8.26.10 - The Diary of Friiha - The Clock Stopped Ticking

Apparanza's picture
August.28.2010







I knew.

I knew something bad was going to happen.


Never had I imagined it would be this.



It's not fair.
It's not fair at all.


I made you smile.


I made you cry tears of happiness.
If only I could make you smile a thousand times more.



She's sad it had to happen now.
I want to watch her status change from Offline to Available. To Busy, to Away, to anything else...




Why does this have to happen to her?
Why does she have to die...? Or come so close?
Why can't it happen to someone who deserves it...
This isn't fair.




I felt this... I felt it in my s o u l.





...In my h e a r t.


What does she feel in hers?
























































Pain.




























































She was surprised we all cared... She said her faith in humanity was strengthened.
We strengthened her faith in humanity, everyone.



But she can't leave... she can't leave us.

We need her.
We cannot lose someone like her in this world.


Don't take her yet.
Please don't take her from us yet.



She's lost in a rainbow she's lost in a rainbow she's lost she's lost she's lost no no no please don't no we need to find her we need to bring her back she can't be lost we'll find her we need to find her we need to find her we need to find her we need to find her WE NEED TO FIND HER
W E N E E D T O F I N D H E R
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That clock.
That ticking, ticking, ticking sound...






That timer.
Beep.
Beep.
Beep.
Beep.
Beep.
Beep.
Beep beep beepbeepbeeptickBEEPtockBEEPtickBEEPtockBEEPtickEBPEBtiEBEPEEckBEBtBEPEoBEPtickPBEPockBEEPtickBEEPtockBEEP
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I am lost
In our rainbow
Now our rainbow has g o n e . . .

Overcast
By your shadow
As our worlds move on

But in this shirt
I can be you
To be near you for a while

There's a crane
Knocking down all those things
That we were

I awake
In the night
To hear the engines purr

There's a pain
It does ripple through my frame
Makes me lame

There's a thorn
In my side
It's the shame
It's the pride

Of you and me
Ever changing
Moving on now
Moving f a s t . . .

And his touch
Must be wanted
Must become
Through your ask

But I need Jake to tell you
That I love you
It never rests

And I've bled
Every day now
For a year
For a y e a r . . .

I did send
You a note
On the wind
For to read

Our names
There together
Must have fallen
Like a seed

To the depths
Of the soil
Buried deep
In the ground

On the wind
I could hear you
Call my name
Held the sounds

I am lost

I am lost
In our rainbow
Now our rainbow
Has gone

I am lost
In our rainbow
Now our rainbow
Has gone

I am lost
I am lost
I am lost
I am lost

I a m l o s t. . .






























































































































































































































































































































































































But you will be found.
Hraeth's picture

And if we could, we would

And if we could, we would weave for you a heart anew,
With our prayers, with our hopes, with our thoughts of you.
And though we've never met, I care no less-
I've heard you've given kindness in excess.

And it would be the greatest sadness if you were to go,
so don't, hang on, and don't you dare let go.
Tally's picture

Made me cry

Made me cry again..

Beautiful.
Apparanza's picture

@Hraeth: I can't even begin

@Hraeth: I can't even begin to tell you how incredibly beautiful that is. I cried again.
That's so perfect. It's absolutely magnificent. I'm writing that down. Thank you so much for that ;; &hearts

@Tally: ;; Me too, while writing it and then re-reading it...
Thank you very much &hearts

By Leuvr
Snail's picture

I'm crying so hard. This is

I'm crying so hard.

This is beautiful....
I don't know what to say. I can't think straight.
I was scared of the news, but I know she'll survive.
She's strong. So very strong.

Please...
Come back to us, our little Bunny.

I can't believe this is happening.
I feel like drawing now, thank you for the inspiration.
You're a very inspirational person, Appa.

Ohgod..♥ ;-; And the

Ohgod..♥
;-; And the music...
I'm...Speechless...
This is realy beautiful, Appa..But also..so sad..♥ ;;
And the drawing.. -tears-
Come back..Friiha..


I'm tearing up again. ;; The

I'm tearing up again. ;;
The first thing I thought of when I woke up was Bunny. I can't stop thinking about it all. I hope she's okay..

This was beautiful to read, it was so emotional too. You did an amazing job, and that picture is so pretty. I love how the heart is standing out from everything. I wish I could say more but I just don't know what to say or do now. fsnfsoihsfgs ;;
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OkamiLugia's picture

-glomp of sobbing love-

-glomp of sobbing love- :C
This is just... too beautiful.

We're rooting for you Bunny.