I promised myself today that I wouldn't cry
But it's an emotion I can't control
I would gladly die
Just to see you alive

2 years to the day
Since you were so cruelly taken away
This day haunts me like no other
I wish to see you
Beside me and my mother
The two people that are near and dearest to my heart
This will never change

I feel your prescence but it still doesn't prevent me from shedding tears
Time has healed little
And coping is all I can try to do

I miss your smile your laughter
I miss you darling big brother.
This human separation is painful to bare
And all I can do is take life minute by minute

Today I can't hold back the memories
The tears they overflow
This anniversarry is planted deep within my soul
For it won't allow me to be strong
I break down
At the memory of the call.

Darling brother I love you
And wish your life hadn't ended is such a way

To the readers of the community I wish to express my sorrow
I'm sorry you must witness the greiving of a survivior
But today it seems I can not be strong,I apologize if you dislike my prescence here in this grieving time.