September 2, 2010 - 9:23pm — entumente
So... My girlfriend that I've been going out for, for about 3 months, broke up with me on the 27th, which so happened to be the day before our anniversary. At the ending of school I was waiting outside, and she was holding hands with some girl that she later on told me that she liked.... She walked away with her as if I didn't even matter.. My friend, that used to be a good friend of hers started to really hate the people she's been hanging around, and now she hates her, and they both hate each other now, well, anyway, she told me, when we were still going out that she thought some guy got a lot more cuter than he had been, which happens to be someone that I knew a VERY long time ago.
She had invited me to be her Chambelon for her Quinceneara (Quinceneara is the coming of age party for a hispanic teenager, and a Chambelon is the dance partner for the girl)
Apparently she had been going into a relationship too fast... But that was a lie... She already has a HUGE crush on someone else besides that girl, she wants to go out with either of them so quickly.... And she's running into a bad crowd, and I don't want her to ruin her life... She's already ruined mine, and I feel almost emotionless... I've actually thought of suicide multiple times... But my friends are keeping me up... And I can't think of that anymore..
The girl she was holding hands had been spreading rumors about me, and apparently I'm a lowlife-horrible person now. And this guy that she likes does drugs every day all day, and I'm afraid she might run into that too... I couldn't go through with being her Chambelon anymore, knowing that she's easily moved on.. And how badly she's hurt me... And how beautiful she'd look in that dress... I couldn't...
Once I told her, she blocked me away from everything.. And now I feel like a horrible person... She's hurt me so much... But... I hope she realized how bad she might get into until it's too late... I don't want her fucking up her life....
I don't deserve half the shit I get almost everyday of my life, and nothing EVER turns out for me... But I'm used to it.. And I could care less.. I'd rather someone else have a better life than the life that I have.
Oh Entumente, reading that
You need to live your life now, and let her live hers.
I hope things start turning out better for you real soon, and if you need to vent, The Community is here to listen.
I couldn't have said it
Never think of taking your life because of someone else's actions. No one is ever worth that much...
Let time run its course. It might be slow to get over this sort of thing, but you will. I promise.
And like Tera said, TEFc will always be here to listen... <3
Thank you guys, honestly.
I second the comments
don't give up -hugs-
Thank you, Vivi.
Don't ever let someone have
Please my brother took his life and he is missed dearly.Don't let a person make you feel that way.There will always be someone who loves you.
While I've never been in a
Whenever you have those thoughts, go talk to someone. It's much better to get it out rather than bottle it up. It can be anyone, just tell someone how you feel. You have your whole life ahead of you, and I feel like you're too young to be stressing over romance right now.
As far as your situation with this person, I don't have any advice but if all else tell her how you feel, maybe it's some dumb misunderstanding. But I feel like it's nothing to get worked up over - let things cool down and then take it from there.
*nuzzles* we're here to listen too. This community is very caring and understanding, and I know personally that you can come here to vent whenever you need to.
Thanks Quad. It's good to
I also agree with what's been
I can't tell you how happy I am again now, considering how unhappy I was then, but Im sure the same will happen for you. I really hope that you will be ok.
Thanks, Zeekii, I've been