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I should have no excuses....(please read)

March 2, 2011 - 7:37pm — LexFirehind
...I think I'm really am losing interest in TEF.

I know...it sucks, but really I got like alot of my plate atm. First of it it's uni-right now it's been taking alot of my time more than ever. I now got classes in Portland and I need to go there by bus two times a week. I'll be there from noon to late in the evening and the commute can be rather hellish with varying speeds in traffic. So now I have even less freetime. Now when I do have freetime I'm working on my art and even then it's homework that may be due the next morning.

Also....I'm getting more involved with that girl I love; she had made a return from her WOW addiction since January and now I'm socializing and hanging out with her 90% of my freetime as well when she's online (as Sweden has a different timezone that is a 6-hour difference from Maine.) Soon enough I may even ask her out-just atm I'm trying to pick up the courage to just tell her how I feel before she and I possibly meet this summer.

Also....I think that Luis (or Boston or whatever the freck one might call himsince he's always changing names) is in the recycling bin. I just no longer feel like playing him. Plus since I hadn't played the game in ages, why should I? No one remembers him, preety much dead to the forest. So...he's a retired character. I could start over with a new character but I'm afraid I'll be very inconsistent with this game-I'm just too busy and the game will just become rather depressing if I feel too withdrawn by other players, as I still have a huge rift between some of them. I'm such a grudging little bitch...why must I be hating myself all the time?

I do want to return and stay permanently. Hell yeah I do- I'll get a new account and a new character. Brand new start-fresh. But is it really worth it if I'm juggling time with my classes, studies, my love, and my art?
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New MSN

February 13, 2011 - 10:07pm — LexFirehind
Hi...once again my old email has been hacked so I went ahead and made a new one. I'm having a hard time getting some of my contacts back because of some issue with Pidgin.

If you want to add me-here's my new MSN account



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New Years Resolutions and Apologies.

December 31, 2010 - 4:53am — LexFirehind
Lol well I'm back. It was a lovely Christmas though I hadn't done any drawings except for a morg hunting. Better add some prey so it can have something to hunt.

Well you can't blame me of course-family and stuff. All I did was help my grandparents get a Christmas Eve party ready but still was plenty busy. But now since I'm back in my dorm and awaiting for a snowstorm, I'll be back in work again. Still have a good chunk of time to make up on those trades and requests from long ago. Plus I think I forgot a commission Well I best make that one soon once I'm done making a few morg paintings.

Oh and those who are not watching my DA, a morg is a self-made species related to the wolverine and had traits of wolverine, lynx, and pronghorn. Here is a painting of one I did- http://transylvaniandreams.deviantart.com/#/d355w59

Ok now looking back at 2010, I'm really looking foward to 2011. Ya know to turn a new leaf. And I think these are more realistic and easily done then said. So here they are.

1. Experiment on my art: Try new things, new styles. More realism. Less cartoons...it's getting old
2. Draw humans!!! My god! I need to get in the zone with them! I have so many wonderful characters waiting for introduction-come on!
3. Do better on my studies...you're here in college for work, not play! Bad enough I have to add a 5th year towards my degree for this semester being a flop.
4. Get more active on TEF...please I got friends there and the friendships are dying. Way da go Lex...why must you bear grudges? It was not their fault, but mine.
5. Work on more original stuff. Make that webcomic. Cervindae. Less fanart shit-it's not gonna help me get on a job; unless I want to work at Disneyland drawing shit for Tinkerwhores and I don't want to do that. I want to work local and independently.
6. A lot of personal improvements...and finally admit my love to her. Stop living in the shadows. I'm becoming miserable here.
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I may just spill the beans out...story of my life

December 20, 2010 - 7:13am — LexFirehind
Well....I might as well come forth and go and tell you the start of all my problems. Feel free to skip this blog since it's just a little whiney vent.

Although I had always thought I was straight, I am bisexual. Or biromantic since I still have my phobia of sex and I am not attracted by sex, but I had fallen to someone of the same gender.Even though I only discovered the truth about myself, I know this is who I am. For 9 months, I had struggled with these feelings and only recently had come out of the closet. I told Nana and Aunty about this so they know, even though Nana cannot fully except I am bi but only want to have a best friend who is female. Well...I already do, this one is a friend I had come close to over the years. I got that need already...this isn't a pining for friendship. It's a pining for love.

A close friend of mine who I had known for a few years now, who lives in Sweden and I had met on Deviantart. She has many of the same interests as me, a simalar personality as well, someone who is beautiful in my eyes and someone who I miss when she is not online. I am even "friends" with her on Facebook.

I do not know how I started to have feelings toward her. I was always fond of her. I guess it was when she went on Facebook and became more active on DA, and finally uploaded a photo of her, I fell in love with her. For a while, I thought I was sick and I could not tell anyone in fear of my Nana possibly hating me for being anything other than straight, I waited for the feelings to leave. But they never had....other time they just got stronger and stronger through the summer, especially when I chat with her on MSN, and when fall came, I started to fantasize her as a potiential girlfriend. I kept on wishing and praying she would become mine and I would wait for hours for her to get on DA or MSN since I'll miss her and be down when she's offline. I love her, it's just not fair that she and I are separeted by distance.
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Hello remember me?

December 15, 2010 - 6:34am — LexFirehind
Yeah, I dunno... Dropping by to say that I am not dead, just a lazy ass as per usual...

Ok ok...I had reason to be gone. Well it was finals period and for about two weeks I was wicked busy. I didn't really had enough time to work on my art since I had too many projects to do. And sorry to say I am not doing well in college this semester...it's hard to be in university.

Well finals is over and now it's my break. I plan to be here in my dorm through most of my one month break. I only plan to go home for a few days for Christmas...but now I'll be more productive in my art and I'll try to be more active here.

I'll post another blog about some of my more personal issues soon but right now I'm drawing for Secret Santas in DA.
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Woops I disappeared again

November 21, 2010 - 8:52pm — LexFirehind
Yeah I'm sorry about that but I've been really really busy because it's near finals period and I will be more busy for the next two weeks since I have tons of papers to write plus a few projects and building my Portfolio for new classes next semester.

So yeah I will be very much inactive for a while until Christmas break. Then you'll see me more active and I may have my characters in the forest around then since I'll be in my dorm for most of the break except for a few days for Christmas.

So yeah take care everyone and wish me luck on the finals
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And this is me

November 8, 2010 - 4:11am — LexFirehind
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-I'm 22
- I was born at 3pm, 2 weeks overdue, weighing 7 lbs
-I'm 5'2...a shorty
-I'm bisexual, learning more towards women, but I'm not interested in sex. In fact, I think it's gross.
-I have a secret crush with someone of the same gender on the other side of the world
-Animal lover-my favorites are deer, weasels, birds, and canines
-Long time Pokemon fan...been into the cult classic since 1998
-I wanted to be a veterinarian as a kid Sticking out tongue
-Now...I'm currently studying Studio Art at University of Southern Maine, wanting to become a concept artist, storyboard artist, children's book illustrator, or animator
-I'm overweight and I love food and cooking
-I still sleep with plushies
-My Pokemon collection is extensive...tons of old Pokemon figures, Bandai kids figures, and model kits
-I'm not girly, and I actually act like a man
-I am diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome, though with years of therapy I had grown out of it and now operate as a normal individual
-I am also diagnosed with PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) and therefore I am infertile
-Open minded Catholic - I am very intrigued with the communication of spirits and I'm for Same Sex Marriage
-My favorite bands are Nightwish, Enigma, and We Are the Fallen, along with other bands
-I have alot of favorite cartoon characters
-TV shows I enjoy include Pokemon, My Name is Earl, Ghost Adventures, Ed Edd and Eddy, Family Guy and Cramp Twins.
-My favorite color is red and black, I dislike pink.
-I love gaming...like Pokemon, TEF, Team Fortress 2
-I'm no good at wording what I want to say
-My accent is very dodgy
-I'm shy, unless I know you well
-I'm somewhat insane
-I'm quite nervous alot of the time
-I love skinny dipping during summer...it feels so much better than a clingy t-shirt and shorts
-I'm an nightowl
-I get high during a full moon
-I love the fall and winter; I get heatstroke easily during the summer and I hate the heat
-Leaves, wind, snow,and cold are my cup of tea
-I have a caffeine addiction
-I tend to wear mens clothes all the time. Women's clothes don't fit me very well
-I live for the weekend
-I'm somewhat afraid of people
-I love landscapes and scenery
-I swear alot
-I suck at math
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Dear Secret Santa

November 1, 2010 - 2:34am — LexFirehind
Well it is coming to that time of the year again.

The time when I make a Secret Santa list.


But my choices of what I will like would be more varied because I'm into alot of different fandoms and such. Predominant;y TEF and Pokemon are my largest fandoms so I can accept anything for them.

Now...for my type of gift, I really have no preference, since I love getting both mail and art. Maybe you, my Secret Santa, can do both . I had given Jen my email and address so if you're assigned on to me, just ask her and she'll send it <3

Ok...ohwards to the TEF goodies.

First of all...there's Boston, or how's he's formerly named, Luis. My first deer and the one that I have not have a new reference sheet for yet due to college. One thing for sure is that his design is now changed. That his chocolate brown pelt is actually now just back and white. His stripes-the three large black ones, his four ear stripes and the three tail stripes are white instead of gold and the body is back. His hair, instead of blonde, is now brown. The eyes however are still a baby blue. The antlers are also a decent size with 5 points on each since he's 4 1/2 years now as a coming to prime adult stag. As soon as possible I'll make a more proper reference sheet to help.

Here is his old reference sheet you can use for his markings-O

Next is my other character, my albino white-tail doe Willow Smiling It has been a while since I played her but she is still very dear to me. So a art piece of her will also be nice :3

And here's her reference sheet-O

Now here's for my other fandom-Pokemon! I had loved Pokemon since when it first came and with Pokemon Heartgold and Soulsilver released, I actually went and made Pokemon OCs from the games.
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A little help please....

October 25, 2010 - 1:53am — LexFirehind
Would some one be so kind to get me the DOTD pelt for Boston? I'll love you forever.

He's on the God Hill with Kita, her trying to get me the fan pelt and real deer mask. Smiling Just wait until I got the regular set.
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