Grub Doe Pondering

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We See the Same Sky





January 24th

So uhh I almost died last Saturday. Couldn't breathe, flatlined and everything I think. I think I literally came back frim the dead. The cancer got into my brain ventricles and wouldn't let any of the fluid drain so the pressure p much ballooned. Had to get a shunt put in, still recovering from that surgery. Needless to say I am no longer in school and I guess the fight's still on, I'm just on borrowed time rn

We'll see what happens now. This cancer really wants me dead, but I really don't want to let it take me yet. Don't wanna be morbid, but I just want to say that in case anything still happens, you guys are amazing and supportive and I love you all. I'm sure you'll hear from Tuo or my sister if anything were to happen at this point ♥













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Fincayra#9828






We dont choose to be born.

We dont choose to be born. She made that selfish decision for you.
Its your life and you can live it any way you want, with or without her support or approval.

My mom is also an awful person. I milked her and her house for as long as I could before I saved enough money to barely make it in NY, despite how abusive she was to me. I never went back.
Just consider this please: Dont jump from one toxic situation to the next out of desperation to get out (Ive made this mistake). Think about the long-term, even if it means sticking around a little longer while you save money. Make sure that move you make is the last, so you never have to deal with this again, and your move will be secured. Also, dont confide in her anymore. Dont give her any reason to make you feel bad or humiliate you anymore.

Im seriously so happy and excited for this new chapter in your life. Itll be tough getting there, but itll be worth it. Power through it like youve done with everything else so far. You got this. <3

Speaking of new chapter, hello page 4!
Kaoori's picture

Thinking of you always, Jay.

Thinking of you always, Jay.
Aivilo's picture

&hearts; Wishing you well


Wishing you well
OkamiLugia's picture

&hearts;

You got this.

You got this.
Iaurdagnire's picture

I wish life was being fair to

I wish life was being fair to you... I'm amazed at your determination to beat this, I wish you all the best with the chemo.

Is there anything we can do for you?

Sending positive vibes your

Sending positive vibes your way. <3
Fincayra's picture

tysm guys &hearts; could get

tysm guys ♥

could get me butter pecan ice cream and a paper bag to wear for when the rash hits
no ilu and i don't need anything but all your good vibes, hnn
Kaoori's picture

it's good to hear from you.

it's good to hear from you. keep on keepin' on. Thinking of you.
Keyblade's picture

Really good to hear an update

Really good to hear an update and glad you're doing alright! Keep up the good fight!
Starling's picture

hey, I'm a silent lurker in

hey, I'm a silent lurker in these parts but often thinking of you. keep on fighting. I hope that you enjoy the bootcamp classes... that should be a really cool experience. !

You are unfathomably strong.

You are unfathomably strong.
Tuo's picture

&hearts;


Echosong's picture

&hearts;


riddledrhyme's picture

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<33
Kaoori's picture

Hang in there. You're in my

Hang in there. You're in my thoughts!!! ♥ Much love.
Tuo's picture

You're the strongest person I

You're the strongest person I know and you'll beat this. Just keep resting and taking care of yourself. I'll be there in a jiffy ♥

OkamiLugia's picture

love you sm and we're all so

love you sm and we're all so proud of you ♥

thinking of you &hearts;

thinking of you ♥

you're in my thoughts, hoping

you're in my thoughts, hoping only the best for you <3
HB's picture

Keeping my thumbs up for you

Keeping my thumbs up for you and wishing you all the best, Fin. ♥
WayfarerHart's picture

Love you dude, hang in there

Love you dude, hang in there ♥
Aivilo's picture

Wish I were better at words.

Wish I were better at words. I'm rooting for you. ♥

Best wishes your way.

Best wishes your way.
Acurna's picture

Here to send my love and

Here to send my love and support if you ever need anything.
Mis's picture

You've been in my thoughts,

You've been in my thoughts, and you'll continue to be. I'm so sorry you're going through this, wish you all the strength in the world ♥
Apeldille's picture

What everyone else has said.

What everyone else has said. I wish you strength and luck <3

Sending strength and love to

Sending strength and love to your way ♥

Even badasses like you feel

Even badasses like you feel tired sometimes, and I hope that in thoae moments you continue to find wells of strength to keep on going.
Starling's picture

thinking of you... keep

thinking of you... keep fighting. <3
wyldflower's picture

Wishing you only the best

Wishing you only the best ♥
Rav's picture

Thinking of you. &hearts;

Thinking of you. ♥
riddledrhyme's picture

You're in our hearts and

You're in our hearts and minds. Keep up the good fight ♥
Fincayra's picture

thank you all &hearts;

thank you all ♥
Fincayra's picture

2/8/20 I'm back in the

2/8/20
I'm back in the hospital, guys, and it doesn't look promising.

I hate to be the second one to do this around here, but in case I only have a few days or a week left, I'm glad my characters and I got to know some of you and yours so well. Thank you for a fantastic childhood and a more creative and fun-filled adulthood, haha.

And thank you, some of you, for giving me second chances.
Keyblade's picture

My thoughts and prayers are

My thoughts and prayers are with you! Hang in there! ♥
WayfarerHart's picture

My heart is with you.

My heart is with you. ♥

I just wanna let you know

I just wanna let you know that what ever happens, you will always be in our hearts. You have been strong.
I don't know you that much or we haven't played together, but I still will send you strength and love to your way ♥ You will stay in my thoughts.

Fin... We are honored to have

Fin... We are honored to have met you. I promise we'll hold you in our hearts, no matter what happens, always. Thank you for being so lovely to me for so long.

Please give it all you've got.
Sleepything's picture

Keeping you in my thoughts.

Keeping you in my thoughts. ♥

adorable art by Tuoho! ♥

Keeping you in my thoughts,

Keeping you in my thoughts, Fin. Hang in there. ♥
Togetherness's picture

I don’t think we’ve ever

I don’t think we’ve ever talked? Or if we have it was not often. Regardless, wishing you the best, and keeping you in my thoughts from today forward. You are a strong soul for keeping on keeping on. Hang in there, friend.
Gustiro's picture

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<3
LostintheEcho's picture

Thinking of you &hearts;

Thinking of you ♥
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HB's picture

You are such a strong soul.

You are such a strong soul. Thinking of you. ♥
Rav's picture

We love you and we're all

We love you and we're all rooting for you. ♥
Thank you for sharing your heart, your stories, your brain-babies. I know we don't interact much anymore but some of my fondest memories come from you and yours. Kick ass and take names. We'll be here, thinking of you. No matter what.

(I wish I were better with words)
Tuo's picture

I'm right here in CO with Fin

I'm right here in CO with Fin and his sister, he's doing good right now. He just took a shower all by himself and is being strong af. Not leaving his side and I'll keep you guys updated in the future if needed.

Iaurdagnire's picture

Fin, you're so brave and

Fin, you're so brave and breaks my heart to read you're in hospital again.

No matter what happens I want to take the opportunity to say how great you are, it's been a privilege to see you live your authentic self in spite of everything you've had to be put through.

Give it hell. We love you.
Aivilo's picture

Aw, man, Fin. Makes my

Aw, man, Fin.
Makes my stomach knot.
Sending good vibes your way. Wish I could do more than that.
Tell your sister hi for me.
wormwoods's picture

Hoping for the best for you.

Hoping for the best for you. I'm sorry so much awful stuff has been dumped in your lap.
Whatever happens, it's always been a privilege to interact with you and your characters. Let's keep up the trend.

Formerly ocean.