in our dorm apartment and brought a second dog into the living space. Okay fren, we don't have that much room, and your dog is fear-aggressive, y u do this. She also thinks the best time to strike up a long conversation is when me and our other roommate are trying to watch a movie. Literally was sitting on the couch with Barbie on the TV, paused for over an hour because she wouldn't stop talking. :CCCCC
Carmilla's training is going okay, I'm kind of on my own with it now because I can't get in contact with our trainer. Don't pay in full ahead of time for shit, guys.
mmmm, that's kinda it. i'm tired, i don't really come in game that often, and i've felt happier not having to worry about tef. :/ hm.
be safe and good, guys

8.15.18
College starts a week from today. We leave Saturday. Until then, I'm packing. We were able to get me a used car my granddad's coworker was selling for cheap as well as a bicycle rack for it. Me and my roommate are pretty jazzed about this, means we can go hiking just about anytime we want to to get away from college stress. Y'know what's not jazzy? THE $300 PARKING PASS. i may just die now tbh. "Sure! Lemme pay $300 to park my vehicle at the school that's $4,800 per semester including all financial aid! That makes sense! AND!

I CAN'T PARK ANYWHERE ON CAMPUS, ONLY CERTAIN PARKING LOTS."
kms
but
on the bright side
went for a walk in the local civil war battlefield today. so many deaths, so much bloodshed; and we've come so far yet not that far at all.

8.7.18
this entry was deleted after 3 days.

7.28.18
But on the bright side, my scholarship appeal was approved yesterday. I can afford college again, woo.
Didn't get the job at the vet's office though, applied at 3 other places and only got one response which was to say they'll keep me in mind in the future >/
But on the bright side, I now have a vehicle. Already had an outing with a gal friend. My instructions from my grandparents, who gifted me the vehicle, are "to stop being such a tightass and act like a teenager for once." what that mean, tho. if u can't handle me at my ass-tightness, u don't deserve me at- y'know, nevermind, that wasn't going anywhere good.
Summer's been pretty busy and hectic, Honeybean can vouch for that x_x even we haven't had much time to talk to each other, and we text.
But on the bright side, I'm going to go vote in the morning. yay democracy i guess o3o'
Andddd changing my major to Wildlife Health and minoring in Entomology. mom's getting pretty tired of the bugs in her freezer tho tbh
anyway i'm going to continue crying while listening to lady gaga and eating my feelings in goldfish crackers wish me luck cheers

6.10.18
Working with my counselor and psychiatrist to put together an appeal for the scholarship. It's a work in progress.
Speaking of work, applied for a job as a vet assistant at a local pet hospital- here goes nothing.
Painted my room lavender. It looks p nice. Organizing everything else. Nineteen years of clutter and mess to be sorted, tossed, donated, and filed. It's a wreck, can barely get to my bed. But it's getting there, if slowly.
Garden is growing. Got roma tomatoes, acorn squash, corn, green bell peppers, cucumbers, garlic, green onions, cilantro, parsley, and carrots. I don't eat any of that but the garlic and other herbs, but mom and the lizards will eat the other stuff. I'm not a healthy eater.
Trying to go zero waste. It's also a slowly but surely process. Made a compost, shopping for things with less packaging, reusable items, etc, etc, etc. So much goddamn plastic everywhere I'm going to lose my mind.
Rereading a series from middle school. The Last Dragon Chronicles. It's got The Fire Within, Icefire, Firestar, The Fire Eternal, Dark Fire, Fire World, The Fire Ascending, and The Dragons of Wayward Crescent. Did I say fire yet? Really good series, cute and fuzzy and apocalyptic with a hint of dragon sculptures coming to life.
mmmmmmmm.... that's it. I'm tired. kinda want to die, kinda just want to not be screamed at over a disagreement. whatcanyadobutsmileandnod
ciao

5.28.18
Just checked my school email and found a message from three days ago. I lost my scholarship of $24,000 because I didn't meet the GPA requirement. I checked my grades and my GPA is 2.9. I need a 3.0.
I'll be calling the scholarship office tomorrow to see what I can do about appealing it. We can't afford tuition if this scholarship is truly lost and I'll have to drop out. I don't particularly want to drop out.

5.18.18
Haven't taken my medicine for almost 3 weeks- a not so smart idea schemed because I was feeling good and wanted to see if what I was feeling was situational. Mom and Dad were understandably a lil ticked off when they realized. And, for the cherry on top, I forgot to ease myself back on and took the full dose, ON AN EMPTY STOMACH JFC, of everything yesterday. 3 hours later I threw up so much stomach acid.
I'm a VERY smart person, I assure you. So smart, so intelligent. Obviously.
jk as time ticks on the more i realize i must have been kicked in the head by a horse as an infant

5.7.18
Finished my last final today- Intro to Entomology. Feel pretty good about it. Packed all my stuff and we made the drive back home today. Carmilla had her first advanced training today at the community park in Sevierville and she did really well. I almost caught a juvenile five-lined skink. Now I'm just kind of sulking- have forgotten to take my medicine the past week and ho boi am I feeling it.

5.2.18
It's my birthday in two days. I'm turning 19 years old.
that's weird.
it wasn't supposed to happen but here i am and it's happening.
when did birthdays stop being exciting?
Carmilla graduated her basic training last weekend. We're starting advanced training next week.
The Night Vale podcast is really good. I have a teeny tiny crush on my roommate.

4.25.18
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEN!

! You are the bomb.com
I am almost done with my first year of college.
It feels weird to type that. Time doesn't seem real.
Time doesn't heal wounds that constantly are constantly picked open. Coming here gouges them open.
Carmilla's training is going really well. I finished all my work for my Medical & Veterinary Entomology class. I think I'm going to end Calculus with a B.
Saw Ferdinand. Great movie, cried like a bitch. Started listening to the Welcome to Night Vale podcast; very eldritch-mystery. My friend from Spain (that I kindasorta loved for like 6 years) said he was coming to tennessee to see me and introduce his mom to me, then a month later said he was going to a different state to visit a girl he think he's in love with. we're not talking anymore. it's weird, not holding any ties anymore to a friend you've known and loved for nearly ten years. it feels like he's dead. i wish him the best, truly, just far away from me, never in my sight or path again.
out of sight out of mind, right. best way to keep the old wounds from opening again.
i'm not having a good night, sorry.

4.4.18
x
bear. o3o i'm the one in green scrubs next to the woman in blue scrubs.
she got hit by a car and was brought in with a non-weight bearing leg and general fatigue. Turns out she has 4 broken ribs, a chipped humerus, and her lung was slightly punctured, leading to air filling the chest cavity. We think she'll be okay, but she's really young and this was p rough on her.

3.21.18
cyda babe here is a tightly-knotted bundle of STRESS!

! SO MUCH TO TURN IN. SO MANY DEADLINES. NOT ENOUGH TIME?!?!? just want to crai
I potentially have a job this summer working for state department of health, hoWEVER, my dad does not want to ride in the truck with me. But cyda, why would your dad ride in the vehicle with you to work??? GOOD QUESTION!!!! because my parents do not trust me to drive into Nashville on my own yet. Why doesn't dad drive you to Nashville then, cyda???? GOOD QUESTION!

because he doesn't want to. :////
so, i have a job opportunity that is 38 hours a week, $15.76 per hour, in a field relative to my intended career........ yet i'm blocked from it.

3.2.18
SICK AGAIN. WILL THIS EVER CEASE. UNLIKELY. UGH.
in other words i've been so dizzy and loopy lately, this song has been on replay in my head constantly for the past like, 8 days.

i can't....... get over it

2.23.18
working with the cattle got me like

2.21.18
YA so we're both showing dairy calves and in order to show, we were required to go to a meeting on how to feed em. Everyone go compliment Cissy, she purty.
now i show off my baby, her barn name is Bessy and her show name is Eloa. *wink wonks at Jen*
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2.14.18
happy valentine's day ya nerds. The power in our dorm went out because construction on the main road busted a water main. To fix it, they shut off the electricity to the west side of campus. :')
also!!! new song!! ^^^^^^ it's a banger, golisten. 'Was ist hier los' by Eisbrecher

2.9.18
these swine are allergic to nuts
that why we had to castrate them B)
they were also allergic to long tails, needle teeth, and very specific triangular portions of their ears.
but damn they were adorable though

1.22.18
I am sick. :I With what, I'm not sure. If it's flu, I'm going to strangle my roommate (esp since I spent 9 hours volunteering around middle and high schoolers Saturday please lord don't let me get them sick too).
I got my bio class switched from Intro to Biology to Skills of Biological Investigation. let's goooooooooo

1.16.18
all of my goldfish suddenly died and i want to die too. i swear to god they were fine, and then two days ago the veins in their tail fins hemorrhaged and their eyes bugged out. today all of them died.

1.14.18
If my JAHB I applied for could get back to me FASTER please ;o; I have a bunch of other things to schedule and I need to know WHEN you'd like me to work those 36 hours in addition to the 20 hours a week I'm in class (that is if I even get the job). Some income would be lovely, especially since Carmilla's training is going to be over $1,000. Plus it's down at the vet hospital in the small animal department, hells yes.
COLLEGE MAKES ME TIRED. I'M SO TIRED. Intro to Entomology, Medical and Veterinary Entomology, Into to Biology (this shit's so middle school ugh why is it required), Calculus (AGAIN), Intro to Teambuilding, and Livestock Care and Management.
Keeping a smile on my face ^^. It'll be alright.

12.30.17
Call me ungrateful, but I am really not looking forward to going back to UTK this upcoming semester. The whole first semester was just blanketed in... melancholy. After every happy moment came a burial of loneliness and sadness. I'm just hoping that, with this new medicine and Carmilla at my side, things will be easier to handle. My GPA is sitting at a 2.8 right now and that's absolutely unacceptable.
Trying to keep this perspective:

12.19.17
Well, gotta change my medicine. Saw my psychiatrist yesterday and we both decided that switching over to a different SSRI might be beneficial, especially with the severe fatigue I've been having the past few months. Interested to see how it goes. Today I had a seven hour bout of pretty intense hyperfocus, so let's hope it's not too frequent. Just about worked myself into a fainting spell.
My goldfish Baila died a couple months ago. The new food we bought got caught in her digestive tract and she just about prolapsed her intestines. She's in the freezer. Don't know what to do with her but I know I don't want to just bury her. I want to preserve her somehow. Maybe articulate her skeleton, I'm not sure.
Carmilla's been doing very well with her training, she's already started to focus on my mood levels which is awesome.
Was elected to the position of Recruiter for the Ask a Scientist organization. Means I'm now an officer in two clubs, cool beanies.
will attempt to make some more art of characters. losing my drive for TEF.

11.25.17
I'm home for Thanksgiving and I've had two days of eating home cooked meals with family. ;o;
Later today, Mom and I are going to the movies to see Coco.
~~please don't send me back to uni and my druggie roommate~~

11.17.17
okay so here's the rundown:
got a service dog, her name's Carmilla (bc why not a literature reference), and she's a year old Mountain Cur
Failing Calculus, will need to retake, yay
possibly going to be lab manager next year
possibly going to have an officer position in the Ask a Scientist organisation
volunteering at the vet school is awesome. I helped x-ray a red tailed hawk
going to the dog park with my awesome new friend tori and her doberman. : D
long story short i'm not dead just busy baaaiiii

10.29.17
Eeeeee a month has gone by and lots of things have happened. Because of the stresses of college life (I say stresses like it's a small thing lol no), I will be getting a service dog next weekend. She's a boxer/lab mix who job is to basically keep me from melting into a puddle of my own overwrought emotions. Life is grand.
But on the plus side, I actually had the muse to paint last night. It's not done yet, going to get a white pen to label all dem lil bones.

i like my skellingtons, man, they make me feel like this gif

9.29.17
Almost October, heading home next weekend for fall break. Despite valiant efforts, I'm still not very comfortable here. We'll see how it goes. Honestly not sure what it would take to bring that security back. I have no evidence of it, but it feels like there's sides forming on this issue.
In uni news: helping my roommate quit smoking, that's difficult af. The man in charge of the reptile lab is intimidating and difficult to talk to as all hell. His lab manager is much more chill I love her, she's like a big sis. still miss dogs a lot. lonely.

9.15.17
That stressful thing has gone away for the most part now. I'm back hopefully :3
I was accepted into the lab! I'm a research student there now. I feed the turtle and all of the snakes as well as help clean everything. I've been tasked with designing a new tank system so we don't lose so many feeder fish to ammonia poisoning because for some reason I'm the only person in there with fish experience SO, there's that. One of the neonatal garter snakes escaped yesterday and we found him curled up in the doorjamb of the lab next to him. Poor thing was so cold, but he's alright now. His name is Ts B. Because... Thamnophis sirtalis is a garter snake, and he's second in the testing group, so B. Ts B. (I'm saying that B stands for BastardBitchBaby because he shits everywhere as soon as he's picked up).
I'm settling into University okay. I was really lonely without a pet, so I brought my fish supplies up on Labour Day and got a betta from the petstore. His name is Wraith because when I bought him, he was all white save for the strip of blue on his caudal fin there. Now he's like... 3/4 blue. Dude, chill, you've lived with me for all of ten days.
Will be working on a Mastitis research project, which means vaccinating cow udders and taking blood samples. Fun beans there. But, bad news bears, we leave at 5 AM every Sunday morning. Yiiikes gonna need good sleep.
Part of the Horsemen's Association, that's fun. I love the dog who's the service animal of the president. He's a psychiatric service dog and we had a good chat about him while loving on him and aaaaa dogs I miss my dogs very much. Wraith is trying to fill the void, he's trying so hard. Trained him to jump out of the water to grab food from my fingers. Very glad his tank has a lid.
My roommate and I are going to start working out which is awesome. With all the pizza I've been eating, biking around this fucking mountainous campus isn't going to be enough lmao.
Calculus test on Monday, gonna kick its ass. Gotta stay positive rofl.

8.27.17
i'm so sleepy ahmg
The interview went really well! I'll know if I've been accepted into the lab by next Monday hopefully. The lab assistant gave me a tour of everything and my duties could be anything from preparing wet specimens to cleaning cages to feeding the neonates.
Also, my neighbour is having a... difficult pregnancy to say the least, the complications are fatal sometimes, she said. If you do prayers, or anything like that, please include her in your thoughts. She doesn't deserve to lose anymore kids.

8.26.17
I received an email a couple days ago about a Reptile Behaviour Research laboratory needing students to join in and help out. Sent them my resume and a cover letter and they want to interview me in person on Sunday. Hell yeah hell yeah.
Don't think I'm going to be able to do the cattle mastitis project bc it's from 5am to noon every day, and I have morning classes at 9, but i might be able to do it on the weekends.
Gonna try and message some folks about a salamander research project about invasive species. That would be A+

8.23.17
Things are going pretty smoothly so far. got signed up for Honours Prehistoric Archaeology so that's exciting. Calculus will be a definite challenge, but I think I'm ready. Currently in the library on the Agricultural Science campus waiting for my Intro to Teambuilding class to start, and working on my calendar while I wait. There's a 3D printer in here. o3o ~~How awful would I be if I printed a giant penis~~ I'll probably just try and print some skeleton scans I found, gonna have to fiddle with them for a bit to make them printable though. PLUS, the deer models from the indiegogo! Wouldn't they be cool just chilling out in a dorm room.
Going to try and get a job somewhere here on the campus for the College of Agricultural Sciences and Natural Resources. Maybe in the vet school? That'd be amazing. I'd rather work here in the CASNR campus than anywhere else around. (I mean, I love pizza, but I don't want to work in another Italian joint if I can help it).

8.22.17
Classes start tomorrow at 9 am. First up is Prehistoric Archaeology. Our classroom is literally in the basement of a natural history museum I'm so jazzed. Already toured the museum, was p cool. Wonder if they can identify the fish fossil I have. After that come Calculus (kill me before it begins, pls), then on the other side of the campus, Introduction to Teambuilding in the Animal Science building. Really glad I brought my bike because the temperature has consistently been around 100 degrees farenheit (like 38 celcius).
Also I dyed my hair purple. Bout fuckin time.

8.18.17
Took like 7 hours to get everything unloaded, unpacked, and put away; but I'm now in my new dorm room, typing from my new bed, in a new city. Classes don't start until the 24th, so at least we have plenty of time to settle in. Gotta say though, it's a big challenging going from a queen bed to a twin bed. Usually I do just about everything on my bed: drawing, eating, playing games, reading, but there's really only enough room to lie prone, haha. Our communal kitchen down the hall doesn't have a stove, just an oven, so all the pots and pans I brought for pasta and stuff are useless atm unless I can gerry-rig a hotplate or something. Everyone on our floor is part of the College of Agricultural Sciences and Natural Resources, so that's awesome. I'm so tired.

8.15.17
This is what happens when you're trying to trigger yourself and you misclick something, children. :^)

8.11.17
Moving into the dormitory at the university on Thursday. I really hope I'm doing the right thing by trusting my parents with my pets.

8.2.17
You know those times where you purposefully trigger yourself because you feel like you're shit and you deserve any crap that may come your way? Yeah.
I gotta stop forgetting my medicine bc this is Too Much.

7.18.17
high-key thinking about making tiny bios for all the side characters that aren't on TEF but i enjoy playing anyway.
i have like
8

7.15.17
Finished my Freshman Orientation to University yesterday. I gotta say it was pretty exhausting hiking up and down the foothills of the Smoky Mountains to get between buildings. I'm majoring in Animal Science with a concentration in Pre-Veterinary Medicine, and (if my adviser can fit it in) I'm minoring in Wildlife and Fishery Science. Luckily my math ACT score was high enough not to take college algebra, so they're moving me right up to the first Calculus. In addition to that, I'm taking Soils and Civilizations, Intro to Animal Science, The Volunteer Connection, Prehistoric Archaeology, First-Year Studies, and Impact of Insects and Plant Diseases on Human Societies. A total of 14 hours, not bad. I think I'm going to enjoy university. And the College of Agricultural Sciences and Natural Resources is separate from the rest of the campus; with its own library, restaurant, study rooms/nap areas, and other cool places. It'll be quiet and warm. My dormitory is right across from the rec center so I can just walk across the street to work out in the pool. Not only that, but a lot of people I know from high school are attending this university as well.
I'm very lucky. I only hope I can make the most out of this opportunity.

7.9.17
Oh my goooddd?

? OH MY GOODDD????!!?!?!?! NETFLIX THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS SHOW?

??? I'M DEAD. i CAN'T HANDLE IT. CAStLEVANIA. ON NETFLIX. WITH GOOD ANIMATION. AND VOICE ACTING.
and 'the queen of the damned' movie. that was p bad. i mean. *sucks air through teeth* ho boy that was not good.

7.8.17
I saw a new Dragonheart movie came out on Netflix, and, being a bit wary from the travesty that was the previous film, watched with caution. And OH MY GOD IT WAS SO GOOD. Being the fourth movie in a series is not an easy task in the slightest but they did it well. The first Dragonheart was amazing and heart-wrenching. The second was cutesy, relying a bit more on humour, and the CGI of the dragon was kind of bad. The third one. Mm. I exited out of that one a quarter of the way through. But this fourth one???? Ooooooh my god. I'm actually crying. It was such a return to form. And while the CGI for the dragon wasn't AMAZING, it's still a lower-than-average budget flick, it wasn't terrible at all. 7/10 would recommend to people who like dragons.

7.5.17
Don't touch me. I'm not affiliated with you.

6.29.17
I barely or not at all receive responses to things I post. Did I do something here in the past to put a sour taste in people's mouths?

6.26.17
Backpacking was tough, but I did it. Saw a beautiful copperhead curled up in a log. He was bright like a brand new penny. Going to start working at the vet's office soon.

6.19.17
I will be gone until Saturday the 24th. I'm going backpacking.

6.4.17
I saw him. Jamie. I first started talking to him eight years ago when I was ten and he was twelve. I remember being so stunned that I was chatting with someone from Spain. I met him in Madrid two days ago. He's my best friend and I'll never forget it.
Picture of us

5.4.17
I truly didn't think I'd make it here. But here I am. Let's keep going.

5.1.17
As with everywhere, this place has had its ups and downs, but I'm glad I found it. Thanks for a cool 5 years, TEF. This is for everyone I've been friends with and has disappeared and for the friends who I've yet to meet. Cheers.

Who I am
.Meredith, Cyda
.Twenty-one years old
.May 4th
.Text roleplayer (Skype preferred)
.Trying to get better.

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Pets
Mikhail(Mikky) - Male. Python regius. 9 years old.
Spyro - Male. Pogona vitticeps. 8 years old.
Roxie - Female. Banded R.A.P.T.O.R., Eublepharis macularius. 6 years old.
Cassie - Female. Boxer, Canis lupus familiaris. 4 years old.
Gunner Pete - Male. Pitbull/Boxer, Canis lupus familiaris. 3 years old.
Carmilla Mae - Female. Mountain Cur, Canis lupus familiaris. 3 years old.
Polly Pocket - Female. Jardine's Parrot, Poicephalus gulielmi. 10 years old.
Ollie - Male. Dachshund, long-hair, Canis lupus familiaris. 1 year old.

Rest well
Lánsè - Male. Blue Oranda, Carassius auratus. 2 years old.
Jiào - Female. Calico Fantail, Carassius auratus. 2 years old.
Báilà - Female. White Oranda, Carassius auratus. 2 years old.
Ruth Bader Finsburg - Female. Gold Oranda, Carassius auratus. Super duper baby.
Reecie - Female. Rat Terrier, Canis lupus familiaris. 13 years old.
Sam - Male. Dachshund, Canis lupus familiaris. 14 years old.

December 7, 2016 - 6:26am — Aivilo

First, Quote:(it really

First,

Quote:

(it really helped when my goldfish tried to swallow a corydora catfish and the catfish got stuck in its throat [those catfish have since been relocated to a different tank])

LMFAO. Instant karma!

Second,
STILL SCREAMING, YAAAAAAY

and,

I saw an elective class that was about equine surgery????

Having stood in on a couple colic surgeries... be ready for a LOT of very literal poop. Like, ankle deep poop. And then some very scary drunk horse antics (you literally have to shimmy up a ladder as soon as they start to get up, or you might be dead. Literally dead.)
Large animal surgeries are.... a whole 'nother beast lol.

—

♥

December 7, 2016 - 6:44am — CydaLuva83

Lmao yes!!! That goldfish

Lmao yes!!! That goldfish never bothered them after that.

and AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH I SHOULD PROBABLY LEARN HOW TO DRIVE, SOON.

I am ready for the POOP! Horse poop smells so much less worse than snake poop, though- it'll be a welcome alternative to smell partially digested grass as opposed to really digested rats.
I watched a vet tube my horse when I was little and my grandparents made me watch from the hay loft because they didn't want me to get squished when he started to come round, the lil' stinker. He has a lot of scarring in his throat because he swallowed brambles from bad hay, so he gets easily choked up on grain. Making mash is fun, though! it's nice to stick your hands in some hot, mushy horse feed during winter.

BUT I AM READY, BRING ME THE POOPY BABIES
just don't make me express anal glands, pls pls pls (if someone brings in a pet skunk i s2g)

Signature By Aihnna, Avatar by YaraMyst

December 7, 2016 - 6:52am — Aivilo

Aww, poor baby. Nasty

Aww, poor baby. Nasty brambles : <

...gurl.
GURL.
What's WRONG wit' chu.
Anal sacs are the best.

w/e you can hand it off to your techs. Usually. If you ask nice.
Auuugh, we had one today that was like dried-up toothpaste. It came out like a little snake.
Gratifying.
I don't think I got it all out though, the buggar kept trying to poop on my finger >/ Hopefully it was enough to re-set the sac and give her a new start at least.

..skunks are different though.
Don't they typically de-scent pet skunks?

December 7, 2016 - 7:14am — CydaLuva83

IVI THAT'S SO GROSS.

IVI THAT'S SO GROSS. IVI.

and idk! We had a skunk come through the Exotic Pet Expo a couple months ago and the lady didn't mention anything about de-scenting the bab. Gorgeous animal, but everyone gave it a wiiiiide berth.

May 2, 2017 - 4:37am — CydaLuva83

this new CSS is fuckin'

this new CSS is fuckin' beautiful. Damn, Shey, you make sleek designs.

May 2, 2017 - 4:47am — Poppyflower

Happy 5th year! Time flies by

Happy 5th year! Time flies by so fast, aha ♥

~Poppy~
Profile picture by ahimsa ♥

Pixel Wis by squeegie~

May 2, 2017 - 5:41am — CydaLuva83

Thanks, Pops!

Thanks, Pops! <3 Does this mean we're oldies now? lol

May 2, 2017 - 5:54am — Aivilo

Has it been that long

Has it been that long ahmg.
Here, you can borrow some wrinkle cream.

June 30, 2017 - 2:53am — Aivilo

No, ilu bunches :

No, ilu bunches : <
I'm just not as active as I used to be

June 30, 2017 - 3:59am — OshiBoo

No, at least i dont think so.

No, at least i dont think so.
Personally im just too shy to say anything most of the time.
i did catch your stream earlier while i was at work, it looked good but didnt have time to say anything before i had to go.

June 30, 2017 - 4:17am — YaraMyst

^ Ya exactly, I have noticed

^ Ya exactly, I have noticed a lot of us here are shy or quiet but there is like this silent encouragement. Try not to let it get to you. You have a lot who care for you and worrying too much what others think can send you down a road that won't make you happy (believe me I know ;u; )

Ily girl!!! and as you can see others do too <3

June 30, 2017 - 4:22am — CydaLuva83

Thank you, sweet loves. I

Thank you, sweet loves.
I guess my paranoia was getting the better of me earlier.

July 2, 2017 - 12:01pm — Wriggles

Heyy there. Givin this a lil

Heyy there. Givin this a lil track, if you'd ever wanna interact with my characters you're welcome to!

July 2, 2017 - 12:05pm — CydaLuva83

Aaaaaaa thank youuu o3o I'll

Aaaaaaa thank youuu o3o I'll be sure to

July 7, 2017 - 7:32am — Jiaruqa

-breathes unnaturally- >u>

September 15, 2017 - 7:28am — Aivilo

Quote:Now he's like... 3/4

Now he's like... 3/4 blue.

lmao! Told you he'd do that : P
Glad things are going well ♥

December 20, 2017 - 5:33am — Kaoori

If you're not comfortable

If you're not comfortable with discussing it I totally understand, but I was wondering what medicine you changed to. I'm constantly fatigued and my psychiatrist and I have changed meds too, and the one that works best for me still makes me super tired.

December 20, 2017 - 8:19pm — keepspeeps

Track! Less than three.

Keeps loves Fay.

December 23, 2017 - 3:27am — CydaLuva83

Eyo Kaoori, it's no issue.

Eyo Kaoori, it's no issue. I'm changing from Lexapro 20mg to Zoloft 75mg. Been on the Lexapro for almost two years now.

May 31, 2018 - 4:59am — Aivilo

Aw, poop. Seriously hoping

Aw, poop. Seriously hoping they'll work with you. Sending good vibes <3

June 11, 2018 - 7:47am — coddiwomple

Loved the Last Fire

Loved the Last Fire Chronicles. I put them down a long time ago though... trying to read the last books but I forgot a lot in the first part...so someday when I'm not...trying to read like ten different series at once. lol Recommend The Age of Fire series. Totally one of my favorite dragon related series.

June 11, 2018 - 8:00am — CydaLuva83

You had my curiosity "...an

You had my curiosity

"...an adrenaline-fueled postapocalyptic blend of military science fiction and Lovecraftian horror..."

now you have my attention

I'll def check and see if the library system around here has the first book. And yeah I was a bit hesitant about rereading the series just because I last read it in 6th grade and was worried about it being dumbed down because it was a 'for kids' series, but it's surprisingly okay. I needed something lighthearted. Sex and violence is great, but often unnecessary for the art of the story in which it may have been shoved. Reading a story where the author is limited in what they can portray is interesting in that you get to see how they work around it.

June 11, 2018 - 6:05pm — coddiwomple

The Endless Forest

.Meredith. (OOC blog) o3o 8.22.20

Thought dumpster of the snake kid

First, Quote:(it really

Lmao yes!!! That goldfish

Aww, poor baby. Nasty

IVI THAT'S SO GROSS.

this new CSS is fuckin'

Happy 5th year! Time flies by

Thanks, Pops!

Has it been that long

No, ilu bunches :

No, at least i dont think so.

^ Ya exactly, I have noticed

Thank you, sweet loves. I

Heyy there. Givin this a lil

Aaaaaaa thank youuu o3o I'll

-breathes unnaturally- >u>

Quote:Now he's like... 3/4

If you're not comfortable

Track! Less than three.

Eyo Kaoori, it's no issue.

Aw, poop. Seriously hoping

Loved the Last Fire

You had my curiosity "...an

Haha, you should be able to

¯\_(?)_/¯ honestly sometimes

I'm glad to see you here.

You got your goldfish

When it rains it pours,

.

I know i’ve told you this

Really glad to hear you're

Missed you lots, Ivi. Hoping

Cyda!! Good to hear you're

&hearts;

Hi Mis and Basen