Warning for language, tired uni rants and sudden hiatuses. Hiati?
Lyrics @ Breezeblocks - Alt-J

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Updates:

19.10.2018.

yeehaw




-tef muse is trickling in mostly in ten-word plot bunnies for all my chars at once so yeP listing here so i don't forget

- Anghar will be getting a friend to share a bio and tumblr with :eyes: nyooming around my headworld atm on Adventures and Bad Life Choices with Chal
- Nanna needs her own bio finally even though she never walked the woods yet. strong mom stressed mom huge ball of furrr
- both need their own pictos now that i think about it
- Doves is losing physicality and getting so very close to becoming a ghost - interesting updates await in the next thrilling episode B)
- Vega's being her own pissy annoying self and tormenting her flight instructor for the license. soon she'll be airborne and lord help you all
- Cat's living mostly in his backstory being a decadent ass soothed somewhat by feels. for a slut he sure loves his wife a lot
- Val my song my sun the peachy joy of my life, check with chi & co if plant energy can reverse polarities and be pumped in? at the expense of his own energy?? to the point of bLAZIN'??


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The Squad:

Looks-for-Doves - Tumblr - Toyhou.se - first and dearest child, gently loved
Honeybird, Snowborne, Ivory Talisman
exploration of innocence, doomed naivete, pessimism and hopefulness in one small package. Sweet Honeybird, full of love and always looking for someone to bestow it upon. Frumpy purity of the ignorant paired with the sporadic, reckless bravery of the truly inquisitive. Small wisdoms of the gentle, cautious hope for the best while harbouring fear for her life, forever aware of her mortality and the thinness of her skin. Madness from insecurity, being late to discover that agency is an option; the pendulum of identity swinging from what should be and what is. Devotedness and rites of trance, vision, self-sacrifice; unshakeable faith of the peaceful zealot whom the angels actually address. Inhabited by small magics she cannot direct, vessel and conduit for the divine she herself cannot access. Soft uselesness of trinkets and memorabilia, personality used to being put to the side, kindness without release showered on anyone and anything in compensation. Lethal loneliness.

Mr.Cat/de Ilda - Tumblr - Toyhou.se - sass and arrogance, vent and adoration
Darkwater Mirror, Clawed Narcissus, Scintilant Eye
conduit for my academic self-administered pressures, study of vanity and the struggle of indulgence and moral codes. Chaser of absolutes, of the high of overachieving, of the knowledge he's done the best. Hoards resources for later but just because the path to triumph is indirect it doesn't mean it's any less ruthless. Opportunist hedonist, prefers to indulge but capable of dropping it all in the thrall of a project. Rules of honour manufactured in the lack of natural ones, putting faith in one's own capabilities and little else. Doing the hard thing out of hubris if not duty, principle or spite, prone to dashing himself against a challenge until one or the other breaks. Justified self-absorption, knowing and fiercely defending one's worth yet always fearing it will be proved a lie. Committed to himself, fickle with affection but once it happens it is absolute... until it isn't. Gentleman impostor, face for every occasion, lazy to reveal himself and finds that lying requires less effort. Hypocrisy, willingness to criticise yet violently opposed to being criticised himself. Unhealthy perfectionist, obsessive and addictive personality. Craves adoration and perfection.

Vega - Tumblr - Toyhou.se - bad day girl, conduit for restlessness
Hollow Moon, Brittle Star, Spotted Lion
anger, forcedly contained spite, fierceness and loyalty in a world bent on taking everything away. A firm fist in the eye of expectations, seeks to be her own architect even when in need of guidance. Fundamentally craving stability, but fears it at the same time - whatever you achieve can be taken away, and if you stay in the same spot for too long you become a visible target. Craves closeness but pushes away too with reckless actions, unspeakably terrified by the unknowable future. Endandering oneself just to see what happens, to prove a point. Ascetic with her connections, self-sufficiency brought to an extreme, stalwart in the face of everyday suffering. Self as an infliction on others. Hatred of surprises delivered by others, quick and agressive response to provocation. Rage, rage against the dying of light.

Valentin - Tumblr - Toyhou.se - unformed boy, a warm contradiction
Sugarbones, Rosytoes, Sunchaser, Aureate
still-forming sapling, one of a pack, peach-soft with a sharp pit. Protector, loudmouth, preener and loyalist. Loves quickly and passionately, doesn't care much for sense if he feels something is right. Why not rather than why, easier to ask for forgiveness than permission. Stubborn but mellow, doesn't want to hurt but cannot bear to hide who he is. Sensitive of his own freedom, yet would throw himself in danger for his family. A brother first, himself second.


Chalice - representation/OOC - normally a dark-haired, white-pelted, golden-hooved doe in a red cloak, currently pale cow with curved horns, sometimes barred owl, design and art by Awentia
Runaway Dream, Harpy, Ambassador, Diplomat
idealization, imagination, what could be if only it could be slowly poisoned by reality. Shapeshifter in an imaginary world where myths and legends are everyday, native inhabitant of my inner desert. Keeper of plots, though not a catalyst. Infinitely adaptable and physically changeable, devoted to actual resolution of problems. Trader of trinkets and stories, affectionate, patient, drily humorous. Calm observer of the extraordinary playground, ease of confidence and knowing where you belong. Safe haven, comfort, beginnings of a home.