May 3, 2010 - 1:55am — OokamiAzura
You have idea how badly I want to quit this game.
Kill all my characters, quit this game, quit my life.
It seems that recently, the only thing I've been able to do is piss people off and make others upset. Whether it was because I was bitter, moody or what have you, I've lost friends as a result.
I never wanted this, and yet this is all I can do.
I simply...don't know what to do anymore.
And no, this is not a cry for help. It's not a petty attention seeker.
This is an absolute truth.
I'm so fucking sick of this...
I felt this way not so long
Not saying it's best for you, but I just gave it one more chance. You never know who might reach out to help you. And I thank those who did.
I personally would be very sad to see you go, I love to see you around. But if you really think leaving is the only way then I wish you the best. <3
Of course not...
We're here for you.
Please don't leave... If you
If you absolutely must, just leave for a bit and come back...It might help.
But don't leave for good. <3
That's the problem though.
Long story short, I simply can't leave. I'd probably have to die before I left. Not that I'm actually going to die, I'm just saying that's how strongly attached I am to this place. =/
I've felt like this before,
Like Ocean said: "...leave for a bit..." When I felt like I needed to leave the community I left for a week, then I just had to come back becasue I missed it.
Hope everything goes good for you<3
we're here if you need us. We
There's nothing you have ever
Take a break from the community if you need to, or if not, talk to us! We're here to listen and to keep each other sane!
*nuzzles* You've got friends here, remember that!
Darlin, love... In so many
Darlin, love...
In so many words I want to let you know that there is more than one person who has thought of this idea. Some have achieved it, others draw it out and a few survive the idea and continue on simply by making a change.
I can only speak for myself though, I may be wrong. But as a few now, and more will know now, I was getting depressed with Jettem. I loved her and still do, but I needed a long overdue break from her. So i put her away for a little while. At least until i can get some muse back for her. I still come to the community to check up on friends and chitchat. I've made new ones over msn as well. I simply turned my attention to a new character, one I left int he dust and forgot to enjoy.
Sometimes just by using a diff character, or finding someone else to talk to help with that feeling of frustration.
And maybe your change is to kill off your characters. Start fresh, think of something out of the box, create something crazy and exciting for you! Despite what others say, do not let others or situations get you down, when there are others you can turn to for help. In losing friends, you gain others. I almost lost a friend...becasue I didn't speak up about my concern. And I realized, or a hope, that that person had missed talking to me too after some horrid things I had done.
But you can always consider taking a real break from here. Take a week off from rping, going INForest, or coming to the comm site. It's whatever you choose hun.
But remember some of us might be in the same boat as you and always have a listening ear? Or can lend a creative hand if you need it? I would be one who would like you to stay, the recent nights with you have always left me in higher spirits then when I don't talk to anyone.
Know that at least I love you? That you have one person here who does not want to use your guts for a game of jump rope? <3!
Silent...;; Silent, all of
Silent, all of you...thank you.
I guess I just...haven't been feeling like myself lately. I dunno, I just feel like everything's crumbling down around me, and it's hurting me a lot. Even those who I don't know have had issues in the past week or so that have thrown me off kilter.
Am I simply...too oversensitive..?
It sucks to feel trapped and
I would take a small break, and if you can't leave, then play a different character that no one knows about.
Sometimes it helps to take a break with someone you know. It does good for the both of you.
I hope everything works out. (:
Nah, I think a lot of stuff
I don't think it's you; I think it's just the time of the year.
I hope that whatever you decide helps. <3
Making one person happy will
You can never please everyone.
But do what you feel like doing.
Not to be blunt and/or rude, but just fuck the rest.
Take a break from the community site, or all of TEF in general.
Try just playing in forest, so you can find the beauty of the game again.
Like Ravynn mentioned, making a secret character would be a good idea too. Not one with a personality or a particular set, just a deer that you can do what you want to do with it.
I hope you feel better soon.
Drama can go fuck itself.
<3
Ravyn - I know. I hate that
I guess I could try that, it's just my connections haven't been the greatest, which makes me reluctant to switch one character out for another. Still, I suppose I could try it.
Thank you...(:
Ocean - I guess, I wouldn't be surprised either...bleh, I'm running out things to think...
Spirituelle - Well, the only thing is, Lacie is me. I do as I please with her. If I used a secret picto, they would just behave exactly like Lacie. It would be no different..
And yes, drama sucks ;;
Yes but if it was a secret
I'm bad with secret pictos
I see where you're coming
But it's really helpful. (:
Yeah..doesn't help I don't
We'll give it a month and see what happens..(:
Theres nothing wrong with
You can do whatever you want and no one bashes you for it. /shot
Tally... it's totally true.
-wink- xD
xD
Aha, that's true. It's
I had no idea you were making
Now reading the comments, I agree, being anonymous is pretty fun c: And a fawn, too! Especially when you're an advanced player; then you have a LOT more freedom to do stuff and others kind of pay more attention to it. Like Tally said, fawns do get away with a lot xD; But that's a good thing.
I digress.
Um.. I don't know, I just like saying that. But I loooove you.
It's mostly things that occur
I dunno, I just don't like playing as a fawn. I'd rather be an adult, with a set and whatnot.
I'm so vain >D
I love you too...<3..
Yeah msn stuff is what ruined
BE A FAWN FOR LIKE.. 10 MINUTES.
JUST DO IT.
Exactly. That's exactly how I
NO.
>8(
FINE THEN. BE A NAMELESS. :U
BE A NAMELESS.
:U
NAMELESS!? OH PHUCK
OH PHUCK NO.
:DESPAIR:
D8
THEN I CANT HELP YOU. D,
*storms out, dropping clipboard along the way*
jk. cx
fkskfskfks HOW DID GET MY
HOW DID GET MY MEDICAL RECORDS!?
*FLAILS*
fkskfsk I know <3
*hugs*
Um dont worry about pee'ving
I don't think you would have
If you think you need to leave, don't leave forever. Your welcome here and everyone will miss you when your gone. I think many players have had the urge to leave like you did, it's just something that happens to most forum players and such.
Your characters won't be affected if you leave them, but we will. But if you are THAT desperate to leave, you can... but promise us you won't FOREVER?! D:.
You seem like a caring person, even though I haven't known you for long. Your characters are friendly, and the player behind them is probably one of the most caring person I've met on this forum. Your lucky to be popular here, and have your topics read alot, unlike mine.
Even I had the urge to leave since I feel left out but I just go on with life and decide. Maybe you should do same.
Man, I fail at support DX.
Rawr.
Marriage is a relationship where one is the husband and the other is always right.
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I don't know you very well, but I don't know many people at all on here
I hope you feel better soon :c
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Even though I dont know you
The same thing is happening with me on WolfQuest. I went away on holiday for two weeks, came back, and all my best friends on there barely went on there anymore. I've been sending them desperate messages, trying to organise a time to meet up, but they hardly go on there. I felt more lonely then I thought possible on one day, and that made me realise how much I had been depending on the internet and my 'friends' on there. After that, I've been trying to concentrate my life on other things.
(I apologise for that long lecture and story, lol)
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I'll say this: I left the
This is a community filled, I would say, with 98% females ranging from 10-30. You get that much estrogen together, and you've got the makings of a huuuuuuuuuuuge shitstorm. No one does it on purpose, but there are few rules to this community, and people just say what they think and there are misunderstandings and the next thing you know, we're all wolves ripping people's throats out.
You don't have to leave the game, but maybe it would do you some good to just step away from the Comm Site - just DON'T come here - for a week or so. See how you feel after wards. Leaving this place has done so much to alleviate a lot of the stress I felt day to day. Before, I would check this place 20+ times A DAY. That's not healthy. That's obsessive. I found myself talking poorly about people who I don't know from Adam. That's not healthy either. If you can safely say that you spend at least 1 hour a day, griping in IMs to people about things you don't like about either a player, or something involving the Comm Site as a whole?
It's time to get away. Even if only temporarily.
You are the master of your own fate. Not a game, not a community. Reduce stress where you can, and your life will get better. Trust me on this one. I know.
Gaah, I'm sorry for not
L, your post is a bit of a surprise to me honestly. But I digress.
In all honesty, it's not just things from the Comm site. It's things that deer do in the game as well that sets me off. I could list a bunch of examples, but I won't. So I'd still be griping left and right about things.
In all honesty, I was thinking about "leaving" my main account and just ghosting around on a different account that no one knows. But now I'm thinking that won't work.
I dunno, I'm one of those that likes to come around and check, and perhaps find a gem in the dirt. It's hard for me to stop something cold turkey. And honestly, I know you might end up saying "Then quit the game for a while as well," but that's equally as hard honestly. Despite being miserable playing the game, there's a certain attachment there that I can't pull from. There are still some things in the game worth playing for. It's a matter of getting over a menagerie of personal issues first.
To me, Fate is something that can't be controlled. It controls you. You may think you have control, but you really don't. At least that's how I think.
Still, I do think I still have something thinking to do, and some issues to sort out.
Still...thank you, L. I never expected you to post anything here, but still.
<3..
Then you're not ready to
People do not change because they want to. They change because they have to, because the things that they're doing are harming them. It's like cigarettes. People quit smoking every day - and it's not because they want to. It's hard to quit something that's an addition, but it gets to that point that you realize it's either quit, or watch yourself deteriorate.
I enjoyed the comm site so much, but I started to see how badly it was effecting my day to day decisions. When I stopped coming here, I literally felt all the stress that this place caused just begin to melt away.
You'll know when you're ready, because you'll tell yourself, "I'm not doing this today," and you just won't have the urge, the desire to check the 'Recent Posts' page about a dozen times in 2 hours.
I understand what you mean, though - you're right in that it's not just the comm site. It's the game too. I quit that, too - because I got so tired of the BS. You can't do one without the other.