On My Mind: Depression, and a Proposal!

Shiori's picture


Something is wrong.

My head feels funny, and I am bothered by the most peculiar things. The butterflies bring me no joy as their brightly colored wings fold and stretch before my eyes. I roll in the flowers, to feel something, yet I find my mind wandering, staring up at the tree tops and letting the light sting my eyes as it filters down through the canopy. I find seclusion in the forest of white-barked timber. I search out the old ones, whose trunks have grown thick, and I hide myself within them, strangely content to not be seen.

This isn’t me.

So many apologies I’ve been making lately. So many promises of a better tomorrow. And then tomorrow comes…and I find myself in an even deeper state. I greet my friends, do my best to put gusto into the meeting, but I find my energy is waning, and I’m far more content to stand back and watch the fun unfold around me than to be a part of it. My friends do not understand…I couldn’t possibly expect them to ‘ither, for I myself do not understand what has come over me. They look at me expectantly, as though I am their leader…and I am lost. I haven’t the voice to tell them to go on without me, to pay me no mind. They seem saddened…and I myself cannot ask why.

I do not greet strangers in my usual forthright nature. In fact, I find myself being overwhelmed by others lately. Perhaps that…SS character has made me nervous of others. Just today I found myself panicking amongst a group of overzealous stags. I found myself…angry. Despite running from them, shaking my head and cowering from their spell games, they would not leave me alone. I tried to run away, and yet I was torn, for my friends were among the group. They did not understand my torment. They would not follow, and I feel ashamed for expecting them to. Why should I ruin their fun?

Some strange darkness has fogged my mind, one I cannot seem to shake…

~Darcy

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-cough-…Hello there.
Sorry for the melancholy…ness. I’m a bit out of sorts, and my poor deer is suffering with me it seems v_v

Anyways…I wanted to make a proposal! I think we should come up with a way to communicate with one another. As some of you have seen I added a little action Key to Darcy’s profile last time, and I think it’d be really interesting to see if we could actually make a universal key. I find myself getting confused about what other deer are trying to get across, and my attempts too seem to be met with a of confusion. I know there is already a thread in the Forums that has something to do with this…But those were really just basic “What the emotes mean”, and frankly I think they mean something different to everyone. So…yes, I thought it would be an interesting idea if we could put together something like that…I think itd definitely get us a bit more organized in the forest!

- Shi
Fenqua's picture

That's a good idea! I'm

That's a good idea! I'm already working on it a bit myself. Sometimes I actually use the 'scrape' button to point at something XD Usually they don't get it, but Skokey did last time. I was hiding in a tree for fun and I wanted him to do the same, so I pointed at it and after a few times (and me walking over to the tree) he understood.

But which action key do you actually mean? ^^; The one you added to Darcy's profile, that is..

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Kanaf's picture

the universal symbol for

the universal symbol for "hey, can you give me this?" (at least i think so) is when a deer scrapes the ground and tilts their head. theyre either scraping the ground at a sleeping deer, or a pine tree, or a tree with mushrooms. ive seen other deer do it many times, and everyone seems to get it. ive even done it several times and they seem to understand.

so, i think to make a long story short, scraping the ground means "Hey, can you give me..." or "Hey, look at this!" or even, "Hey, WAKE UP!" XD
Shiori's picture

You're right, a lot of

You're right, a lot of people seem to get the ground pawing...but a lot of people don't, too >< I spent like 10 minutes today trying to get someone to change Darcy's pelt for him...and then the sleeping deer woke up XD He only got what he wanted once Sakura came on, mrphles. Besides, there's a lot of new people coming to the forest who don't know these things! Might be better just to put it in a list...or maybe I'm just a nut for organization XD

The action Key I have on Darcy's profile:
Paws at the ground, turns, and trots off: He wants you to follow him.
Paws at the ground, then tilts head: If a deer is laying down, this means "What you laying around for?", if standing up this means "What do you want to do?" or "take the lead"
Postures, rears, paws at ground, nods head: "Lets play fight!"
Tilts head, sad emote, tilts head again: "What are you sad about?"
Lays down: While he 'can' just be resting, it can also mean his human had to step away from the computer a moment. Please don't get impatient if we don't respond right away ^^

As you can see these are more combinations that get a little more specific. I was thinking maybe we could come up with someone that says 'lets play ___" or something, or maybe a combo of actions that tell other deer to form a line dance -giggle-

BUT we should definately make a new thread for it...I probably should have done that in the first place I guess Sticking out tongue
Verdalas's picture

If you want communication

If you want communication with -any- of my deer, you'll just have to try and figure it out yourself. =P Sorry.
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Shiori's picture

-frowns- ....Oook then.

-frowns- ....Oook then.
Seele's picture

I do actually think the fun

I do actually think the fun is when you're trying to get the other to understand what you mean ^^'... It can be difficult sometimes but it's part of a learning progress.
But ofcourse I guess not everyone is as good as deer-language as the other.. But I think a lot of things are universal allready, the most deer understand what you mean.
But there are also a lot that don't go on the forums, and I think that it doesn't make a lot of difference because those wouldn't know what you'd mean if you'd make some complicated move which had been declared on the forums as.. Something XD..

I had a time in which I felt bad too, and Seele was feeling along. So I get the problem.. Don't worry Darcy, everything will be fine ^^.. As long as you got friends to cheer you up and you let them, it'll be fine.

--Stays a lonely Seele
Shiori's picture

Well...I don't think "Not

Well...I don't think "Not everyone is going to see it" is really a reason not to let other people who will see it in on what you're doing. And again, you say 'most deer', but so far the only ones who have really responded to the 'uniuversal' actions are ones I know on the forums. Most the other deer seem pretty clueless, or they're just ignoring me <_<. Honestly I'm less concerned with strangers knowing what I mean than friends...who seem to question everything I do lately, which can get a bit frustrating. I'm not asking for a 'universal code', that would be silly, because like I said, every deer says things in different ways. What I want is a list of how people use actions to say what they want...according to you.
Reetno's picture

Reetno is still trying to

Reetno is still trying to get to know how to understand everything... he and I have hard times with it and even harder when trying to have him speak... still being a fawn he tends to get all mixed up, but is trying to learn and combine things to get his points across..

like how he says 'Come here' he paws then moo's then paws again and if he gets impatient (like most fawns would) he would rear. well that's if the deer is near him.
Seele's picture

Well I'm sorry if I seemed

Well I'm sorry if I seemed offensive.. I'll stay out of it.. Good luck further on! ^^ You'll find a solution Smiling

--Stays a lonely Seele
Blackhoof's picture

Only real language type of

Only real language type of thing
Blackhoof tries to use is Rear-hop- then turns
and walks away...That pretty much means fallow...

Or he will just rear then start moving...
RadioWave's picture

I like to keep others

I like to keep others guessing. ;D
phantomhelsing's picture

I still have no idea what

I still have no idea what other's are saying. I bet if Atiq had control over his expressions he'd be giving off the stupidest look ever when the other deer try to talk with him XD

I actually usually end up pressing the wrong buttons because I'm an idiot XD

we do need a key, like maybe a little more variety in expressions so that we can use combinations of them to tell each other stuff. Almost like building up a sentence. I know that we definitely need a button to say goodbye to someone. If I need to get out of the forest because real life is bugging me to come back to it, I can't figure out a polite way to leave. I don't want to just run off, but so far all I can do is like,... bow..... and then I trot off so it doesn't look like I'm running away :/

Though the cool thing is, we are almost, like, building this game along with the creators. They take care of all the technical stuff, and we are building the society. Like right now we are trying to create a universal language.

I dunno I just thought that was pretty awesome how the players get to help create the world the game takes place in C:



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Reetno's picture

@Cato: Well I've already

@Cato: Well I've already done up mine so people can understand Reetno in the forest, and others have already started using my idea with this format. Reetno's speech page

I don't mind if everyone has their own way of using the emotes... just as long as there would be a way for me to find out what they are saying to I can respond properly.
phantomhelsing's picture

that is a very awesome

that is a very awesome idea.....maybe when I am not being lazy I should do one X3



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