A rather indecisive and lazy person. Knows she is an outsider and knows how she can get out of it, but decides that it is too much of an effort to actually do anything about it. The most remarkable thing about her is her paranoia and mistrust to the point of believing that everything is a conspiracy against her, and due to being an outcast for so long, she often tends to believe that people make fun of her or see her as a joke.
She is often selfish, a liar and somewhat cynical. Her selfishness comes in the form of taking care of her own physical or mental well-being. The reason why she tends to lie is due to her inability to face her problems, she is a coward who decides to lie to escape conflicts, which only ends up making the situation more problematic and making her feel worse. Her psychological traumas can make her delirious at times, to the point that she hallucinates believing that everyone is against her. She fears the exterior and people, since it is difficult for her to communicate correctly and ends up wrapped in embarrassing situations, all this due to trauma and paranoia. However, she is trying to work on her self-confidence. However, her fear of reality and the outside is persistent, reaching the point of feeling that the world is a cruel place. Has developed an inferiority complex and loneliness in the world, which she almost committed suicide over at one point. That is why she has an escapist side and prefers to immerse herself in gardening, sewing and knitting.
Despite her worries and struggles, she is a rather friendly and kind individual. Thoughtful, even. More often than not she is thinking about others and wishing them the best. Deep down, she is caring and loving and wants to be genuinely cared for and loved in return. Longs for deep, rooted, connections that isn’t affected by time or space. Nowadays, her emotional and mental state has definitely gotten a lot better with the few friends and family she has made along the way. With age and experience and help she has grown as a person and wants nothing more than to enjoy the little things in life.