The Diary of Seed 7-25-08
July 26, 2008 - 6:14pm — Seed
The snow fell like leaves, silent as the wingbeats of equally pale doves. Save for the chill in the air, one could imagine a cascade of white feathers. The lake water was beautiful, a painting done in pale purple and sudden, bright gold, while the rest of the world seemed unchanged.
I stepped out into the snow and found Reina quickly. For a little while, we sat and watched the snow fall over the lake. It was really very peaceful, and we managed to keep eachother warm as our breath froze slightly, whisping like smoke into the air. We set off on what I assumed was a small walk, which was actually starting to feel very nice until I realized she was just taking the long way to find a mushroom tree to help me get my mask back. It was short work, though, so we started dancing. During the dance, one or another of us had to go, though I cannot recall which.
When next I awoke, I ended up with a very nice surprise. Scape was awake! I haven't seen Scape in a very long time. We ran and bounced and moonwalked like idiots for what felt like either a very long short time or a very short long time. When we were finally calm enough to think coherently, we decided to join the danceline that had been set up near the lake.
After the dance-line broke up, we made a shocking realization: Scape had left a clone, sitting in his usual spot! Scape was really freaked out, but I couldn't decide if it was freaky, or just kind of funny how wigged out Scape was. Scape eventually started messing around, sitting on the clone's back and so forth.
When the clone faded, Scape and I had some snacks using the grazing trick Toukan had taught me, as well as some good two-deer mexican waves down by the water. We did some more running, until we ended up playing stump games, followed by some dancing with a few other deer. Apparently even the vigilant Scapecop is willing to dance with SS/RD when she's playing nice..and I really can't stay mad at someone, so that's that.
We ended up running around and attracting a little group, which I guess gave Scape the idea of air-sitting. The nearest hill was small enough that a deer going midway off of it would end up exactly on the antlers of any deer below. This was a good enough excuse for a deer totem-pole, though my bad aim messed me up a bit on the third row.
I fainted a bit during that, but when I came back there was a vacant space beneath Scape, so I decided I would model the new fashion in antlers: "Scape-lers. For all those times you think you need a deer on your head. (Scape-lers may cause dizziness and neck-aches. If Scape-lers start bouncing up and down, please stop using Scape-lers immediately. Do not use Scape-lers if you are pregnant or may become pregnant. Please consult your doctor before using Scape-lers.)"
We started doing jumping-in-place tricks after that...and sometime during this, he pulled the old switcheroo in exchange for Magnet. We ended up wandering toward the big willow tree, only to notice that its roots were exposed! the tree is unbalanced! I felt bad for the poor tree, so I decided to give it a bit of a break and sat down, supporting the tree with my own back. Magnet joined me for a while. And I thought while I sat, mostly about Payton. I'm not sure what I was thinking or feeling, at the time. These were just seeds for what I ended up realizing later. I guess I got a little too lost in thoguht, because for a little while I sort of...lost track of Magnet. While he was sitting right next to me. I guess I got a little dazed. In my panic, I ended up falling in the lake. When Magnet got up, he started helping me with my set. Mid-way through, though, I had to go.
When I came back, the forest was nearly empty. Everything held the fresh silence of snowfall. I ran into a nameless deer and decided I would show him a good time, in hopes that he would choose to be reborn as a named fawn. And while I was showing him magic and the forest, I got to thinking where I left off beneath the willow tree...
I don't think I can honestly call Payton my mate anymore. It's not just that she's been gone so long...it's that there's no joy in me when I think of her. Before, when we were together, I was so happy I thought the world would just explode into flowers like at an abiogenisis. Before, when were apart, I would be sad for missing her, but happy at the thought of seeing her again. "When she returns, what fun we will have!" I would think. And I don't think that anymore. I think that I miss her, I think that she's gone, really gone, and I have lost her. There's no poppy-colored dreaming to this, only the slow and painful sorrow of a stone scraping a hole through my heart. I do not think "when." I barely even think "if"! I still love her, will always still love her, would love her 1000 times more if she ever returned, even for a second...but...but when there stops being any joy in it, any joy at all, when even my memories of her are tinged with sadness... Then I think I need to let go.
I'm sorry.
Yayes Emmy be in your
The Scape-clone freaked him
(Think the clone was there cuz I accidentally minimized the game earlier. But I hadn't started up again right away. In fact, that had happened an hour later. o_o)
Alright, thas it. Scape's gotta drag Seed out for a drink. He's pretty much moved on now, so he needs to support Seed through his troubled time.
...anyone know how to make booze out of blueberries..?
Scape-lers not recommended for anyone.
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