... it is full also of overcoming it. "

- Helen Keller


My way of reminding myself that bad times are just times that are bad - eventually they end and the sun shines again.

I wanted to apologize to anyone who was looking forward to the hunting party, since it was eaten completely. And also to Belair who's gorgeous deer will have to wait a while for a better piece of fanart-a-thon art from me. And to everyone my deer have missed in the forest the past few weeks... *facehugs* you all know who you are.

I have to vent and need some place to rant/cry over this since I am having to do my absolute best to keep sane and it's making me CRAZY. < T-T > .... if you are not up to listening to random problems just skip ahead until you see the smiley deer face again. Believe me, I won't hold it against you in the least. *lol*

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I've been sucked away from my online-deer-life at one of my most favorite times of year, as one of my roommates chose the last couple weeks as his time for having a serious manic issue and going all multiple-personality on us... I won't go into details because I do respect him. But he is making me crazy....... it takes ALL of my energy to battle him when he has these fits... every waking minute I'm having to be his brain for him until we can get things calmed down enough to get his brain back working again...and I have a hyperactive 8 year old daughter to deal with plus my own health issues on top of all that...

I'm exhausted, creatively dying, and just plain burned out...

and I can't stop, or take a break, or a vacation, or dump the problems on someone else because there IS no one else. ... And half of the time when he is in these fits his 'other' personality is working hard to try and undermine all of his treatments and skip all his mediations, and do everything possible to make it impossible for him to level out again. So I'm not only having to be his brain and 'mother', but also having to be his security guard and make sure that his 'other' personality doesn't do something that he'll seriously regret later on... like the stupid mistake it made for him while at work that cost him his job...

... so to top all that stress we're stuck living on 1/2 our usual income, and he won't be getting unemployment because of the nature of what got him fired in the first place. and his medications are not cheap and are not working ANYWAY thus more expenses while we try and find SOMETHING that will help him...

RAAAAWWWWWGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!

............ okay. I'm sorry. I'm done now.
i just really needed to yell about it SOMEWHERE... < T-T >

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< ^.^ > needless to say, I will be desperately trying to keep up with at least my fan-art-a-thon pictures and I'll try and drop notes in now and then, but for now I've missed halloween in-forest (and out of forest too actually... ) and it doesn't look to be changing any time soon until the roomie levels out again... and we have no way of knowing when that will be.

... I miss you all ((Especially you Quammy-pie!!! < T-T > I wanna go sniff Aton and canna do itttt yetttt!!)) and I don't want anyone to think I'm just vanishing/dropping off the face of the planet. <333

*massive face huggles to EVERYONE in the forest*