I JUST WANTED TO SAY- because i just got told at least one person can't message me
IF!! you can't message me, i haven't blocked you or something. i have nobody blocked.
discord is weird and does that sometimes..
so jsyk :3 if you need me for w/e but can't get in contact.. maybe unfriend and then send a
request again?! idk if that'll work tho..
:3 hmu.. on.. deviantart? aSK A fRIEND TO POKE ME MAYBE
in general just know i haven't removed/blocked you or something
ok bye again
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-HI, Hey, hello-
HELLO I'm a Qanat!
'Quanat' if you'd like me to cry. Also known as Kå if we're friendly like. Also known as Ka.ngaskhan less formally because I'm a Pokenerd.
- I am up for RP always! If I'm not I will politely tell u DWDW
- No I'm not great at talking. :{ I try but it's a struggle. FEEL FREE TO SHOOT THE SHIT WITH ME THOUGH just bless my soul if i can't keep up
- I am willing to work out plots!!1 You can ask me to use my characters in plots, for plot purposes, for development purposes. u want a thing u ask me bby i gotchu. if not then i say no, no harm no foul s'all good
- You don't need to be shy with me but i'm shy too dw. but i'm impervious to awkward silences so if you ever wanna reach out and then run out of things to say, know that i've forgotten about the random stop in conversation the second it happened AHUE
- pLEASE IF YOU HAVE ANY ISSUES PLEASE CONTACT ME SHEIT PLEASE
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i've been on TEF too long and it got me shook so now i just explain my M.O, here's my business card let's avoid all potential trouble. when you spend more than a 2-3 year on this place you wind up needing therapy. but i like it here s'k
(help me i can't escape)
Discord: Qanat.4847
-The Babes-
Lats'vel!
Probably the closest to my heart despite not being regular in the forest anymore. Still keeps my RP life busy as all hELL tho. u^u Forever much love and the character that brought me to know my good buds today.
Tysm pig bud
Indigo.
Wow! What an asshole this birb is :/
Severely emotionally disturbed and born with a myriad of unspecified and atypical mental health issues but in general also chooses to be a hell of an asshole.
Can't blame mommy for everything!
He's got good point too...
s2g
Ezekiel!
My singular not 100% super douchebag character!
God fearing, super depressed, closeted and always wants to die wow! Interesting traits, buddy!
bUT WAIT THERE'RE MORE!! SO MANY MORE. JESUS CHRIST THERE'S SO MANY
these were my first three mains tho
i just need to get some shit done first...
-Today I laughed because..-
-I'm in other places too!-
A deviantart: Qanat ofc!
Oddly enough I don't rly put uhm... what's it- TEF art on there. I mostly put my personal art! If you like rats half as much as I do then you might kind of like my gallery possibly. Maybe :/
i'm not trying to start a 'WOW DUDE SAAAME' chain here or anything, just gotta verbalize some shit
so don't feel obligated to voice support or agreement!
the flux of people leaving has brought some thoughts up
and i'm not calling AAANYONE out- i've said a lot that i don't have an issue with anyone- i'd love to
interact with everyone. i'm not on any sides of w/e goes on and everyone has their own reasons to
be uncomfortable with this or that or him or her or w/e
i'm on no sides or anything on any.. current.. dramas going on
JUST IDK.
I'M A LIL LOST here. more than a lil lost
at this point i've considered like, just asking people to message me on discord for confirmation they
are legit comfortable with interacting OR IDK
WHICH IS SAD BUT ALKSNDLKNDS
I'M SO OUTTA IDEAS SIGH
ALL I CAN SAY IS JUST. if you think my IC, in forest characters' behaviors are a reflection of my own
feelings and shit, please just avoid my characters. If how my characters treat yours affects your
feelings towards me, please avoid my characters. IN FACT if you think other people's characters
are acting OOC without some damn obvious, person to person confirmed evidence, we shouldn't
interact.
I can only say so many times 'I swear it's all IC' and if people don't believe me, I clearly can't
change that! And if people don't believe others, they probably don't believe me either. AND THAT WORKS
BOTH WAYS. So if you're paranoid or worried, bring it up but it's probably best to avoid interacting
altogether because i think i've said i'm not here to be ooc like 4000 times now
at this point in my life i can't deal with that sorta stuff anymore- it's way outside of my scope of
interest or capability to deal with.
this is a game. it's a game. my characters thoughts are their own. it's on every disclaimer on this site
NOT SURE THAT IT MEANS MUCH
i really do hate bringing up my personal life but so i can just completely explain why i'm tired as fuck.
+ explain why i don't have time or will to scheme and make people sad through my pixels' behavior!
these last few years have been full of burying family members and watching others come in and out
of the hospital with terminal illnesses/conditions. fuck if i'm going to let myself be grieved over some
pixeldeer shit anymore, my chubby black ass is way past that. i am dddone as fuck with this chicanery
NO HARD FEELINGS BUT IF IC ISN'T SOMETHING YOU CAN TAKE AS IC I RRRRLY CAN'T DEAL
3: i'm sorry, it's just. i'm not mentally/emotionally capable of this shit anymore it's getting insane how
often this is constantly coming up with me, with others, with p much everyone here
you can't take ic as ic there's nothing more to it and i don't think after all this time i can keep up
trying to convince people anymore- i'm washing my hands of that responsibility. believe it or don't!
avoid discomforts! if that discomfort is me, avoid me, IT'S ALL GOOD
too much real shit happening to deal with this pretend-deer-becoming-real-life-OOC-in-person-issues
YOU WANNA ICLY INTERACT, GOOD SHIT. you wanna oocly interact, good shit, i like talking, even if
i'm not good at it. and i prOBABLY LIKE YOU.
you wanna confuse the two i am long gone into the sunset
i wanna do my typical 'if you have a problem feel free to contact me' but at this point i'm wondering
why the hell there's a problem in the first place when we're playing an outdated game about talking
deer in a magic forest
IDK
it's been a bad month. tolerance for internet stuff is at a low. this isn't tearing me apart- i just refuse
to deal with it anymore. got other shit to put energy towards. 3: i give up on attempting to cater if
people aren't going to just, y'know. BUZZWORD- COMMUNICATE. or believe any answers i give
i'm not about to just up and leave but i ccccan't put any importance on trivial shit anymore
i know i probably sound like a major asshole here and i'm sorry! I really don't wanna come off as
insensitive about people's feelings about their OCs, and about this game. it's important to many- me too!
but fuck man since when did this place put goddamn in-forest, pretend bullshit in higher priority than
real life person to person respect and communication
rass fuckin hell
SO AS A FINAL NOTE
i have no issues with anyone.
I'M HERE TO PLAY. here to rp. here to have fun.
aaaAAAND that's all i'm going to do
you do you!
Thanks for the post. I used to have awkward feelings about it myself, but they all live in my head, and I don't RP/get many interactions anymore. So there's nothing wrong with my characters all knowing one another and seeking guidance or companionship from each other. If anyone wants to think ill of me for it, I really don't care.
Also, I agree with this. I avoid doing it too much while I'm in the forest because while a large number of my characters know each other, they can fight with each other, or lord forbid I need to have them both doing something in game at the same time. I saved Ku with Elliot plus I used to ship them in my head. The only thing I'm ever worried about is someone saying that my characters are ganging up on someone or something like that. But I do enjoy having my characters interact with each other, I've even played multiple characters in an RP. I honestly enjoy it.
A KA ♥
I absolutely agree with what you're saying too - as someone who plays five related siblings for example, I've done a fair amount of interaction between them during RPs and in-forest and have definitely stopped feeling reluctant/too weird about it. Hopefully those who do feel unsure will be able to shake that 'awkwardness' about having their own characters interact with one another as well! ♥
And if you guys think about it (especially in-forest), if your character passes by and happens to see another of your characters along the way, they don't see who plays who - so would they think your other character looks interesting, or lonely? If that second character belonged to another player, would your first keep them company? I honestly don't do this a lot myself (especially if my first character has a specific destination/individual they're traveling to) but I've done it before (B IDK, SOMETHING FUN TO THINK ABOUT I GUESS
lunafreya: that makes a lot of sense 3; The less time you have to interact, the harder it is. Storywriting comes in handy a bunch there. nobody should think badly of you for that- idk how highly someone would have to think of themselves to judge someone for that 3; BUT people feel embarrassed for it regardless
Acurna: THAT'S A REALLY GOOD POINT ACTUALLY YEAH. it's always difficult in the cases where one character would defend the other physically. USUALLY I JUST.. avoid doing that. or i'm careful about it
LIKE FOR EXAMPLE if character A) of mine went and beat on someone for fun then got beat to hell, but his friend is character B) of mine and then goes and kicks the ass of whoever beat my character A) up that's sort of reaching a weird.. level.
ON THE OTHER HAND, if character A) was beaten up and small/unable to defend themselves/ect and hadn't antagonized anyone into that kind of behavior, i think it'd be fair game/not a powerplay to allow character B) to come to their defense
I THINK IT'S MORE ABOUT BEING FAIR IN THAT CASE?
i keep most of the connections between my characters out of forest for that reason, otherwise most of mine within the forest just actively dislike each other or aren't into getting into anyone's business to solve that problem ALSDKNLDA
Apparanza: YEEEEEAH YOU'RE THE MASTER OF CHARACTER RELATIONS SCREAMS. i love it. zeke, ichor, rose and pIG are all related but i don't get to have as much fun with it because only pig knows sigh >u>. Aand you make a solid point 3: usually there's no reason for your character to ignore your others. WHEN I DO IT ON PURPOSE tbh it's just about my personal convenience. i hate making my characters greet each other in tef. tabbin.. bad. painful. hurts me brain
dude, I think you come across as being super well spoken, in everything -character-wise or not- that I've ever seen.
just felt like saying that because please don't feel you're coming across badly because you're hella good at the word thing.
ALSO YES.. I get scared a lot that some people aren't appreciating how I play my characters -and getting offended ect.- but then just can't be sure because what is communication aaaaaa
TYSM for being understanding guys 3;
AND TY RIDDLED FOR REASSURING ME SIGH
BUT YEAH SO LIKE IF ANYONE HAS ANY.. ANY ISSUE. if anyone is worried about how i feel about them or think i feel.. w/e.. or assume w/e. shortest open letter ever but pls
bls
hepl me. bless me i amjustalilbbybuoy
pLS FEEL FREE TO REACH OUT IF IT'S A CARE
ty niri, she has 3 talent
1) doublechin
2) dumb flexible wonky ankles and not so many teeth left from bad genetics
3) coff rly loud sometime because allergies
Damn, that sentence structure needs some work. jk jk
Glad I'm not the only one feeling this way, honestly. And frankly you're a breath of fresh air, with your energy and chill. <3 Your dog is adorable by the way.
Aw that's too bad you haven't been feeling well around the community. I think it's something fairly common... feels like there are some dark energies hanging over this game sometimes. Causing a lot of anxiety and doubt. I have felt that too in the past. (To the point I made a clean break and returned 5 years later with a fresh slate)
I think taking a break is a good thing and the best decision to make! I hope you feel better and can let go the bad stuff C:
KIMI I WISH I KNEW. all i want for christmas is more dedotated wam for the sewvow .....
the lack of progress doesn't make me as nervous as the lack of communication sigh. 3:
ASLKDN IVI. her many chin have many issue. even when it only one chin, it a too short chin. she look like mr burns
NEB, i turned to look at her fondly right after reading that message and she instantly upchucked on my bed i s2fg. obv compliments make her very bashful
SAD TO HEAR YOU FEEL THE SAME WAY THOUGH. 3: i hope things ease up for you. AND I'M GLAD TO HEAR YOU THINK I'M FUN TO HAVE AROUND CRIES
OH NO LILSWAN YOU NINJA'D ME 1 SEC
ok here we go-
IT'S SO COMPLICATED. Because i've always been able to have fun even if it's just with my close buddies, screwing around ingame! i've had times where stuff sapped the fun of the game for me, but for a long while now i'm able to feel comfortable most of the time, as long as things are smooth oocly WHICH THEY MOST OFTEN ARE. BUT THEN LIKE at this point it's more it's sad to see a lot of other people are sort of brought down by the energy? 3: it's hard for me to have fun while feelin many other people are bummed out or uncomfortable or unhappy. WHICH IS SILLY OF ME, because it's like not being able to go outside because it's raining in another town smh. bUT SIGH IDK s'tough to have a blast in tense environments and i realized like a month too late that if i'm not having MAX FUN i don't need to.. put my characters in every day.. CRIES. hence my need for a break i guess >u>
qanat gtfo's until logic returns to brain
I hear you. It's all about following what feels good to you. And that's a moment to moment thing. C:
That can still change and maybe you will find your way back to the game at some point. Or not.
I think what we need to remember -and which you're helpfully reminding us- is that there is no obligation to keep playing.. which I sometimes feel a pressure to do and that also can take away the fun. Things come and go and it's all good. All good all good! <3
I'VE DEFINITELY felt a major obligation to keep my characters regular over the years! i was always afraid they'd fall out of the loop and be forgotten or something SIGH
BUT.. that's been gone for a good long while with a lot of reassurance from my buds and just learning to C H I L L. but then other stuff got sorta blecch, and i remembered that i don't have any obligation to power through any less-than-positive-feelings and keep playing. tHAT'S FOR IRL SHITE. idkwhyiforgetthesethings
BUT OH NO I'LL DEF BE BACK SOON. probably just do other things while i work on some art for a character or two and then kick a mini plot into gear >u>
glad that you're taking a break if it's affecting you tbh...i understand that feeling. there's some weird auras floating around the community from time to time and it definitely can be a feeling of being bogged down when you see it affecting others.
it really is about doing what makes you feel comfortable and happy. when you're not feeling it, nobody is going to think any less of you for taking a breather. especially cause like...idk the whole point of game communities like this is to enjoy yourself right? however you achieve it.
wENDI- IT'S NOT SO BAD TBH, IT'S RLYRLY NOT AT ALL, i just think a lil break will refresh me. come back swingin with some art and dank rp posts and stuff IDK ALKDNSLKAS
but yOU MAKE A GOOD POINT, nobody should feel bad about taking a break, definitely! it bidyagame..
huge huge respect for you for speaking out and up for yourself as opposed to swallowing it all in silence. not only because of your own obvious hurt, but also how downright atrocious, offensive, and heartbreaking such a claim about another person is - there are real victims of abuse on this very website. for what any of these people know, you - like anyone else - could be one of them. i love you for the courage you've just shown in taking a stand because so many, understandably, would lack that. it's an incredibly daunting thing to do in this place.
it's really sad to hear about the such things and people who turn this tiny and cozy place into something commonly rough, but they'll get what they spread back in triple size, sooner or later
hope you'll safely get out of this shitty situation ]:
I know nothing about this situation aside what you've written here, but I find it hilarious that anyone would target only one person from TEFc of having a 'rape fetish' or whatever. Most people on TEF have characters who have experienced very dark and taboo things, myself included. It's harder to shape a character who hasn't had negative life experiences. Props to those who can, but it's not everyone's cup of tea. If they're gonna call you out for having a fetish for suffering or rape or abuse then they might as well call out the entire roleplaying community name by name.
Ugh. Peoples like that are just so ridiculous and such an idiots.
Respect for you Ka for writing this up. I can't understand why they just yell in other forums shit about you even so it's not true what they say. It doesn't mean if your characters have such an like rapist things goin on that you have the damn rapist fetish too, wtf.
I'm sorry you have to go through with this Ka, just wishing you the best and those peoples who do this to you and think this shit about you, burn in hell. You don't deserve this shit.
Sorry for any grammas, mistakes or if this sound weird. Eng is not my native language :t
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Also, I agree with this. I avoid doing it too much while I'm in the forest because while a large number of my characters know each other, they can fight with each other, or lord forbid I need to have them both doing something in game at the same time. I saved Ku with Elliot
plus I used to ship them in my head. The only thing I'm ever worried about is someone saying that my characters are ganging up on someone or something like that. But I do enjoy having my characters interact with each other, I've even played multiple characters in an RP. I honestly enjoy it.I agree what you are saying
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A KA ♥ I absolutely
I absolutely agree with what you're saying too - as someone who plays five related siblings for example, I've done a fair amount of interaction between them during RPs and in-forest and have definitely stopped feeling reluctant/too weird about it. Hopefully those who do feel unsure will be able to shake that 'awkwardness' about having their own characters interact with one another as well! ♥
And if you guys think about it (especially in-forest), if your character passes by and happens to see another of your characters along the way, they don't see who plays who - so would they think your other character looks interesting, or lonely? If that second character belonged to another player, would your first keep them company? I honestly don't do this a lot myself (especially if my first character has a specific destination/individual they're traveling to) but I've done it before (B IDK, SOMETHING FUN TO THINK ABOUT I GUESS
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lunafreya: that makes a lot of sense 3; The less time you have to interact, the harder it is. Storywriting comes in handy a bunch there. nobody should think badly of you for that- idk how highly someone would have to think of themselves to judge someone for that 3; BUT people feel embarrassed for it regardless
Acurna: THAT'S A REALLY GOOD POINT ACTUALLY YEAH. it's always difficult in the cases where one character would defend the other physically. USUALLY I JUST.. avoid doing that. or i'm careful about it
LIKE FOR EXAMPLE if character A) of mine went and beat on someone for fun then got beat to hell, but his friend is character B) of mine and then goes and kicks the ass of whoever beat my character A) up that's sort of reaching a weird.. level.
ON THE OTHER HAND, if character A) was beaten up and small/unable to defend themselves/ect and hadn't antagonized anyone into that kind of behavior, i think it'd be fair game/not a powerplay to allow character B) to come to their defense
I THINK IT'S MORE ABOUT BEING FAIR IN THAT CASE?
i keep most of the connections between my characters out of forest for that reason, otherwise most of mine within the forest just actively dislike each other or aren't into getting into anyone's business to solve that problem ALSDKNLDA
Apparanza: YEEEEEAH YOU'RE THE MASTER OF CHARACTER RELATIONS SCREAMS. i love it. zeke, ichor, rose and pIG are all related but i don't get to have as much fun with it because only pig knows sigh >u>. Aand you make a solid point 3: usually there's no reason for your character to ignore your others. WHEN I DO IT ON PURPOSE tbh it's just about my personal convenience. i hate making my characters greet each other in tef. tabbin.. bad. painful. hurts me brain
I can't stress the importance
seconding this Tis rp,
dude, I think you come across
just felt like saying that because please don't feel you're coming across badly because you're hella good at the word thing.
ALSO YES.. I get scared a lot that some people aren't appreciating how I play my characters -and getting offended ect.- but then just can't be sure because what is communication aaaaaa
ya i second this
definitely agree on this;
TYSM for being understanding
AND TY RIDDLED FOR REASSURING ME SIGH
BUT YEAH SO LIKE IF ANYONE HAS ANY.. ANY ISSUE. if anyone is worried about how i feel about them or think i feel.. w/e.. or assume w/e. shortest open letter ever but pls
bls
hepl me. bless me i am just a lil bby buoy
pLS FEEL FREE TO REACH OUT IF IT'S A CARE
I love your dog.
Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!
Why. Why do I have none of
I'M HERE TO CLAIM MY WORST FRIEND OF THE YEAR AWARD
ty niri, she has 3 talent 1)
1) doublechin
2) dumb flexible wonky ankles and not so many teeth left from bad genetics
3) coff rly loud sometime because allergies
WESTLEy.. you're lucky you are my son.
s-show me the double chins
Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!
i'm gonna have to get a good
♥ i love and hate
i love and hate reading your posts
sighs please go improve your sentence structure- rOFL JKJK
OIANDSL RAVEN DON'T BULLY ME
Hope you come back soon
All the best for youuuu
YO LIKE FO REAL WHERE THE
so many chin
Damn, that sentence structure
Glad I'm not the only one feeling this way, honestly. And frankly you're a breath of fresh air, with your energy and chill. <3 Your dog is adorable by the way.
Aw that's too bad you haven't
I think taking a break is a good thing and the best decision to make! I hope you feel better and can let go the bad stuff C:
KIMI I WISH I KNEW. all i
the lack of progress doesn't make me as nervous as the lack of communication sigh. 3:
ASLKDN IVI. her many chin have many issue. even when it only one chin, it a too short chin. she look like mr burns
NEB, i turned to look at her fondly right after reading that message and she instantly upchucked on my bed i s2fg. obv compliments make her very bashful
SAD TO HEAR YOU FEEL THE SAME WAY THOUGH. 3: i hope things ease up for you. AND I'M GLAD TO HEAR YOU THINK I'M FUN TO HAVE AROUND CRIES
OH NO LILSWAN YOU NINJA'D ME 1 SEC
ok here we go-
IT'S SO COMPLICATED. Because i've always been able to have fun even if it's just with my close buddies, screwing around ingame! i've had times where stuff sapped the fun of the game for me, but for a long while now i'm able to feel comfortable most of the time, as long as things are smooth oocly WHICH THEY MOST OFTEN ARE. BUT THEN LIKE at this point it's more it's sad to see a lot of other people are sort of brought down by the energy? 3: it's hard for me to have fun while feelin many other people are bummed out or uncomfortable or unhappy. WHICH IS SILLY OF ME, because it's like not being able to go outside because it's raining in another town smh. bUT SIGH IDK s'tough to have a blast in tense environments and i realized like a month too late that if i'm not having MAX FUN i don't need to.. put my characters in every day.. CRIES. hence my need for a break i guess >u>
qanat gtfo's until logic returns to brain
I hear you. It's all about
That can still change and maybe you will find your way back to the game at some point. Or not.
I think what we need to remember -and which you're helpfully reminding us- is that there is no obligation to keep playing.. which I sometimes feel a pressure to do and that also can take away the fun. Things come and go and it's all good. All good all good! <3
I'VE DEFINITELY felt a major
BUT.. that's been gone for a good long while with a lot of reassurance from my buds and just learning to C H I L L. but then other stuff got sorta blecch, and i remembered that i don't have any obligation to power through any less-than-positive-feelings and keep playing. tHAT'S FOR IRL SHITE. idkwhyiforgetthesethings
BUT OH NO I'LL DEF BE BACK SOON. probably just do other things while i work on some art for a character or two and then kick a mini plot into gear >u>
glad that you're taking a
it really is about doing what makes you feel comfortable and happy. when you're not feeling it, nobody is going to think any less of you for taking a breather. especially cause like...idk the whole point of game communities like this is to enjoy yourself right? however you achieve it.
made by foxofthestars!
wENDI- IT'S NOT SO BAD TBH,
but yOU MAKE A GOOD POINT, nobody should feel bad about taking a break, definitely! it bidyagame..
HAVE A GREAT 'BREAK'!
TYSM! q>q ♥
ey boo we'll see you later, i
i pray 4 u ka... i am in
i am in upstate ny & we are not much warmer and the wind is blowing so hard i am kimisicle
huge huge respect for you for
love you
it's really sad to hear about
hope you'll safely get out of this shitty situation ]:
I know nothing about this
Ugh. Peoples like that are
Respect for you Ka for writing this up. I can't understand why they just yell in other forums shit about you even so it's not true what they say. It doesn't mean if your characters have such an like rapist things goin on that you have the damn rapist fetish too, wtf.
I'm sorry you have to go through with this Ka, just wishing you the best and those peoples who do this to you and think this shit about you, burn in hell. You don't deserve this shit.
Sorry for any grammas, mistakes or if this sound weird. Eng is not my native language :t
Ugh I thought this community