i knew it... i logged on again and after i helped someone get their antlers it went straight back down to 1 fps. i have three letters for you.

W

T

F

i dont understand! i asked Dad about it and he said it might not have enough memory. the other reason could be the server, but that cant be since everyone else's game is running fine... this computer doesnt have a lot of memory for some reason, and the type of memory it has is ridiculously expensive.

it ticks me off so much! and here i thought it would be okay! i knew it wouldnt last forever. i get two chances and then it goes away forever. i guess ill never see Vessel or Fulu grow up. i mean what was even the point in getting Vessel's second set if i cant even use it? gah... i hate this computer so much...

why did Mom have to get the sh***iest computer of them all? so it has just enough memory to let me play, but not enough to let me play nicely. AND WHY NOW? why, after this whole month, did it decide to crap out on me NOW? why couldnt it have crapped out on me before i got hooked on it? it let me have a taste and then took it away! thats like taking candy from a baby!

maybe this means something. i am Christian, and i wouldnt be surprised if this was happening for a reason. ive been getting a little ginger about writing prayers to the Twin Gods, even though i dont believe in them or anything. but this is just unfair... to let me play long enough to really start to enjoy it and the community, and then throw a monkey wrench that i cant possibly solve at me.

im just so freaking pissed! excuse me for venting here, but im so angry right now! this is probably the most unfair thing ive had yet! all the other unfair things ive had in my life have been solved, but this? what am i supposed to do? get a new computer? i dont have that kind of money...

i rebooted the computer today, and i tried TEF and i had no problems! im kinda happy! however, im not fully convinced its okay, so... you know, theres still a great possibility that itll go back to 1 fps...

anyway, i had a blast today! i met up with Darcy and had a lot of fun now that i could actually say something to him XD but Skokey, being a total doof-off, fell into the Pond >:[ so i was naked and Darcy took it upon himself to get me my pelt back <3 he eventually did, and so we went to get my mask

so we met up with another deer (he/she REALLY helped me! its too bad i could see his/her picto!) and i ended up getting this:



XD i looked kinda scary. but then, she/he got me the mask i wanted, the Crying mask!! i couldnt believe it, i almost sneezed it off! then i got really excited and sneezed off my pelts until i came to the Nightfall pelt (which i knew i had somewhere. i got it twice XD)

and then i started to get all excited and ran to a pine tree, where Darcy got me some Butterfly antlers!



i love them both so much for helping me! *gives them big hugs* <3333 i guess im in a good mood since TEF finally worked today



so now i have Vessel's second set. and it took so little time too! i hope i find out who that mysterious deer who gave me the Crying mask was, i want to thank him/her so bad! (lol Skokey looks kinda happy in that pic XD)

im in such a good mood right now XD I WUV YOU ALL SO MUCH <3

*crosses fingers* lets hope my game stays this way

the connection speed is still slow, so... im just gonna live with it. if it ever speeds back up, ill be buttonmashing till the day is done! anyway, ive just been giving cheery insults to my computer while i tried to go places. actually, sometimes it was kinda funny... because i stayed in one position and sometimes i was floating in the air for several frames XD

Darcy im sorry about today.... i was getting 1 frame per second, so i couldnt respond. and when i reared up and did the "OMG" emote, it sped back up, but only for a few seconds because then it went back down, so i did the sad emote again so i decided to get off since there was nothing i could do

im looking for the Crying mask... anyone want to share? im so sorry, asking for all this Spelldata but ive taken a liking to that mask, and i dont know if ill ever be able to get it naturally. i swear, this will be the last Spelldata item ill ask for

*EDIT* hmmm, so aparently i can get it naturally, but only from deer playing 3.1 version. can anyone point someone out so i can talk to them? *totally clueless*

*turns on the propane* Steak Sauce or Teriyaki?

if the Black as Night pelt works on Version 3.2? i like the way it looks... O_o

warning: REEEAAAAAAAALLY big XD

this one has a REALLY dumb intro, so... dont ask XD...

LOL VIPIN COMES TO TEH RESCUE AGAIN XDDDD (let me know if i got him right... >>; )

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"And so?"

"So what? What am I supposed to do now?"

"You should go see her. Are you just going to leave her there for someone else to clean up?"

"Well... no I suppose not... I mean she is my mother."

"Don't forget to pay your respects to her. You may not like her, but-"

"Yes, I am well aware of it. I've forgiven her."

"That's my boy."

***

Skokey woke up slowly. For a few minutes, he didn't know where he was, and couldn't open his eyes. After a while, he looked around and gathered himself. That was a strange dream, he thought.

It was well into the morning, though Fenqua and Fulu weren't awake yet. He carefully slipped himself away from his sister, trying not to disturb her. The air was cool and crisp, with a gentle breeze blowing to the west. Skokey sniffed the air, and predicted a rain shower coming later that day.

He walked in the direction Fulu first came the previous day. Soon enough, he found his mother, covered in fresh morning dew. Skokey looked over her. She was, to his surprise, quite beautiful. Her aged Butterfly pelt still held a dull orange-red. Her face was peaceful under the Magpie mask, her eyes delicately closed. Her body was thin and creaking, her muscles obviously worn away with age.

"Mother... I never knew of your age... I was too blind to see it at the time. If only I knew..." Skokey nuzzled her face, rubbing off some of the cold water.

so.. if i confuse anyone (which i dont think i do, but anyway) i decided to do this.

Simple single buttons


1. Sitting Down: I usually do this if I have to do something, like do a chore or get some food. I might be gone a while, so if you don't feel like waiting, I won't mind.


2. Bellowing: I normally don't roar much unless I'm buttonmashing. But if I see a friend or feel lonely, I'll call out in all directions. Sometimes, if I'm trying to gather a set, I'll be by a tree or a deer and bellow to try to get someone to help me.


3. Sniffing: As its intention, I use this to greet new deer. I normally let them greet me first. If they sniff me, I sniff them.


4. Nuzzling: I'm a little ginger when it comes to this. If I don't know you, and you nuzzle me, I probably won't nuzzle back. I feel bad about doing that, but I reserve nuzzling for my better-known friends.


5. Hopping: A lot of times, if there are a few deer running around in circles, I'll join them and hop at the same time. I only do this if another starts it before I do.


6. Amazement: I do this after I cast a spell, or I'll use it in buttonmashing.


7. Respect: A greeting. Normally the other has to do it first (I'm just impolite like that XD)

my connection speed is crap today T_T i havent been able to get onto the forest all day. i got.. -1- frame per second, switching from 1 to 0... dang it DX

just all peachy keen that i cant get onto the forest when theres nothing else to do. my brother isnt here to entertain me and its like.. midnight.... so gah... what do i do? *twiddles thumbs* what do i do?

*sigh* youd think that since im locked down here in the basement all week, i would at least get some fun out of the forest (not that it really matters... im always on the forest anyway XD) but NO. not today. maybe not even tomorrow. i bet the connection speed is gonna decrease permanently! so then ill NEVER get on the forest without the frickin lag!

and you know what else? the game was just fine until i. got. up. everthings running fine, i wake up and BAM i cant move unless i wait five minutes...

sorry... im a pesimist, or however you spell it. im not very positive right now >>;

so now... i draw.

*EDIT* connection speed is still slow TT____TT

im wondering if it has anything to do with my cat walking over the keyboard to the computer that controls our internet... its hard to explain, but every time she wants to get to the window, she hops up onto the desk and walks all over the keyboard. i turned the moniter on to see that i cant even type anymore. so there must be something wrong with it.

*sigh* ill have to get my dad to try and fix it. otherwise, ill never be able to play TEF again without horrible lag T_T

*EDIT TWO*

nevermind, connection is back to crap. i dont know whats happening... ill have to resort to my dad for this mess. i mean come on, why should I have a fast connection? heaven forbid i would want it for anything >:[ *goes to shred a pillow*

I believe I am going mad. It seems in isolation, the trees have started to speak to me. I often find myself having long arguments with the smaller birches until I snap myself out of it. Does this normally happen to a recluse? Will it stay with me after I have left?

I remember the last conversation I had with a tree... It was about my name. The tree thought it was odd that such a creature as myself would be named 'Vessel'. I myself did not see why it said that until it explained itself. It thought that 'Vessel', which commonly means an empty carrying tool, was probably the worst name that could describe me. I thought to it, 'How do I not seem like an empty being? What is there to fill up my life?'

It responded in saying to me, 'You are filled with potential and determination. You could be so much more, and you realize and strive for it. Vessel cannot be the right name for you.' But obviously, it was contradicting itself. I thought to it, 'Yes, but as a vessel may be empty, that means it can also be filled. Ergo, Vessel is the right name, since I was empty, but now I see that I am filled.'

Oddly enough, the tree accepted my argument, and seemed to nod at me. But soon, I think out of shame of losing the argument, it unleashed a squirrel that followed me for the rest of the evening.

It's strange, really. To find myself talking to a tree, more so to win an argument against one. Will I ever lose an argument to a tree? I think... Maybe it was one of the Twin Gods, giving me more reason to go into the world. That was the first argument to make sense. It showed me that I was not leading an empty life. And that I had made the right decision.

well, heres the index to ALL my stories. i swear, i know this will just keep getting longer and longer XD

Hanging Flowers

Hanging Flowers is a long story about Skokey's past and current life. Much of it deals with his past while the last chapter deal with how he copes with the world today. This story is finally finished

.::Skokey's Fawnhood::.
~Prologue

~Chapter 1
~Chapter 2
~Chapter 3
~Chapter 4
~Chapter 5
~Chapter 6

.::Skokey's Depression::.
~Chapter 7
~Chapter 8
~Chapter 9
~Chapter 10

.::Skokey's Recovery::.
~Chapter 11
~Chapter 12
~Chapter 13
~Chapter 14
~Chapter 15
~Chapter 16