April 13, 2009 - 5:45am — Kanaf
I know I said I wasn't gonna talk anymore here, but seriously... I'm feeling horrible today and nobody's there to help me. It feels like all my deer are hurting in some way, which has turned my whole night upside down. I thought it was Easter... I thought today was supposed to be happy...
Skokey is potentially going to be hurt, but the risk is slim. Avani, I don't blame you for wanting to do what you want to do, and I have no right to stop you, but... well, you got the email...
Vessel and Ketan haven't seen Xylia or Chanse in a long time, ever since I left I haven't seen Sarie at all... I wish I knew where she was.
Fulu... Yeah, Fulu. She's the one with all the problems. I'm just gonna come out and ask, Shi, do you just not like me? I TRY to get Kail to accept Fulu as a mother, but she just keeps pushing her away. Why? Why did you choose to let her hate Fulu and not Zilant? What made Fulu so special? And it's not just Fulu, it was Cerelia too, because she and Tybalt fell inlove, and Kail hated Cerelia for that. It can't be a coincidence that two of my deer are hated by one of yours for separate reasons. I thought we were still friends, and I'm still willing to count you as one of my friends, but seriously, Fulu can't take this anymore, and neither can I. I thought of letting her go away for a while just to see what would happen, but now that I think about it, I don't think it would do anything.
Clock is hurting too, since he hasn't seen Danielle in a while, but... I guess that can be fixed easily...
And Tropa... well you know, she just recently turned mateless... Her heart's broken in two right now.
*facedesk* I seem to be failing at my deer. Good god, people, I'll leave if you want me to. It would save me a lot of pain and anger if I did. I didn't know I would come this far just to fail.
Maybe I'm just hormonal...
While I can't say anything
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The Dragonfly Deer's Biography
Pega's Forest Philosophy: Look for Friends. Let Love find you.
I'm terribly sorry that you
As for the family issues amongst Fulu, Kailani, and Zilant, I don't think that Shi doesn't like you; that seems rather silly to me. She just plays her characters for what they are. I believe that it's important to separate players from their characters, but I also know that it can hurt when your characters hurt.
To avoid going off on a tangent, though, please try to look on the bright side of things. And if there's anything that I can do to help, just let me know. I apologize for not being around much in the form of comments, but I truly hope that you stay.
@Pega: Well... At least I
@Scythe: Well, I wasn't really serious about leaving... It just seems like Fulu can't get a handle on life. She was happy for the brief period before Kail became a teenager, then it just kinda... yeah... She's not the happiest deer of the bunch. The only thing she's really succeeded at was finding true love again.
I've been trying to stay positive and think it'll all be alright in the end, but when I think positive, it usually doesn't last very long. And you don't have to apologize, I know you have a life outside of TEF...
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-Sigh- I’m sorry you feel
I’m sorry you feel bad today, I didn’t know. And I’m sorry your deer are going through that… though I have to admit I do think you guys brought it on yourselves ><‘ I don’t want to start major drama but you’re asking and Im telling.
As for Kail and Fulu…You probably don’t want to hear it and it’s probably selfish of both of it but tonight was a HORRIBLE night for Kail and the last thing she wanted to deal with was mother issues. As much as I wanted to show my appreciation for her being on at all I couldn’t fight the fact that she was totally depressed and angsty >< if I’d let her have her complete way she probably just would have run off at the very sight of her. Not because she’s angry at her just…what she was feeling at the moment. So yeah actually we did try @_@ But come on, Raku, be fair. Kail’s seen Fulu…what, once since she was a fawn? Maybe only 3 times then? And since you wont RP and you wont give me your MSN and neither of us write stories, that’s about the only communication they get >< I do however talk to Scythe on occasion and Zilant comes into the forest often enough...I’m sorry he feels the same way honestly ><
If you want to get into anything more personal then that you can ask me off site but I’d rather not bring anything else here.
Again Im sorry you’re having a hard time of things and I didn’t mean to make your night worse =/
Darcy, Shyla, and Kailani's Updates/Bios
My timing couldn't be worse,
Meh. I feel really sorry for you Raku, and I'll think about it very carefully before making any decisions. x.x
To pray is to believe, to believe is to purify one's soul
To pray is to believe, to believe is to purify one's soul
I know, I saw what Kail did
I guess I'm not failing at all my deer. I guess I'm just failing at Fulu. Which is why I want to let her go on a trip or something while all of Kail's teen problems hopefully clear up. At least a little bit.
It's okay, it was my fault for getting so depressed over this. It was hormones and... well honestly, this isn't the only thing I'm having trouble with, there are some real life problems too. But at least I got your side of the story. That's all I really ever need.
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sad. hope things turn
hope things turn around and you injoy the day.
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Well sadly that’s what
I don’t think the solution to this problem is a vocation >< I mean if you want to pull her out for a while for you, then by all means do it, but it isn’t going to score Fulu any points. Parents are supposed to take a break from their kids till things ‘clear up‘ >_< I actually expected you to maybe at least ask what was wrong in THIS post and…well…-sigh- Guess it cant be forced.
Darcy, Shyla, and Kailani's Updates/Bios
mine are only mellow because
well okay, fine, then what do you want me to do? i dont think either of us like the fact that they dont get along, so what should i do? im trying to figure it out and so far im getting absolutely nowhere. while i didnt know it was a bad time for her to come in at the time, i figure Kails just gonna keep pushing her away no matter how much i try to get Fulu to help. im not seeing any solutions here, care to suggest any? clearly i dont know how to parent.
and what do you mean ask whats wrong? i think you lost me somewhere.
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I don't know what to tell
I MEAN you said you dont know whats wrong with Kail...but you don't ask either. You show no interest what so ever in fact << I don't know what to do with that...
Darcy, Shyla, and Kailani's Updates/Bios
I would love to try to get
Well excuse me for looking into it myself. I knew you would post something about her moodiness so I didn't bother asking. I obviously show interest, I just don't comment. Every time you bump your updates I look to see how Kail is doing. I could say the same to you since I bump my updates for Fulu and you don't say anything either. So don't go saying I don't have an interest because it's not true.
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You don't seem to get it XD
Whatever you're talking to Scythe abiut it? What am I? A headless chicken?
So you know all about what happened between her and Uio? Why she's sad in general? Funny, I haven't told anyone that...As for not commenting on Fulu's, maybe because everytime I read her your dates its some defeated whiney note about how she's given up on her family or something >< Not really much to ask...
-Sigh- Raku you dont really seem to be into this. You keep making excuses instead of putting your effort into trying...I had Kail in all day in the forest today and you put Tropa on instead. Why? She was so desperate and lonely, it would have been the perfect time...but what? You were waiting for me to beg? Because Im ot going to >< I want YOU to want to, you know? And I really jsut don't think that you do...
Darcy, Shyla, and Kailani's Updates/Bios
I talked to Scythe about it
You could have requested me to put her in. You could have put Kailani up to Tropa and ASKED me. I do understand Forest lingo, you know. I'm not supposed to just magically KNOW when Kailani needs Fulu the most. Next time you think having Fulu in would be good, ASK ME.
Well, aren't I stupid for giving my deer a personality? It's what I would have felt if I were in that situation. Silly me, I think I'll just magically make her happy.
This is going nowhere. I'll put Fulu in more often, in fact, I won't change the account to anyone else unless I have to. There, happy? Now she can be on 24/7 and maybe, just maybe, I won't seem like such a horrible person to you.
I just don't think one deer can like another when one person doesn't like the other.
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...-__- Sorry im asking her
Sorry im asking her to parent her child. I guess it wa sout of line to me. Forget it though, ok? I dont want her to be a mom against her will or anything. Don't waste your time.
Darcy, Shyla, and Kailani's Updates/Bios
haha. your funny. I'm doing
I'm doing what you wanted. No buts about it. Now you have proof that I'm willing to fix this, now all you need to do is throw Kailani in. That so hard? I don't think so.
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